#personalness

[cynessie]

sometimes i question whether or not i am actually bi because im am typically het leaning

but then i meet a certain girl and i feel it

and i remember once again that i am definitely attracted to women

[cynessie]

so my job is generally super chill about using our work computers for personal things, they really dont block many websites. like we can access all social media and streaming sites.

but as of last week they blocked ao3. 

mind you, i haven’t been on ao3 at work in months. so this means there are multiple people in the office using ao3 to the point where HR felt the need to block it 

i am laughing so hard at my desk rn this is so fucking funny

[cynessie]

someone teach me how to speak spanish so i can volunteer to help the immigrant children being wrongly detained by my country

[cynessie]

I WENT ON A DATE

[cynessie]

adhd is having an life altering epiphany and then forgetting about it. then making all the same mistakes, having the epiphany again, going to write it down in a notebook so you don't forget it this time, but then finding out that you actually wrote it down the first time and forgot about it anyway.

[cynessie]

I think I might start an adhd sideblog after my big project is done. Because it's not as if I don't have a million other things I need to get done lol

But learning more about my disorder has been my hyperfixation lately... which is a symptom of the disorder.

[cynessie]

the more i think about it, the more excited i am to get back on adhd meds. like yeah they kinda hurt at first but i remember having such an easier time being productive and it's so hard to replicate that kind of productivity that without meds. i was somehow able to do it in college, but now that im working full time i really can't without meds.