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All I wanted chapter 26

"What are you thinking?" he asked ending our silence I was going to say something when taylors phone rang. He picked it up "Hey....alright... were on our way right now" he said hanging up as quickly as hed gotten it "hayles?' I asked as he nodded "ready?" he asked getting up to my displeasement as he held a hand out helping me up as he wrapped an arm around again making me smile softly in the dark as we walked back inside to a curiosuly waiting jerm hayley sierra and dougie. "ready? This is the make it or break it. Were tied and the person who wins this next gmae wins" Hayley informed us as taylor pretended to stretch purposely pushing his butt into me as I laughed "Get that huge thing outta my way girl!" I said to him as everyone laughed the mood light and happy again unlike earlier. "pshh girl please" he immitated a girl voice. I got on and we began dancing to hey ya as he started to lose and decided to hip bump me as we began laughing and trying to get each other to lose. Everyone joined i as we had a blast and evenutally had to leave after getting a bit of noise complaints... but it was totally worth it. I got off slumping into the car seat making jerm drive as taylor sat in the back with me and dougie and shaun upfront and hayles in the very back with sierra. "so what are you doing after this?" taylor asked "hmm. Sleeping sounds nice ohh and a shower" I said as he laughed "you should come over and spendn the night or something" he said nervously scratching his ear a que id picked up when we dated.... "Um sure, are yall sure you dont wanna just go to sleep though?" I asked "No way! You all shouldspend the night. make it a big group partay!' hayley said as we all agreed but instead of sleeping in the bus we were pulling out tents and going to have a camp out arou9nd the bonfire. Wed gotten back to the buses and all went to our buses to pack up except dougie who went to mine after quickly throwing on some pjs aka some sweat pants and a t-shirt since it was a bit cold. "hey punk" I said throwing on a To write love on her arms (ironically) on as dougie walked on "Hey can we talk?" He asked "sure thing" I said pulling on a beanie with my hair still down and some socks as i loked up at him still paying attention "So... you know how I like hayley right?" he asked a bit shyly as I laughed "dont worry ill getcha in with her. I havent asked what she thinks of you but she kinad got out a bad realtionship not too long ago so who knows if shes up for a boyfriend" I said as he nodded hiuggign me "Your the best!" he said before we walked off my bus laughing together. I had my blanket and pillow as I walked out to pick which tent Id be sleeping in. Probobly one with hayley and sierra as I immdiately heard theyre voiced laughing as I unzipped it and put my stuff down "Hey kiddo wanna talk?" Sierra said as I rolled my eyes "sure i guess" I said as hayley was smiling widely "so...who is it?" Hayley asked excited "who?" I asked "Dougie? or shaun? unless theres someone else... Who are you dating? Theyres been suspicions flying around " Sierra said as I frowned "dougie? hes a cutie" hayley added as I laughed "Im not dating anyone. I just... It was a good day. And speaking of dougie what do you think of him hayles?" I asked her as she thought "he seems nice. havent realy talked too much to him though why?" she asked but I didnt answer "Wait.. why was it a good day?" sierra asked "I dont know.... I just.." I stopped as taylor stuck his head in "hey Sky come see this!" he said excited as i smiled getting ready to stand up as he popped his head back out and i felt a hadn on ym wrist "please dont tell me your still hung over him sky" Hayley said as I looked to the ground "sky. I thought you were over him?" Sierra said "well im not. I never was...." I said getting a bit peeved. "Skyler we all know you guys dont have a healthy relationship... You guys dont need to be dating again" Sierra said as I pulled away "Were not even dating...." i said sighing as I unzipped it. "You wouldnt understand...." I said softly walking out as they both pouted and I wrappedmy blanket around my shoulders feeling sad. They were right of course. I was getting my hopes up for nothing... He just wanted to be friends.... God I was stupid. I heard taylor call me as I looked over at his head from a tent. I lifted an eyebrow coming over as he helped me inside the meduim sized tent. "umm..." i said but he laughed "no. I know how cold you get and my tent has a clear screen so we can see it from in here too" he said undoing a string on the roof of the tent as it opened revealing the sky. It was beautiful filled with shooting stars and the moon almost full and super bright. I looked up in awe as he laid down beside me where Id already positioned myself. "I... it remind me of you.. the sky" he said as I smirked "its the name huh?" I asked as he smiled back "darn, howd you know?" He asked as we both looked up to the sky as he played his ipod softly while we talked about everything. Life, family, music, whats been going on, friends, sports anything and everything (almost). We were both looking at the dark sky as and then you by Greg laswell came on. I wanted to cry as I looked at him. he was staring directly at me. We didnt speak. We didnt need to. The feeling that shared the tent between could be felt by anyone yet only taylor and I would truely understand its strength and beauty. He looked into my eyes still locked as I reached over softly running my fingers through his soft hair. he just looked into my eyes. I knew he could see it. The hurt, the pain, everything i was going through, the reasons i never went out, the reason i was getting gray hair at 22 but to my suprised as I looked back into his eyes I could see his own hardships hed been through. His eyes had bags he looked a bti older like stress had taken its toll, I could see the effects of every stupid mistake id made that broke him more and more. i wanted to cry but I couldnt stop looking at the man infront of me we just stared into each others eyes as the lyrics spewed out softly "How my days they spin me 'round And how today it sets me down And how my days they spin me 'round And how today it sets me down Alongside you..Alongside you...Alongside you..." Greg sang from taylors ipod as i felt his hand on my cheek softly touching it as if he was scared, I was just as scared. He pulled me closer softly as my eyes closed and we kissed softly. His kiss longed but not forgotten embraced me. I felt the familiar feeling of the love wed shared. I kissed his longer wanting to prolong this kiss not knowing what may happen when we parted. The song ended and with it did our kiss. He looked at me and I saw what id done to him and felt horrible as I looked down "we cant do this taylor" I said softly holding back my tears "Says who? I know you feel what I do skyler" he said as I shook my head "we can never be together. Im just going to hurt you again." I said feeling the tears overwelme my eyes threatening to spill over my eyelids as he caressed my cheek softly still looking at me though I couldnt meet his eyes "Nothing can hurt me worse then what Ive had to do not having you in my life" he said as I shook my head "No one wants us to be together. I dont deserve you. I screwed up big time..." I said as he pulled me to look at him. "I dont care what anyone else thinks. I know whtas best for me and right now I dont knwo if I can survive without you in my life... They dont feel what I do each time you enter the room, You make me whole" he said softly as I looked up at him. He leaned in again as we kissed softly again. I felt the tears fall out and down my cheeks as he pulled away softly rubbing them away. "im so sorry, Im so sorry" I kept repeating in my soft sobs as he held me "I forgive you for everything... I really do" he said rocking me softly in the tent as until I calmed down. I leaned into him as he softly stroked my hair whispering everything I could ever want to hear but the best part was I knew he meant every part of it. "tay?" I asked as i looked at me "yeah?" he asked smiling as I smiled back "What are we going to do about everyone else. They dont want us together...I mean i dont blame them..but I dont really want to have to deal with anyone at the moment" I said as he nodded "I could care less what they think about us. But you are right. We can keep this on the down low... that is if... were back umm together" he said as I smiled "Are you asking me?" I asked as he nodded but instead I kissed him deeply as i giggled "of course I want to" I said as he softly stroked my cheek with his thumb "good" he said kissing me back as I laughed falling back onto the blanket as he kissed my cheek before i laid my head on his chest. I looked up at the sky as we listened to the playing music cuddled close. "hey taylor? Skyler? Where are yall???" I heard Hayley calling as we reluctantaly parted just in time as hayley peeked her head in. "oh hey, Were cooking smores if yall um want some" she said looking at us as I shrugged "sure" I said starting to get up as she nodded leaving. Just as I was about to crawl out i felt taylor grab my hand softly pulling me to him as we kissed deeply one more time before I slipped away and we both got out the tent. We went to the circle of people surrounding the bonfire hayles dougie sierra justin jon blake shaun and now me and taylor. We walked out as everyone smiled "hey deserters" dougie said making hayley giggle as he shinned a smile at me as I returned my own. He lifted an eyebrow at me and I knew Id have to explain myself to him. Taylor got two chairs for each of us as we made smores talking as I wrapped myself tightly in the blanket wishing I could have taylors around me instead. I took a bite of my smore as i frowned getting it onto my nose as everyone laughed "Best smore face goes to Skyler!" blake said as I laughed wiping it off and putting it onto taylors cheek "psh I deserve an award for that" I said as he laughed eating it as we all laughed and talked. "so what are the sleeping arrangements?" Hayley asked mainly irected at me "Jon and I are sharing that tent" Justin said "Blake shaun and I are taking the biggest one" Dougie said as I smirked realizing it was next door to hayleys tent "me hayleys and you if ya want are taking that one" Sierra said asking me but I felt a bit upset at them still. "Actually I think Im gonna grab my own tent. Ima rowdy sleeper" I said as she frowned at me but didnt say anything "and me and jerm are taking that tent?" taylor asked as jerm nodded coming back outside with a jacket. Everyone slowly disappaited as I was left with dougie hayley taylor and I as we talked softly till hayley yawned. "Im heading to bed, You should too sky, You look really tired" Hayley said as I shrugged "Maybe in a bit. Night" I said brushing her off as she frowned knowing I was still peeved at her and sierra. "Guess thats my que hayley wait up!" dougie yelled as they walked to their tents together. I felt taylor scoot closer to me as I laid my head on his shoulder while he wrapped an arm around me. "I wish I could kiss you right now" he whispered as I smirked "Whats stopping you?" I asked as he looked back at the tents as I rolled my eyes to the people who were peeking out of the tents. "oh" I said as he laughed. "Wanna head to bed?" He asked as I shrugged "If ya want" I said as he thought. "Meet me out here in an hour after everyones asleep" He said as I smiled "I feel like a school girl sneaking out" I said as he laughed "Thrilling isnt it" he said as we both got up laughing. He put out the fire with me and we walked to the tents together. His was before mine as we stopped and I hugged him as he looked down at me. "I love you" he blurted out as I smiled leaning up "I love you too" I whispered in his ear before we parted and I continuted walking down the line of tents as i felt a hand pull me. I turned bizarely as sierra pulled me into her tent as I looked at her like she was crazy. "Skyler dont be mad at us" Sierra said as I saw hayley looking at me too. "It doesnt matter" I said getting back up but she held on. "We just want whats best for you. We all know whats going to happen if yall date, its always the same. Someones going to get their heart broken." Sierra said as hayley nodded "I dont think you understand how much you hurt tay sky. This was the first time id ever seen him cry. You broke his heart and whatever you guys may be starting again its going to tear you both apart worse then you both already are" Hayley added "What are you talking about" I asked trying not to sound like I knew anything "You think no one has noticed the diffrences in you sky?" Sierra questioned "Ive never seen you like this and I hate it. I want the old skyler back. The fun one who loveds hanging and wasnt in this depressed state. I know theres been alot going on but we want you back. Everyone does. I mean even your fans know somethings up and thats really saying something. Please just talk to us. Were just trying to help" Sierra said as I finally got fed up. "Theres nothing to help! Fine." I said feeling the tears threatening to run down my cheeks. "I wont have anything to do with him... " I said as sierra held my hand "Sweetie we just want you to have time to fix yourself before you start something that might hurt you even worse. You guys had a bad complicated break up." Sierra said as I got up leaving then turned to look at them. "Fine but I dont know what you guys think will happen because theres nothing to fix when you already feel dead on the inside" I said barely above a whisper before turning and leaving I went to my bus crying. I wanted taylor so badly, I needed him but I couldnt have him. I would only hurt him and they were right... I went to my bus and cried into my bunk. I was curled into a ball sobbing most of the night. I held off as much as I could but I gave in going to the bathroom to my ritual going back into the never ending cycle. THe hurtand pain rushing back to me once again. I woke up the next morning with someone knocking on my door. I got off the couch and was going to get the door when i remembered how I probobly looked and went to the bathroom quickly washing off my face and pulling my hair into a bun along with pulling down my sleeves. I went to the door to find a worried dougie. "Hey, weve been looking all over for you. Whered ya go last night?" Dougie asked as ishrugged "I went to my bus. It got too cold last night" I said lying again. God Id been doing that so much lately. He frowned "Were all really worried about you sky. After dave and busters I thought maybe you were okay but I dont know anymore.You seem to have gotten worse" he said as I shrugged really wanting to tell him what hes been going on with me when hayley and sierra walked over. I could tell what id said last night had gotten to them. "hey sky" Hayley said looking at me worrily but I wouldnt meet her eyes. "Oh you found her?" Sierra asked as I shrugged "You guys are worrying over nothing. I was on my bus" I said as I felt the stares of everyone. "well Im going back to sleep" I said closing my door as I went back to my couch and closed my eyes forcing myself to sleep. I woke up at 2 and rushed to get ready for some soundchecks for tomrrows show. I slipped into some sweatpants and a tanktop with a big jacket ontop. I didnt bother bringing my phone knowing how many messages would be there from everyone. I just wanted to be left alone, I couldnt understand why they didnt get that. I pulled my hood on the wind blowing as I made my way to the stage I saw my band waiting as I heard someone call my name. I didnt stop. I knew that voice and I couldnt bear to face him... Everything that hayley said was true. I would do nothing but hurt taylor. I was bad for him and I had to stay away. I wanted him to be happy even if it might kill me in the process. I mean I already felt dead inside... I didnt really have much that made me happy. I didnt know how I woke up every morning... "skyler!" Taylor called again but I ignored him and walked onstage with my band to do a sound check. Dougie lifted an eyebrow at me but I ignored him too. Imsure hayley had told him what id said last night by the worried looks he was giving me. Id let them have a mere glimpse of what I was feeling... I could only imagine their reactions if they ever found out the extent of how much I was hurting. We went through the song list and I sang wearily my voice cracking a bit from tiredness, and stress. My voice was terrible so I kept it low key. We finished and left before anyone could talk to me. It was too late. I felt someones arms grab my gently as I turned and looked up at taylor as he looked at me. "What happened last night?" He asked pulling me into his arms as i looked down. I couldnt meet his eyes. "I cant" I whispered trying to convince myself im sure he couldnt hear though because before I could say it again his lips pressed againstmine. I couldnt help but savor it knowing it would be the last time Id feel it. We parted as he looked at me suddenly worried im sure seeing the tears streaming against my face. "Sky. Whats wrong? Did I do something?" He asked shooting 100 questions at me but I just cried and pulled from his arms. "I found her" Hayley's voice said as i looked back seeing her as she looked worried and stressed. I turned away from her as I looked at taylor. "I cant have anything to do with you taylor" I said as he looked at me completely shocked. "What? Skyler. Your kidding? Wait. What did I do? Im so sorry, Skyler please..." he spat studdering as I backed away and ran off running hard not knowing where I was going. I cried as the thought crossed my mind so quickly I barely understood but I did... I wanted to die. I didnt want to live. I was hurting so much, I didnt want to deal with this, not anymore. I couldnt take itt.... I shook the thought away though the thought now lingered in the back of my head. I ran to my bus as I fumbled to open it. I closed it locking it as I leaned back against it crying into my hands as I felt pathetic... I tried to calm down but nothing helped. I heard my phone ringing but I left it alone. I was so alone in this world and the one person who understood me I could never be with...

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Hold me close chapter 27

Once again my apologies, im sooo sorry guys. Im gonna try and hurry to get these out faster but i cant make any promises at the moment. Lifes been extremely hectic. So believe it or not i had to go back and reread this fic so i could remember what was going on.. im feel so ashamed. But im backk and im not going anyways as long as yall stick it out with me X Thanks i love yalll :D

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Hayley POV

I sat in shock looking at a literal ghost of my boyfriend’s past. Gabriella.... Woah. It’d been ages since we'd seen her. This wasn’t the same gabby from a year ago she looked amazing like, model amazing. I knew for a fact every guy was ogling at her. Shed gotten really fit and when wed known her she was already slim. It was crazy to think about how much had changed. She smiled sweetly at everyone. Then looked at me.

"Hayley!" she said smiling and walking over to me. I stood up hugging her softly

"Hey... haven’t seen you in ages" I said as she laughed

"Yeah, it’s been way too long. You look..." she was interrupted by someone making a joke and laughing and everyone beginning to talk. She looked back at me then her eyes shot down to my stomach. I frowned unconsciously covering my stomach with my hands.

"You’re..." She asked as my eyes got wide.

"Gabby" I said softly under my breath but we both stopped Taylor walking over

"I can’t believe you’re going on tour with us gabby. It’s been too freaking long! I’ve missed you!" he said putting an arm around her shoulders.

"Yeahh. You two seem like you’ve been pretty busy though...” She said her eyes moving to my stomach again. I blushed clearing my throat

"Yeah... tour and all.” I said as she nodded

"well... emmm. Congrats.." She said as Taylor frowned

"For what?" he asked as she looked at me confused

"Taylor can you give us a minute?" I asked as he nodded confused

"He doesn’t know?" She asked in a hushed voice both of us walking to a less crowded part of the place.

"Yes, of course he knows! But no one else does." I said folding my arms

"How could they not? Hayley. You’ve got a clear baby bump... how many months are you?" she asked as i frowned

"I’m 13 weeks... how did you know?" I asked as she laughed

"Well for one I haven’t seen you in about a year and so going from the super skinny you to now having a bit of a baby bump made it a bit obvious... when are you planning on telling anyone? And how the heck are you going to tour?! You’re pregnant!" she said as I hushed her

"Please lower you voice gab, were not trying to inform the whole restaurant okay. We have it all figured out. It’s a short tour. I’ll be fine. Then were taking a break and... We’re not sure when we’re going to tell them okay... but id really appreciate it if you didn’t tell anyone gabs." I said pleading with her

"Of course I won’t tell but... don’t you think everyone’s going to be a bit hurt you’ve been hiding this from them?" she asked as I shrugged

 "Well it’s like every day you announce to your friends that you’re pregnant..." I said sighing as I frowned bending down slightly and touching my stomach...

 "We should probably get back. They’ll wonder where you are" I said taking a deep breath.

 "Yeah. C’mon" she said holding her hand out as I gingerly took it. Well. There’s one less person I had to tell...

 The dinner finished and I couldn’t help but be anxious. The more people who knew the more likely it was to get out into the public. What was I supposed to say when they asked me if it was true? Lie about the baby growing inside of me... my baby... no.... Our baby... deny its existence? I don’t know if I could ever do that. The living breathing baby I was carrying... no. I could never find it in me to do that. I could barely imagine the idea of destroying such a wonderful creation of life like I had only months ago.

 For the next few weeks I was on my toes. My diet had already changed to fit the baby’s needs. All the things I had chosen not to eat for my voice I had to supplement for the baby. Yeah it sucked a bit but I did enjoy the extra goodies I got to eat now if only for the next few month.

Today I was officially 16 weeks. The tour had started a few weeks back but one of biggest shows were today for the mere fact that it was in Franklin. We could sleep in our own beds, if only for a night. But also for the fact that I had another doctor’s appointment with Taylor.

"Ready hayles?" He asked as I nodded getting up from the couch I had been lying on. He reached out to help me but I brushed his hand away.

"You’re doing it again Taylor..." I warned really not in the mood for any over protectiveness.

"Hayles chill. Is it really that bad to help my girlfriend up off a couch?" he asked as I sighed

"Sorry" I mumbled getting up by myself still. I’d been slightly moody lately and everyone knew it but I guess they assumed I was on my period or that’s what Taylor told them hell if I knew.

I was walking over to the door when I stopped gasping.

"Oh my God" I said trembling as I bent over my hand immediately moving to my growing stomach.

"Hayles? Hayley! What’s wrong? Hayley" Taylor said rushing over but I stuck my hand out to stop him as he reached me

"Hayley? God are you alight? Did something happen?" he asked his questions going a million miles an hour.

Instead I felt tears roll down my cheeks as I gently took his hand and put it to my stomach. His questions instantly stopped... It was the first time Id felt the baby kick, Sure id felt slight moving but never kicking like this. It felt like butterflies in my stomach...a bunch of kicking butterflies if you ask me. He looked up at me gleaming with pride as he sat me down in the nearest chair.

Before i understood what he was doing my shirt was up revealing my stomach and hed placed his ear on it gently rubbing it. I covered my mouth to hide the tears, of joy of course.

"Hey you... " He gently whispered.

"It’s your dad bud... how ya holding up in there?" he asked his voice soothing.

I knew I didn’t believe in a lot of the baloney out there especially about listening to music and making your kid smart while they were still in the womb but at that moment I knew he... or i guess she had heard Tay because the kicking stopped and i soon felt a hand pressing into my stomach. A soft hand to where Taylor had pressed his hand to my stomach. I knew I was crying now. But it was because I was so proud. So proud to be able to say this was my boyfriend. This was the father of my child... our child and it was then that I realized we were going to get through this. We were going to raise an amazing family and be happy together no matter what may come our way.

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I write to remember chapter 12

Casey POV

After Kats bachorette party I had to admit things were getting back to normal hayley was staying over alot more and I was enjoying having her around again. We were just having some rough patches were all.

she was showering as I laid in bed when her phone beeped. I looked over and saw she had a new message. I smirked wanting to see if it was taylor so I could text him back for fun since i hadnt seen him in awhile as I slid her iphone to unlock. What I didnt expect was the message from chad. The little preview was all I needed to quickly lock it back and put it down...

Message from Chad:

I miss you. I need to see you. Call me?

I frowned. Was he trying to contact her again...

"Babe? Where the spare towel I always use?" Hayley called from my bathroom

"Oh um the laundry room. Ill go get it" I said getting up a bit dazed from what id just read.  I quickly went to the laundry room as I heard her phone begin to ring on my way back. She had gotten it as I lingered at the door, Hayley was unaware I was there.

"Please dont do this again. I know...and It was a mistake... No" she said as I plucked up the courage to walk in.

"Here ya go" i said taking in her still wet body as she looked a bit worried as she quickly hung up.

"Thanks" she said as I slyly took in her body trying despreately to forget what id read. 

"See anything you like?" She asked catching my attention as I smirked walking over and kissing her deeply before pulling away leaving her breathless,

"well thats one way to start off a great day" She said kissing me back as i felt my way for the bed drowning my worries into another lustfilled session with hayley.

We finished and got dressed and I allowed myself a shower and hayley endulged herself with another shower too considering we had both gotten very sweaty and hot again.

I was towel drying my hair as she came out in another one of my jackets

"God. im going to have to go shopping when you leave. You seem to be disapperaing with all my jackets and shirts" i said as she laughed sitting on my lap kissing my neck

"I love wearing your clothes. and its a plus that your quite stylish...." she said as I laughed turning my neck to allow more of her small kisses.

"Plus they all smell like you which is the best I get when your gone" she says as I smile kissing her

"you forget I always come back though" I said as she smiled

"How I got sucha amazing girlfriend... the world may never know" She said before jumping off my lap.

"So whats the plans for today?" She asked as her phone rang. She walked to it ignoring the call as she looked to me for an answer. I let my eyes drop from her cell phone.

"I have a special lunch planned for us" I said as she frowned

"no breakfast?" She asked

"Nope considering its already 2:35" i said as she frowned

"damn. Time flies when your having a blast" she said as I laughed putting the towel into the laundry basket. I shook my hair brushing through it before deciding on leaving it down and just pulling a beanie on. I smirked at my purple beanie matching the rest of my outfit. I got up as hayley wrapped her arms around my waist

"my girl looks very kissable right now" she said as I leaned down

"Oh? Well whoever she is you better kiss her since she is very kissable" I said back as she laughed kissing me softly before i pulled away

"cmon. your gonna make us late at this rate" i said slipping my hand into hers and pulling us out into the living room.

Hayley POV

I looked at my phone. Chad was calling me. I saw his message earlier but ignored him. I just wanted to forget this whole fling we had. Casey and I were at our best, not to mention how amazing sex was... Just sayin'

We got to brunch and he texted me for the 6th time. I sighed as i ignored his phone call for the umpteenth time. i had to put my phone I silent just so casey wouldnt worry about who was blowing up my phone at the moment.

We were having a lovely lunch together and this asshole was ruining it. I had sucessfully ignored 3 more calls before I started to get fed up. I kept looking down at my phone as I heard casey sigh out loud

"you know... we can leave and you can take care of whatever buissness you seem busy with" she said as my head shot up

"what? No.. I... no. Sorry" i said as she nods and turns her attention back to the plate infront of her. I feel guilty. She planned a nice lunch for me only to ruin it with this stupid crap.

"Actually... i feel a bit under the weather. Can we head home for a bit?" i asked as she looks at me slightly worried

"sure if ya want. Where to? Mi casa or yours?" she asked

"mine. Ill take some medicine while were there. Then maybe a cuddle movie date?" i asked as she smirked

"Id loved to" she said as she apid though I protested. We got up and walked out as I bumped into someone.

"Crap" i said dropping my phone as i realized who it was.

"Hey taylor!" casey said much more enthusiastic than I was. is tood up straight as she hugged him tightly as he hugged her back then looked at me. His eyes questioning as my phone light flashed again. I looked up and ignored it but knew hed seen the name by the time i pulled it from view. I slipped it into my pocket as he sether down.

"hey hayley" he said as I smiled

"taylor." I said as casey slipped her hand into mine

"Its been too  long since ive seen you. Call sometime. Well all hangout" Casey chatted as he nodded his eyes still questioning me. I knew what he was asking but instead I let my head drop like a puppy thatd just been scolded.

"well I let you guys go. Call me if you need me case. We should definately talk grab some coffee or somethign" he said as she nodded and hurried me to the car. My mood was now an all time low.

Casey POV

We got to hayleys house and she was quite. Someone had been calling her throughout our dinner. id heard it till she silenced her phone. I ignored it though. I wanted to enjoy our lunch.

We got out as she handed me her keys to go inside

"ill be in in a bit. I gotta make a phone call" She said as I nodded walking inside

"ill make the popcorn" i said walking inside as she lingered outside. I left the door cracked for when she was going to come in. I put on the tv and slip in Pet cemetery and pop the popcorn into the microwave waiting for her. I sigh going to the door as I hear her talking on the swin on her porch. I was about to open the door when i heard what she was saying.

"No. I told you to stop calling" she said quitely though I could hear the stress in her voice.

"I... How could you even ask that chad? Really?" she said as my heart dropped.. So it was him... " she said looking down. She wiped her eye. Was she crying? I was so confused but she continuted as I heard his voice muffled so i couldnt make out his words but her reaction was enough to hint what hed asked

"Yes,... Of course I love you. Feelings like that dont just disappear you knoow but I told you things are complicated right now...No I cant see you." she contintued as I walked away not wanting to hear more. I slid down on the the floor my back against the front of the couch. I bit my lip. What the hell did I just hear. I mustve been wrong... It wasnt the chad I thought. There had to be some explaination. I got up walking outside into her backyard and sat on her little loveseat outside.. I didnt want to believe it. The cold air helped keep the tears away. I was going to be strong. I loved hayley more than anything. She would never betray me by talking to chad again... I closed my eyes and felt a tear spill over as her words echoed in my head

"Of course I love you" Again and again. I wiped my eyes quickly realizing shed be back inside but I couldnt bring myself to go back in. I let the cold air hit me the wind blow my hair astray but I stayed looking out into her backyard frozen.

"Case?" hayleys voice rang as I heard the front door close.

I took a deep  breath as I heard her come outside

"Here you are. What about our cuddle date babe?" she asked cherrily as though she wasnt just talking to her ex about how she loved him... I bit my lip as she sat down beside me

"Casey? Jeez its fucking cold. Your shaking babe" she said wrapping an arm around me as Ileaned into her. I needed a rock and hayley was it... I didnt know what id do if I lost her... I couldnt loose her... no...I woudlnt. I hugged her

"Yeah. Lets go inside" I said softly as she nodded and went inside to watch the movie. Thats all I said for the rest of the night. I was afraid my voice would betray me and show how truely scared I was... How much I was hurting...

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I write to remember chapter 11

Hayley POV

2 hours later I was laying on his chest. My lips swollen from the frantic kisses we exchanged. He held me as we watched movies. Enjoying the silence. I knew it was wrong but I did it anyways. I felt like I needed him... but I needed her too... Fuck Hayley why were you doing this to yourself? Taylor and I hadnt spoken since the last time he came over... Fuck!

I sat up as he looked at me.

"You look tired" He said moving a stray hair from my face before sitting up with me.

I nodded yawning a bit as he smiled

"Cmon" He said getting up taking my hand with him as I was lead upstairs to my bedroom. He pulled back the covers as I smirked

"Arnt cha gonna tuck me in?" I asked as he laughed

"thought I might join you instead" he said already in the process of sliding his pants off. I shouldve said no but I didnt instead I slid my own pants off and shirt replacing htem with an old big t-shirt and sliding into the bed waiting for his presence behind me to hold me through the night... to be there for me like he use to be.... But then again if I did all the things I shouldve I wouldnt be in this perdicament...  I closed my eyes and let my worried drift away as I dreamed.

Casey POV

After rehersals I went back home a bit lonely. I had fun at rehersals but I missed having hayley around. She didnt call me. I sure she just fell asleep but I missed hearing her voice. my ipod was on shuffle and currents Drakes hate sleeping alone seemed to fit my situation perfectly. I leaned back in the chair texting emily. I watched some tv and even took a nice bath before heading to bed. I tossed and turned till I finally just laid on Hayleys side taking in her smell. It helped a bit but I missed her...

The next day came and still no word. I Hated the clingy type so i refrained from calling her. I went shopping buying alot of things I probably didnt need. Hung out with some friends even went to lunch with an old high school buddy of mine but i missed hayley terribly. I finally gave in and called her.

No answer. Great. Leave a message or no?

"Hey youve reached my voicemail. leave a message" her voice sounded as I frowned thinking as I heard the beep of recording

I cleared my throat

"Hey babe. Its me. Just called to check in. call me back?" I said hanging up. I hoped it didnt sound too obbessed I just missed her I guess and was incredibly bored. I spent the rest of my day playing video games and call of duty beating jerm online and a couple rounds of wii sports and just dance. When i got bored of that I went outside to my new hammock laying on it. My phone began to ring. I smiled seeing hayleys name appear as I answered it swinging in the hammock.

"hey" I said

"hi" she answered clearing her throat

"Sorry i didnt call. Been a bit busy" She said as I shrugged though she couldnt see me

"All good." I said

"So... You called?" she asked a bit impatiently

"Um yeah, Just checking in. Thought you were coming over for the show tommrrow" I said

"I told you Ive been busy" she snaped as I froze.

"Im sorry.." she immdiately apologized

"its sokay" I said as she frowned

"Im a bit stressed is all" She said

"Wanna talk about it?" i asked

"Not really. But Ill talk to you tommrrow about you show kay?" She asked

"yeah. night" i siad

"night" She said

"Miss you" I said softly then heard the dial tone. I sighed getting up and deciding to call it a night since hayley wasnt coming over and I had a show tommrrow.

I went to bed though I was a bit restless but I tried because I had a show tommrrow. Im sure hayley was probably just a bit grumpy though I dont know why. 

The next day came all too quickly and before I knew it I was driving over to the venue to go play the show. We did a sound check and went over the setlist as I sat anxious to see my girlfriend. The only thing is she didnt show... I waited till I had to go onstage and still didnt see her in the crowd. Im sure she had an explaination but I was hurt since shed promised she would go. I played, we rocked the venue and the fans went nuts but I wasnt really feeling it. I left not going out with the PTV guys for drinks and instead headed home. My phone started ringing as I quickly looked only to be slightly disappointed it was emily.

"oh hey" i said as she sighed

"Well thats not a very good welcome. Whats wrong love?" She asked as I opened my door

"I dont know. Hayleys been acting really weird again" I said as she was quite

"Care to explain?" She said as I shut the door locking it before collapsing into my bed

"I dont know. We were fine a few days ago then she got some weird phone call and said it was  FBR but I didnt really think it was then she said she was going to her familys house and I havent seen her since. She even ditched my concert tonight" I said frowning as emily was silent

"well say somthing" I said 

"I... Maybe you should talk to her about it? Call her yeah?" she asked

"I did and she was a bit snarky with me. Then hung up." I said as she sighed

"Maybe shes just PMSing" She said as I laughed

"Um I dont think so..." I said

"Well I dont know then. Just play it by ear... And what do you mean phone call?" She asked

"Well she walked out to take it after they wouldnt stop calling and was whispering no and trying to convince someone something. It was weird and didnt sound like the FBR techs like she said at all. Im a bit worried" i said slipping my shoes off as I put her on speakerphone

"Maybe time for some snooping?" She asked

"No..Im not that type of girlfriend. Ill give her space if thats what she wants... maybe Im getting on her nerves? I think Im just gonna wait for her to calm down a bit and well fix thigns" I said

"Sounds like a plan" she said munching on something as I smirked

"eating again?" i asked as she laughed

"yeah... So what?" She said laughing with me

"Your gonna get plump and then you wont be able to wear that binki that always got us free drinks at the parties" I said as we both cracked up

"alright. Well you sound exsaughsted. I hope the show went well. Talk to you soon" Emily said

"yeah. Bye ems. I miss you terribly" I said as I heard her smile as she spoke back

"I miss you more case.... oh and Katie says hi" She said as I laughed

"Hello katie. bye em" i said as we both laughed then hung up. I went to bed and resolved to give hayley some room.

Hayley POV

Thump... thump... thump...Thump...........thump.....

I felt chad get from ontop of me sliding out as he rolled from ontop of me. As soon as I felt his weight leave i turned to the side facing away from him.

chad got dressed

"Ill see you later when I get back in a couple days or so." he siad reaching over and kissing my cheek as I nodded

"Bye" I said before turning over back to my thoughts.

The only thoughts that ran through my mind?  I just had sex with chad... I just cheated on my girlfriend.....

I couldnt believe today made two weeks that I hadnt spoken to Casey face to face... I couldnt.. I couldnt face her. Wed talked on the phone a couple times but Id ended up just snapping at her. I was horrible. I was a bitch really and she put up with it. We hadnt spoken in a while ,maybe shed figured out what a horrible person Id been...that I still am... Id slept with chad... we had sex... It was okay but she was in the back of my mind. Ididnt know what made me do it...  Itd been the first time. I couldnt figure out why id been being such a bitch to her. Maybe if shed call me I could fix things, whenever I called her it was short and I was bitchy. I wanted so badly to fix things.. though they seemed a bit unfixable now... I cheated... I cheated on casey with chad... and probably would again...

I had to see casey today though, We had planned on going to Kats bachorlette party together... as a couple of course. I bit my lip anxious yet terrified to see her. The door closes as I open my eyes to see chad had left. I got up walking to my window as he got into the waiting cab with his bags. I went to take a shower. I suddenly felt dirty. Horribly dirty as I quickly stripped and scrubbed my skin raw. I began crying... I didnt know if I could take this... The lying.. the cheating. I was tearing myself apart... All over what? chad... I didnt know what I felt for him or casey... THey were both important people in my life... Chad had been my first love and casey... She is in love with me now. We work together, me and her. But chad just waltz in adn Im defensiveless against him... I needed casey though. She was my rock,. She made everything better... I lov....

I cleared my head. Stop this hayley. stop it right now. I stepped out the shower my skin red from being scrubbed too hard as I got dressed and got my phone.

Mind if I come over? What time are we going to the party? I texted her as I anxiously waited for a reply. It took almost 10 minutes for a reply and I was already on the edge of my seating imaginging how she couldve found out.

Sorry just got out of the shower. I didnt know if you still wanted to go but you can come over now if youd like.

I smiled. okay so she was in a good mood though she definately could tell she wasnt the happiest with me avoiding her.

Okay. Ill be over in 20. I texted as I quickly got dressed and brought clothes to change into for tonight. 

I got to her house a bit early as I sat inmy car. I sighed. Shes my girlfried... I shouldnt be nervous... Except for the fact that ive broken all her trust in me, betrayed her, slept with my ex and have been avoiding her. yeah... nothing to be nervous about my ass. I was anxious as I fianlyl got up the courage to knock on the door. I heard the tv and her footsteps as she opened the door. She gave me a half smile as we hugged akwardly. I followed her inside putting my bag down as she sat back down on the couch bundling herself up in a blanket.

"Want some?" she said opening her blanket for me to slid next to her as I thought it about but shook my head no.

"its a bit hot in here. How are you cold?" I said as she rolled her eyes

"coming for the girl whose always cold" she replied back flipping the channel. We watched tv silently.... I looked at her every few seconds waiting... Waiting for her to ask where id been, what id been doing, why I didnt call... but she didnt instead she just watched tv as if nothing was wrong.

"well?" I asked as she looked at me then back at the screen

"what?" she asked

"Im waiting for it..." I said but she didnt flinch as my sarcasm

"And what might that be?" she replied smoothly

"The questions. Where ive been, why i hadnt called you, something.. You always want to know..." I said huffing more than I should have.

"Im sorry I didnt know I had to interrogate you" she said pulling the blanket tighter around her.

"Well your normally very nosey do so whats stopping you now?" I said sharply as I saw her flinch. My words were alot meaner than I intended.I didnt mean to I just kinda snapped. She was playing dumb.

"Im sorry for not questioning you? If you wanted to tell me you would have" She said before getting up and walking into the hallway to her room.

"Casey" I said following her but she stopped turning to me at the door.

"You leave for a week, not telling me anything and then show up and want me to interogate you when your obviously the one whose been pushing me away. I thought you needed room okay? so i didnt bother calling you. If you wanted to talk me as bad I wished you did I figured you wouldve called. This isnt some fucking one way relationship hayley. We both have to fucking try for this to work" she said her voice raising then cracking as I looked into her blue eyes seeing them begin to tear up

"Casey. Im sorry ive been a bitch I just.." She stopped me

"It hurts you know... Sitting her pretending everythings okay, because its not... Im not. I hate pretending that I dont miss you becuase I do. Terribly. Quite frankly it sucks sitting here not knowing when your going to do it, just end now if thats what you came here for okay?" she said looking away from me before turning to go into her room. I followed immdiately and wrapped my arms around her holding her tight.

"ive been horrible... I know. But I dont want things to end I swear that... I love what we have and I know ive been screwing up but I need you casey... I really do" I said as she sobbed softly hugging me back

"Then act like it hayley. I want my fucking girlfriend back. The one that i fell for not this. Youve changed. You dont act the same, your secrective about everything, and you snap at me for no fucking reason and I put up with it over and over and Im just tired okay?" she said and I looked at how fragile she was. She looked like she hadnt slept in awhile or eaten for that matter. I squeezed her

"Im trying Casey I am.. i just... im scared... Of everything. Give me time... Please. I miss you and I miss how we use to be. I know ive been snarky and bitchy but I just... Im on the edge and I need you to keep me from falling" I said as she hugged me back sniffling

"You need to try harder" she said softly as I nodded

"Im gonna try, Im gonna try so much harder case." I promised as she nodded and I pulled us to softly lay on the bed. I held her though she was slightly taller than me but we made it work. She laid her head on my arm as I softly stroked her hair as we just laid together enjoying the company.

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All I wanted (Skyler)

So i was browsing the internet and Ive pretty much made up my mind. This is what Skyler would look like if she were real (from the newer chapter where shes dyed her hair a dark brown) :P (Shes contemplating the nose ring.)