TL;DR: my life is rocking with almost everything but I miss my friends back home also I think I found a boy for me. So, I've been having an awesome time living up here in Portland. During the Summer term, I got Dean's Honor Roll which was rad af. Its like the first time in 8 years since I have been in Honor Roll, and it really makes me feel like my decision to move to Portland to study photography was the right thing to do. I've learned so much with my work while up here and have met some wonderful people to share my experience with, but sadly, I still feel quite lonely through it all. I miss my best friends back home so much, they mean the world to me. I have made some friends up here, but nothing can fill the gap that they have in my life. I recently went to three concerts up here (Polica, Vacationer, and St. Lucia) and I had never felt so alone in my entire life. I used to be able to go to concerts by myself all the time in Reno, but up here, its completely different. I go to concerts by myself because I have to, I don't have the friends to have any other choice. No, I will still go to them because I don't believe I should halt my own enjoyment because of the lack of friendships I have, but it would be amazing to have someone to go to these with. Maybe soon enough I will find some. Also, I've recently started talking to a guy about a month ago that I'm crushing so hard on right now. He texts me almost every day and we will just chat forever about the most random of things and talk about how much we wish we were in each other's arms and to be able to just cuddle forever. The only shitty part, is that he lives all the way back in Tahoe, and the distance worries me. I'm so impatient and I feel as though I require the physical connection to make anything last happen. I'm trying my hardest to teach myself patience because that is my biggest weakness. Out of all of this though, he might be planning a trip to come and stay with me for a week at the end of the month, and I am so excited about it. I can't wait to kiss him and hug him and snuggle with him every night. He sends me recordings of him singing Say Anything songs every once in awhile and that's when I knew he was someone I should try to pursue. This week, I will have my art displayed for the school's gallery contest "Two x Two." I'll have two of my photos featured in the gallery and I am so damn excited. They're pieces from my photo shoot with one of the Mark Sexton Band members, and I pick up the fine art prints tomorrow and I can't wait to see them! I then pick up the custom frames for the work on Tuesday. I'm only a second term student and already have work in a gallery show? THAT'S SO FUCKING COOL OMG. I am so proud of myself and I feel so thankful for the opportunity and all of the people that have supported me over the past year after deciding to pursue my life-long interest in photography. You all mean the world to me. Recently, I left my job at Banana Republic Factory Store because of school reasons, and the fact that it was pretty terrible. I had way too many panic attacks at that store and so much stress, it wasn't healthy for me anymore. I had reported the store to my old manager, which then she reported it to the regional manager and district manager, but my old boss was able to pull the store's terribleness over their head, and nothing changed. So, I had to escape before Black Friday came and I would've walked right out of the store at that moment. Thankfully, on Wednesday I have an interview for the flagship Banana Republic in Downtown Portland so I'm really stoked about that. I've dreamt of working at one of the flagship stores, and it will really help me keep me busy and happy. So, in conclusion, my opportunities are endless here in Portland and I love that, but I'm really lacking in the social life and its depressing me.
