nb culture is, while minding your own damn business, being informed in a babying and condescending tone that "excuse me ma’am... miss.. the ladies work boots are over on the other side"
nb culture is being so anxious and tense you end up unintentionally snapping at the condescending employee because you've been misgendered like 800 times this week alone and were worried about this exact thing happening, as you do anytime you walk into the "wrong" clothing section - even though you're in exactly the section you're supposed to be in thanks - or really any store in general for that matter because its never a good experience, and you can only take so much before it drags you down into a super fun pit of depression, even more self hate than normal, suicidal ideation, and all your best self destructive tendencies
nb culture is coming home and venting to your s/o, who doesn’t always say the right thing and in fact sometimes says something so wrong it’s shocking and who doesn’t really understand but tries his best..most of the time because he does love you it’s just literally every other person he’s ever met has been cis and though he’s known about your i.d. since before y’all started dating you’ve only started demanding respect and actively talking about it in the last year because up until that point everyone (but him) in your life told you you didn’t deserve the respect and that if you acted “out” he wouldn’t like you and “we’re still gonna call you a girl anyway”, before inevitably crying because there is zero reason for trips out in public to be this goddamn draining
there is zero reason for existing to be this goddamn draining
picking out clothes to try on shouldn’t make me want to crawl in a hole and die
trying on shoes shouldn’t get me dirty fucking looks from Suburban McFuckoff
the thought of going to the store in the first place shouldn’t be both a little bit exciting and something that fills me with dread
stepping over the threshold into a store?? yeah that shouldn’t feel like i’m physically hitting a wall of tension and anxiety and i shouldn’t feel like i’m goddamn drowning every time i’m in public
existing but a little to the left shouldn’t offend people AND YET
fuck this town and everyone in it.
