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the things we used to share | thomas sanders

[peachysanders-blog]

i haven’t been active for a while. i know, i am a shitty person. i’m supposed to be a supporter, a friend, a teammate, for both you guys & thomas. i’m supposed to be the one to lift people up, a shoulder to cry on, a reassuring glance. but there’s been a lot going on. all of which i know i deserve.

i’ve been at an extreme low. i confronted my parents about suicidal thoughts. i’ve had multiple instances where i’ve been so paranoid that i couldn’t contact anyone, due to my fear of them hating me. i’ve been admitted to a psychiatrist. i’m in the process of switching schools, which trying to pass summer school.

the latest issue? i’ve been manipulated by someone i thought i could trust. i froze. i didn’t know what to do. i’ve wanted to vomit since that day. i can’t concentrate. i still pass him in the halls, & i still pass him in my neighbourhood. in person, i don’t blink twice. inside, my heart is begging to turn back the clock. every part of me is fighting with myself, because even i don’t believe it’s really a big deal. is it?

please forgive me. you guys deserve a better friend than this.

[hellyeahthomassanders]

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYY!! 💖🎉

Thanks, Sarah!!!! ❤️

[shenanigans-of-a-young-person]

now that I finally have the chance to sit down & get on tumblr, haPPY BIRTHDAY YOU BEAUTIFUL HUMAN ❤️

Haha thank you (btw its awsome that p nuch all the thomas fan blogs have united and told me happy birthday)