#personal sheeet

[lewisandneil]

It's heartbreaking seeing Geoff on all my TV channels, in the sanctuary, making eye contact with the fans and thanking them for being there, that man gosh he is so strong, I can't even fathom the pain he is going through, and having all these fucking cameras and microphones thrown at you, asking bout your sons death. And I'm so grateful Paul is here with him. The man who protected his child for so many years. This is all so painful.

[lewisandneil]

Well hellou, idek if anybody remembers me cause it's been years since I last reblogged something BUT it's still and forever will be my 1D safe place, soo IM SEEING LOUIS TOMORROW FINALLY after not being able to see him in 2022 I'M SO HAPPY AND EXCITED 😭😭😭😭 like seeing him perform solo in a stadium (the same one I watched 1D perform 10 years ago!!!!) the feelz are so real, and I'm so so proud, prob gonna cry tmr lbr. So yeah hope everyone is happy and living your best live! I always remember you all 💜

[lewisandneil]

hello, dont know if anyone remembers me but ANYWAYS I was watching louis’ wired interview (i havent watched any louis’ interview in ages... just seeing some gifs/quotes here and there) AND HIS VOICE AND ACCENT and when he said “louis tomlinson one direction that’s the band I’m in, was in...” I died. the feelz. that’s it that’s what this post, after 1000000 years, is bout

[lewisandneil]

atm idk what to say but at the same time i have so many things to say?? like i just saw a gif of louis laughing and i just lost it, since last year on the x factor and these last new interviews promoting two of us he has looked happier and that’s just what i’ve always wanted for him, after what happened with jay i was so worried bout how louis’ would cope and after two years i believed he was okay and at peace. and now this, i cant belive how fcked up life is being to him and his family, nobody deserves to lose two of your most beloved people in  the world, your family, in a span of two years. and fuck felicite was so young. and fck louis is one of the most humble, wonderful people in this world, he doesnt deserve this shit. to have to cope with so much pain and grief. and at the same time i feel so helpless cause there’s nothing we can do to take his pain away, just wish and hope he has people around him supporting him and that he knows we all love him so so much and that there are so many good things coming his way. 

rest in peace felicité tomlinson, i know you and jay will keep guiding and looking after louis, lottie, daisy, phoebe, ernie and doris forever and ever.

[lewisandneil]

“ Mummy needed you and you desperately needed her “. wow this broke me

[lewisandneil]

7TH OF MARCH IM AKJAHSKAAMKA #TWOOFUS IS COMING TO WRECK ME I CRY

[lewisandneil]

hello, it’s been *insert 84 years gif* im not like back ‘cause idek what using tumblr is anymore... im a twitter user ~let’s say~ (like i only use it to retweet kpop stuff lol)... cause im not even using my kpop tumblr so... but w/e the point is that im not here to talk about sel*na and niall hanging out in that wedding ‘cause like a few days ago i was thinking how possible would it be for them to get back tgehter (-.-) cause she is single, he is single, there’s no jb anymore (whyy) and im bout to admit that i really think 90% of flicker is about her (why again niall why)... so it could happen. BUT NO I WONT TALK BOUT THAT. im not gonna talk bout how those 8 seconds of louis’ new song made me tear up cause what is feelings?? and like i need the song out now and the album and promo I MISS MY CHILD (even tho i did keep up with him in the x factor ok)  AND EXCUSE ME BUT HOW IS LIL FREDDIE ALREADY 3 YEARS OLD?!!! but no im not gonna talk bout that either. and no im not gonna talk bout... the rumors i read bout leemo and naomi c. cause like what??!?! and the fact that WHERE IS HIS ALBUM WHAT IS HE DOING GOING TO DIFFERENT EVENTS (i know socializing igi), like i need the album (I NEED A LIAM BALLAD, HAVE I SAID THIS BEFORE??) and no im not going to talk bout harry ‘cause i literally (sorry harold) have no idea of where is he, hwat is he doing,.. the only thing i know (through my sister) is that there were rumors of him building a house in freaking tokio?!!! like. but no im not gonna talk bout that. i was only going to talk bout the drama with niall and his (ex childhood bff) cause like WTF?! one of my last posts last year /wee btw HAPPY NEW YEAR LMAO/ was wondering what had happend to that mullingar crew and neil... and now i get this and im just

(yes i used my baby’s reaction gif, appreciate :P)

idek why i still follow sean like... but i’ve read his tweet a few weeks/months ago? about him not being niall’s friend but i didnt think it was like... this. idk man it was such a shock like ¿? BUT YES THIS WAS IMPORTANT so i had to come and rant here =D if you’ve actually made it here... liek i love you. HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A NICE YEAR, I MAY CONSIDER OCMING BACK WHEN LOUIS’ DROP OUR NEW ANTHEM BUT IDK. like i’ve a bunch of stuff in my likes from moooooooooonths ago... maybe someday i will actually reblog them 

i love yoouuu

[lewisandneil]

I CANT BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING LIKE BITCH 7 YEARS IVE BEEN WAITING FOR BOYFRIEND NIALL AND HERE . IT . IS AND THEY LOOK SO ADORBALE ALL MATCHY MATCHY AND KISSING! AND BEING HAPPY AND MY BOY IS OUT AND ABOUT WITH HIS GIRL AND IN LOVE AND HAILEE IS A WHOLE CUTIE.

IM SO *CANT STOP SCREAMING*