Written by... Lacie Beller Time.
What is time? Who decided that there are 365 days in a year, 12 months within those 365 days, 52 weeks within those 12 months, 7 days within each week, 24 hours within each day, 60 minutes within each hour, and 60 seconds within each minute? Time is just a concept, I happen to spend a lot of my time thinking about time (ironic, I know), and fearing how much I have left in this life i’m living. My name is Lacie. I am 17 years old, and I wish I had more time. That might sound silly considering I am very young and seem to have all the time in the world, but what if I ceased to exist tomorrow? What if I left this earth without ever having done the things I swore I would do before I die? Although time, and how much I have left of it is completely out of my control, I have decided to take matters into my own hands and, sorry to sound extremely cliché, live everyday as if it were my last.
My dream for as long as I can remember has been to move to New York City and pursue acting. It’s always seemed like a long shot for many reasons, for example- money. It’s no secret that New York isn’t the cheapest place to live, and for a while I let that hold me back from what I really want in life, which if you think about it is really, really ridiculous. Too many people let silly pieces of green paper control how they live their lives, and too many people give up on their life long dreams because of those silly pieces of green paper. I refuse to let that happen to me. Even if I have to live in a tiny studio apartment with more than one roommate, I will do it and be more than happy because I will be in my favorite place in the whole world doing my favorite thing in the whole world! I know it won’t be easy, but it will be an experience, and every experience in your life helps shape you into the person you are, and the person you want to be. I am done listening to negative people telling me that acting isn’t a realistic career to pursue if I want to have money in the bank. My personal beliefs tell me that mental and emotional stability are far more important then financial stability. So, starting right now I am going to stop letting fear of the unknown hold me back from my true calling. I am going to take the time I have to build the life I want for myself, and if I fail, at least I tried. What I do know is this… I would rather live the rest of my life working a job that barely pays my rent but keeps me in the place that I love with the people I love rather than work some bullshit job that I dread going to everyday, in a place that I don’t belong in, with people I don’t belong with. So, the moral of this extremely drawn out message is chase after your dreams, no matter how unrealistic or unconventional they may seem, and never, EVER give up on getting what you truly want out of life.
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