#paulish

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MIO NO NA NO MOTO NI (2020-2023) by fumikawa yoshino & tashiro miya

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[paulishuniverse]

The Grand Opening.

Mmm. And so it starts. 4:27am on a Wednesday night. Looks like I finally cracked. I used to hate people that use Tumblr and here I am, writing my first post. I’m not sure what direction is this whole thing going to take, as my inspiration tends to come in an unpredictable pattern. Sometimes it’s music, sometimes it’s photography, sometimes it’s women. But hey, I doubt many, if any other people will get to read this, but for the sake of introduction: Hi, I’m Paul. I’m currently 23, almost 24 years old. I have moved over to the UK in December, 2013. I’m originally from Poland, although deep inside I feel detached from my nationality, as it doesn’t tend to be the most reputable with general public. I dislike being looked down upon, although hypocritically I often end up being the first one to judge. It’s a character flaw that I’m trying to put reins on. I’m an avid PC gamer. I have spent over 7 years playing World of Warcraft, met wonderful friends all over the world, including my city, Sheffield, and currently I am living with my fellow ex-guild mate. I see my personality as a prism. Whatever range of emotions you’ll throw at me, you can expect a whole spectrum of it back. I’m foul-mouthed, arrogant, I love the attention. But I’m also extremely empathetic, caring, affectionate. I cherish intellect a lot. Bad grammar, words like “av” “mi” “babi” literally cause an acid reflux in my stomach. Please don’t fucking do that.  My whole “adventure” in the UK has been pretty fruitful. I developed myself in my mental, social and sexual life. I’ve learned quite a lot about myself, what I want, and what I expect out of life. Currently, I’d say I’m going through the rebelious teenager phase that I never had a chance to go through, as my life was devoid of anything exciting prior to my flight. At best it was the excitement of meaningless achievements in a computer game.  I’m a drugs enthusiast. Something I developed recently, and definitely would like to explore further. No, not the “let’s smoke a crackpipe under the bridge”-junkie type. I read mass amounts of people’s personal experiences, study the substance, become aware of any dangers, and possible complications that come with it. I find exploring my mind to be very interesting; and despite the taboo and all the negativity that this word carries with itself, I strongly believe, used properly, they can be a key to the most beautiful experiences people can share. It’s not a common view to share, obviously. But I’m hopeful (perhaps deluded) one day I will run across a girl who will be open minded enough to dabble in this with me. Having that said, my experience is limited - I have tried: Cocaine, Amphetamine, Codeine, Diazepam, Ketamine, Weed, MDMA. Uppers like Coke are not my thing. Benzos are fine to relax on. Weed is something I smoke every couple of days, sometimes more often. MDMA has given me one of the most intense experiences of my life. My first time having sex on it is virtually indescribable in words. The intensity of the experience is out of this world. Complete bliss. I really enjoy the empathetic part of it, being able to connect with people on a different emotional level. All the negativity gone for couple of hours. No flaws, no cracks, no judgements. Just the most humane appreciation for another soul. I’m currently setting my eyes on LSD and Mushrooms. I have zero psychodelics experience and I am so curious to see it for myself. Eventually would love to have a life changing DMT trip / Ayahuasca journey to South America. I love sex. Sure, everyone says that. Although not everyone perceives it the same. I’m not really after meaningless, random shags. It’s the feeling of sharing the most intimate moment with another person. Exchanging gazes and body heat. Making concious effort to please her as best as you can. Responding to her movements, synching your breath.. it’s a game of body language, and it tends to speak far more than words can ever express. Although I have a brief history of one night stands, I don’t find them comparable to the feeling of having sex with someone you’re attracted to/in love with. My imagation is fairly sharp when it comes to it, I do tend to read a lot. I guess I’m on the verge of kinky. I do enjoy roleplaying, scenarios and investing some braincells into making the experience unique. I enjoy the filth as much as the passionate/romantic side of things. I’ve dabbled in light BDSM, Hypnosis, Waxplay, Control, Teasing, Choking, Blindfolding and all that fun stuff. Hell, I went through Daddy/Little Girl phase as one of my partners was mega into it and I managed to acquire it. I’m on the Dom side, but do sometimes switch the roles. Definitely would love to explore Tantric at some point. So yeah, occasionally you might see some filth in here. dealwithit.gif Currently I’m single and have way too much time for myself, perhaps maybe why this whole blog idea. I’d like to think I’m independent and love my solitude, but fact is above everything, I feel rather lonely. My friend’s circle here shrank due to natural reasons, and I don’t get to go out and meet people as much as I’d like to. I’ve recently been putting more effort into broadening my contacts through Tinder and PoF. I do in a way despise the pressure it creates, one in a while you’ll bump to another person you might share some things in common with, and you’ve got yourself half an hour to impress her to the point of her curiousity in you. You failed? Tough shit, there’s sea of dicks on the line and you’re drowning in it. Person with my character type struggles to advance in life without having someone to make the effort worth it. Weird, coming from a self-proclaimed hedonist... I’m also a Photoshop junkie, so you might find various art made by me on here. I wouldn’t be able to live without music. My biggest pet peeve are people that don’t pay attention to lyrics whatsoever. Oh well. That’s probably far more than enough. If you made it through all of this, well done. It’s 6 am. My eyes are aching. I’m off to the dream land. Peace the fuck out. :)