I'm so caught up in the world it seems like I wouldn't have time for the spirit even if I wanted to. So next step: asking myself "if I want to?" And right away I should say "YES!" As loud as I could till it make the birds of the sky shake but it's me who is shaking, my voice actually, because this flesh has a grip tight enough to strangle me but it lets me have enough life to continue to dwell in it because it enjoys the pain my spirit suffers from watching as I give in to what I know as a damned world. They say denial is the first step but I've been denying my spirit for longer than I could understand and this addiction is just getting worse.... But let's say I make it to step two and I put it all him, my greater power. What is to keep me from relapsing because that greater power is the creator that made me in this flesh that is my addiction. I don't think I'll quite make it to steps 3, 4, or 5.... Hi my name is Jahmas Bilal Hamilton and I am an addict.