#personal worries

[kaleid-tay-scope]

So I kinda

Want to do some "The Archer" posts but worry that I'm too late and not caught up with what others have said in case I repeat a theory. Would that bum people out or do you think people would understand?

[the-httyd-lover]

Personal:

At the moment I’m less than 9 hours away from the first out of four super crucial exams, that will determine whether or not I will be entering the university. It’s been a really tough year of preparation and anxiety for me and right now I’m so stressed and alarmed that I’m almost shaking (I hope I’ll be able to sleep tonight...). I thought that posting about it on tumblr would make me feel a bit better.  Oh God, do I want to make my loved ones proud and live up to their expectations...to my expectations...Anyways, wish me luck you guys!!!

[lyreical-dork]

For the sake of safety

Can anyone/everyone pray for those in the Smite Community who were/are being affected by the events in Houston and what’s happening now in Florida with Irma?

Donating money is also an option but I don’t have links to provide, I’m sure there are posts with a ton that feature organizations which actually help (unlike the Red Cross).

[theleaphome]

Well the news is in.

I know no-one I know or work with reads my Tumblr thankfully so I can speak my mind on here.

I’ve been offered a position with EF English First as of March 2018 as an English teacher for kids and teens.

I’m just reading through the documents at the moment and the contract. I’m making my final decision this week (I have until the 10th July to accept officially).

I’m just worried I’m not qualified enough because I want to be the best at what I do and don’t have much to no teaching experience in the classroom but I know they won’t just go “Here’s a class, see you later”. It’s just self doubt really that has stopped me from saying yes straight away.

The offer is to teach in the city of Chongqing, China. I have a friend from university who is a local from there who has said if I ever need to meet people or want to go on a night out she can sort me out and settle me in easier than the company could ahaha She currently lives in London but does go home to visit from time to time.

My mum knows, she’s the only person that I’m going to tell for these first couple of months. She keeps telling me (as she always does) “You can do whatever you like because I know you’ll be the best at what you do, whatever you do”. She sees my worry better than any other as I like to keep my face neutral and cards close. She knows it’s appreciated.

I shouldn’t think so much, I use to be so much carefree than how I am now. Is it fear or excitement? I guess I won’t know until I get there, but when I do get there I know deep down I’ll love it.

It’s time to get some more reading on the go and start apartment searching. 

[theleaphome]

A personal worry

I worry because I don’t have any experience in teaching English to students so when I do choose a place to teach in China I won’t be good enough.

[virovac]

I worry Noelle Stevenons has some idea who I am since I think I may have tweeted her several times last year during my five-day dissasociation period after the domestic abuse joke in S3

I know I didn’t say anything bad. But I repeated myself forgetting I had already sent something since my whole sense of time was messed up.

Makes me look bad though.

Does make me more sympathetic to people being annoyingly repetitive on the internet as they may just be freaking out.

[venteast]

This is a very tough time that demands everyone’s care and attention. I know how overwhelming it can get and I hope you guys are taking good care of yourselves. ♡

[amigolupus]

I just woke up from a nightmare that my desktop reset itself and it refused to boot up. My computer’s fan has been making the occasional odd noise the past couple of weeks, so I think the stress of worrying about that is really getting to me.