translation of the title: hallucination/imagination
song inspiration: hanggang kailan by orange & lemons
event; piliin mo ang pilipinas by @lumpiang-toge
amihan’s note: thank you for beta reading bebs @/lumpiang-toge, love you so much 😚 honestly? not that confident with this entry fsjbfksd. third entry for the event, finally starting to clear my drafts. anyways, another angst :D happy reading!
summary: armin arlert and you are a married couple who lives a simple peaceful life until he got promoted.
husband!armin x spouse!reader
you lean to his touch, face resting against his warm palms. you smiled up at him as he did the same, “i love you” you said to him. armin cherishes moments like this, you always look the happiest when you’re with him. it’s not even his ego speaking, you genuinely just love him as a whole.
he loves that about you, he has never felt this way towards anyone, he’s always been afraid; afraid that maybe he will be showing too much affection, afraid of being called needy and worse of all afraid of eventually pushing people away because of those. he’s come to the point where he is comfortably living behind the shadows of his friends, however, you’re different.
you’ve come to notice him more than the others, he’s got used to being the last option for everyone. but you came and changed that. you’ve always put him first more than anyone, anything. his cheeks heat up at his thoughts, you have always been different from others.
the odd one out if you put in other words, but it’s not just you.. it’s both of you as a couple and he likes that. a soft smile starts appearing on his lips, hand still holding your face. “armin? sweetie? helloooo?” you wave a hand in front of his eyes.
he looked back at you, his brows rising up followed by a hum. “ah, sorry” he softly replied, you pouted, crossing your arms, his hand falling down from your face. “you’ve been awfully distracted for the past few days” his smile ever so slightly falters remembering why he went and had this day with you, “something wrong, baby?” you asked, concerned for his well being.
“were they overworking you again? i can always ask erwin-” he instantly shook his head, you’ve always become protective whenever it comes to his work. “no, it’s not that”
he took your hand in his, his thumb caressing the back of it, his eyes staring back at yours. you hummed, heart slightly picking up its pace. you suddenly have a bad feeling about this, uneasiness surfacing inside you.
“darling, i got promoted” your eyes widen in shock, not believing your own guts. you’re supposed to be overjoyed hearing this, your husband got promoted for god’s sake but anxiety is all you can feel. you forced a smile on your face, not wanting to ruin the mood.
“that’s great!” you shake both your hands in joy, you’re happy with his news but why are your emotions not cooperating? your guts still uneasy, “it’s overseas” his voice dejected, shoulders slouched. “but you still got a promotion! I’m happy for you baby!” he looks up to you, eyes glassy from the tears welling up, “really?” you nod smile still present on your face, “really”
“to armin!” jean’s slurred words echoed in the bar holding his cup of beer up in the air, the group rented the whole place for armin’s farewell party. which armin deeply disagreed with them doing, but once the group agreed on one thing there’s really no stopping.
the rest of the group repeated his words, cheering for armin who’s sitting beside you. your smile got wider, squeezing his hand, you leaned in and whispered “everything’s gonna be alright” your words reassuring him, his body relaxing almost instantly. he gave your hand a squeeze looking at you and mumbling a quick “thank you”
'umuwi ka na, baby
di na ako sanay nang wala ka'
translation: 'come home, baby
i’m not used without you by my side'
you stirred in your sleep, turning around and stretching your arm towards the other side expecting a warm body to snuggle with. you pat around the bed, brows furrowed in confusion.
you opened your eyes, sitting up straight looking at the empty space next to you. you groan reaching for your phone at the bedside table quickly tapping on his contact. “hello?” his voice laced with concern, you lay back relaxing from his soft voice on the other end.
'mahirap ang mag-isa
at sa gabi'y hinahanap-hanap kita’
translation: 'it’s hard to be alone
and every night, i miss you'
“what are you doing up? it’s the middle of the night there!” he lightly scolded you, your eyes closing picturing his cute angry face. “i miss you” his rant stopping after hearing you, he blushes and hides his face behind his hand speed walking to a room for privacy.
“don’t say those words so nonchalantly!” he whisper-shouted, causing your lips to turn upward, “you’re blushing?” he clicks his tongue, eyes darting every corner of the room he’s in. “armin we’re already married!” you teased hugging his pillow.
“so?” he weakly bite back, “that’s unfair, why are you always so cute?” you whined playing with the ring on your finger as it reflected from the moonlight. conversation flowed smoothly between the two of you, his voice unknowingly calming and lulling you back to sleep. your eyes drooping close, his story slowly fading away.
after some time of not hearing any response from you, armin chuckles imagining you adorably sleeping with your phone falling down on the bed. “see you in your dreams, my darling” he whispers on his phone before ending the call.
‘hanggang kailan ako maghihintay na makasama kang muli
sa buhay kong puno ng paghihirap?’
translation: 'how long will i wait to be with you again
in my life full of suffering?'
you held armin’s hands wrapping them around you, leaning in his touch as you took in his warmth humming in delight. he’s finally here, alive and in flesh. no more cold nights, the bed won’t feel big anymore.
“i missed you so much” you mumble on his skin, “i know” he said while stroking your head. “but you need to let go” he whispers, you shut your eyes tightly shaking your head.
‘at tanging ikaw lang ang pumapawi sa mga luha
at naglalagay ng ngiti sa mga labi
umuwi ka na, baby’
translation: 'and you are the only one who wipes away my tears
and puts a smile on my lips
come home, baby'
“no” you firmly said, hugging him tighter. “y/n, darling” his voice slowly fading “you have to” your breath hitched, his once warm body now feels cold. “armin no” your voice cracking desperately clinging to him.
“you need to accept it” he smiled sadly at you, “no no no, that’s not true” eyes still closed not wanting to face the reality.
“utopia district police chief, chief superintendent armin arlert died on duty…” the television’s static sound filled the room.
you felt your knees buckle, falling down on the cold floor of your shared apartment. your tears that you didn’t know you were holding back are now falling down your face freely.
