#paxmemories

[its-ravyn626]

Marvin the Magnificent and Chase Brody( @felldeer )will be at pax east today, say hi if you see us!

[its-ravyn626]

Welcome home 💚

[its-ravyn626]

Took a while of searching for a frame that would work for this but I finally found one that fit good enough.

My prized possession: @therealjacksepticeye’s coke sponsorship. A priceless treasure. 100% real legal certificate.

Here’s the full thing outside the frame if nobody saw it from before.

(Now I just need a place to hang it)

[its-ravyn626]

I’m an absolute mess rn.

Thank you @therealjacksepticeye @therealgggab @pixlpit

[its-ravyn626]

Pax is over

I'm gonna elaborate more later on everything.

But this weekend meant everything to me.

Thank you.

[its-ravyn626]

Bonus: totally real legit Coca-Cola sponsorship certificate given to,and officially signed by @therealjacksepticeye.

[its-ravyn626]

You know it’s days like today I really miss being at pax around everyone in this community. I just spent the morning helping for an egg hunt with a large group of people I know and have known for years. It took over 40 minutes for anyone to even say hi to me, let alone actually talk to me.I felt so isolated and alone. Which I never felt when I was with everyone at pax. It felt like people cared that I was actually there and wanted me around.i felt like I finally found a crowd I fit into.I miss that feeling.

[its-ravyn626]

(I know I’m re-posting some pictures here)

So pax is over, god it feels like just yesterday I had to make the tough decision to go to this alone. Except I wasn’t alone, I somehow was able to convince myself to reach out to the community for this and it became something more than I ever could have imagined. I got the chance to do everything I wanted and more, I got to talk to people and feel like I fit in, I wasn’t the awkward girl in the background that felt unwanted. Every time I was able to talk to people in this community like they were old friends, most of which I had hardly every spoken to before and I doubt I would have ever been brave enough to talk with if it wasn’t for pax. I got to talk with people about common love for Sean and his videos and I was able to open up about some hard things I’m going through that I almost gave up on having someone take serious and not brush me off like it was nothing. I got to meet Ethan, Sean, Gab, and Robin, people who I don’t think I would have met without the people I met at pax. I went to this for one thing, but got so much out of this. I really can’t explain how much this meant to me to go to. I can’t express how thankful I am that this community is so full of nice people. Last Year was one of the hardest years of my life. I swore this year would be better and it wasn’t happening. I want this to be my fresh start at a good year and a better me. I want to do better for myself mentally, I want to be more involved in the community. I want this more than anything. And I feel like this was the push I needed to start fixing my life for the better.

So to everyone this weekend I will say the same thing I said to Sean when I met him, when I knew I couldn’t say everything I was fully feeling.

Thank you.