#personal x

[bugtheclown]

Twin Peaks ask the brave question of what if an entire town was autistic

[dontsh0vethesun]

not to be horny on main but i just made such a nice sandwich i am humping the air rn

[somuchstrdst]

i always download the pdfs of the fics that i read and once i finish, i save them in a folder on google drive, but i was doing it through the desktop shortcut, so assumed everything was being backed up there

recently my computer had a problem and had to be restored, but the technician managed to save a back up

so since i read three fics yesterday, i went on my marry way to put the in the google drive folder only to remember that i didn't install the desktop app, so first i looked at the backup folder with my old files and they weren't there

so i went to google drive only to find out IT HASNT SAVED ANY FICS I PUT IN THE FLDE SINCE 2020 :))))))) i wanna kms :))))))

thank god i keep track of the fics i read on a side blog but fucking hell i'm pissed i hate relying on technology because now i'm sure i won't find some of the fics i've read IN THE PAST 3 YEARS knowing some of theme were deleted i hate it :(((

[wehelddarkness]

starsweredible → wehelddarkness

hi again and goodbye, for now! You can find me @somuchstrdst now. If you want to follow me there, feel free. I've already followed some people there 💖

This is more of an explanation for myself than for anyone. So, I've been debating a lot what to do with this blog, because due to life, I found myself very busy to keep up with it the way I have always done, and after some time away from it, I've noticed a change in how I feel about it here.

I've had this blog since 2009. This blog has been with me through the most crucial moments of my life, all the ups and downs, the changes, the bad and the good, the happy and the sad moments. I've met the best people I could ever meet in my life through here. And not for one moment I regret having spent the amount of time I did here. This blog has been so important to me, it molded me, it's the foundation of who I am today.

But still, I feel like this is not a place for me anymore.

This is not to say that I've moved on from everything I blogged about here. That's not the point at all.

It's hard for me to even begin to explain why I don't feel like this "my space" anymore.

I just feel like, the amount of things I'm exposed to in here, the feeling that I always had to catch up, to know everything... it kinda started to drain me, it piled up, it added up to the reasons that made me have a severe case of burnout and anxiety and fomo.

I know I could just unfollow people, make it cleaner and lighter, but, idk, it's not only the people. This blog, this dashboard feels heavy for me, it feels like there's a kind of baggage that not even unfollowing people will solve the problem, idk how to explain it. This feels much like a "this doesn't sparkle joy" anymore kinda situation. That's the best way I can put it.

So I've decided to make a new blog just to find my footing in the blogging experience again, creating a new space for me, curating things that at the moment I can keep up with, and honestly, I feel so much lighter there.

I've been there for awhile now and I've finally made the decision to make there my new space.

I felt like a change of url here was in need as well. I had this url saved at the same time I changed to starsweredible, but looking at it now, I feel like it reflects more how I feel about this blog than ever, so that's why I'm changing it.

Again, this blog has never been a bad experience for me, it's just that with all that has been going on in my life in the past months, I felt this darkness looming over me, over the things I care about. So, yeah.

I will always carry this blog in my heart. I won't delete it because i have so many things important to me here that I'll always come back to. I just feel like the time for me to keep feeding this is over. It will become an archive of memories, an archive of myself.

So, it's time for me to say goodbye, I guess. Maybe I'll pop in eventually for some things? My likes page with over 60k posts has always bothered me so maybe I'll come back to clean it, idk. I'll always be attached to this blog, so who knows, maybe one day I'll feel like coming back again. Until, then... I thank this space for helping me become who I am.

[alstublieft]

i cut my fringe too short and now i look stupid and can't go into work tomorrow but i know i have to bc its work and if i don't go i won't get paid and i need to be paid bc the world revolves around money bc capitalism.

thank you for coming to my TED talk.

[eliottdemaurys]

Every time someone says "I'm not gay but..." I lose 5 years of my life

[bugtheclown]

Ideal lineup for my tomodachi life demo island 🙃

[bugtheclown]

I think we as a society collectively got over Owl City too fast. They really were putting out banger after banger