#perimopause

[thecomebackmumma]

4/13/21 So yesterday was a good day. My parents had the girls for a few hours whilst me & hubby went for lunch a a bit of shopping. We went for Lebanese. It was lovely a favourite of ours. We had a good chat and we needed it away from the home and all the stresses. I remembered why we were such a good fit and why we work so well. We had lost that. I have to remember that this part of my transition is extremely hard for for him we also have our teenager going through a lot hormonally too. However, I did explain what helps me and our daughter and what doesn't so let's see if he takes it on board. Fingers crossed! 🤞

Our daughter is at a karate selections today in Wolverhampton so hubby has taken her and me and our youngest are at home. I didn't sleep well last night, the dreams are so weird and vivid also maybe pressures but our teen kept waking. However, proud that she went and faced her fears or insecurities.

I am still on my period after stopping the HRT two days ago and the bloatedness has started to subside. I feel better a little mentally and I seem to be more calm. Maybe my body doesn't like being pumped full of hormones. Who knows?! All I know is I am really starting to feel a little better already. My mood is starting to life although I am on the Mirtazapine so could he that too. I have decided I am going to start on plan tomorrow in a bid to lose a few lbs before Christmas. I lost nearly 6 stone in just over 5 months with this diet and I had maintained for over 3 years before this hurdle so know it works and is achievable to maintain. I will keep you posted. I need to start regaining control of my life, my body and my mind! Only I can do this. I know by regaining control of this will definitely help me feel in control and strong enough to deal with the rest.

I will keep you posted but honestly, I feel today will be another good day again. I am going for a dog walk with my youngest and may pop by the local farmers market for a treat before starting tomorrow. My closure. Now for the next chapter. Will speak to you later. Rosie x

[schneckonbeckons]

This blog is about...

Perimenopause. Firstly, is it two words or just one? The computer spell check seems to separate the peri from the menopause. Which is funny cause it doesn’t recognise it as a word. Which is ironic, because most of us women don’t even know we’re in perimenopause because no one talks about it. Like it’s something that we just suffer through and menopause is actually the only stage in which anything is mentioned. And yet, perimenopause lasts for years. Like a decade or more. So, why all the silence around it? Why didn’t anyone mention this to me, at the very least, after I had my kids or at most, when I went to my doctor THE FIRST TIME to ask about why I had bled for 3 weeks straight and my PMS symptoms were off the chiz-ang. I began looking for answers then. I began to ask myself, somethings going on here, I'm not in menopause according to my doctor. That she actually tested me for. So what is going on? It was a little post I found on Lenny Letter written by Gillian Anderson. She wrote about how she had suddenly lost control of her emotions and was acting like a toddler and couldn’t understand what was happening to her until her therapist told her it was perimenopause. She’s now written a book about it. More on that in later posts. I’ll leave you with this last quote. lots of love xx

I came across a beautiful quote on Annapurna Living "Tell the women that during the childbearing and menstrual years, all the life force goes to the pelvis. During peri-menopause and menopause, that the energy moves into the heart. Now we can do our lives’ work. We can be clear and say what we need.”