look... I KNOW that isolating yourself when you're grieving is not a healthy coping mechanism...
but at the time... THAT WAS WHAT I DECIDED TO DO.
I re-read my threads from 2019-2020 in the dt fandom and i can see the change ... i was so full of life in 2018. so happy.
But my entire life from 2017- 2020 was spent Caregiving and careing about myself felt SELFISH.
roleplay was my one outlet and my one source of happiness so of course, i decided to be unhealthy and dive into that instead of actually processing things.
I had been silent with everyone - no discord or tumblr messages to anyone for about 2 weeks... then i slowly moved to talking with people I felt SAFE talking to.










