#personomz

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hey tumblrghhdfsljdf

i havent been spending too much substantial time here. my blog now mostly runs on a queue.. life is alright. in case i haven’t mentioned it here before, i got a new job and i’m full time and i’m actually getting paid better (not great but better and just enough for my expenses). adulthood *is* kicking the ass out of my social life though. gladly time spent with fiance hasn’t suffered to the extreme... but we’ll see when he starts his surgery rotation in september ha ha ha ha >_>

wedding planning has been on and off. i’ve been too unfocused and preoccupied for it since i started this new job. also bc it was pushed back to april 2017 (instead of the previously once-decided nov 2016). since mike won’t be busy with interviews and his last bits of rotation cycles in the spring as much. hey maybe we can even have a short honeymoon somewhere by then.

i’ve been spending most of my internet time on e.ru-ri tl. for the last year and a half anyway. i’ve been thinking of making a new main er.ur.i blog ... except i’ve become wary of fandoms on tumblr in general bc this place seems to be so volatile and unpredictable (but i mean it’s also the internet so what did i even expect) so it’s been sort of ???? to me and i just simply do not have the time or energy for any sort of cattiness or pettiness that comes with bigger fandoms. i’ve sort of formed a nice niche of friendships on eruri tl and ig that’s where i’m most comfortable? idk. it’s only 11:45 and i am so tired. i’ve been tired since 8:30pm and i never thought i’d live life this way where ‘m tired in the early night. i really am getting old. esp if i’m thinking about shit like benefits and credit cards and wedding plans and marriage and probably kids in like... 3-4 years? so much has happened and i feel like i’ve barely been conscious for it

the whole feeling of “am i an adult yet?” doesn’t seem to ever stop being a thing. i caught onto this maybe two years ago but that fact of life has become even moreso normalized to me now. esp since my friend still asks this question to herself and to me after popping out her 7th child. like. that’s some wild shit right there. im so tired. i havent had one of these long ass trivial drivel venting posts in a while. all in all, life’s been alright.

im gna go to sleep now

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this is so weird that i’m engaged now. it’s so weird to call mike my “fiance” when i’ve been calling him my boyfriend for over ten years. i have to actually make steps toward a wedding in about 1.5 to 2 years. and make huge purchases that our parents will probably pay the majority for. and just. wow. and then maybe we’ll have a kid after a year or two of actually being married. i have to think about the wedding ceremony. and. some ppl have been giving me advice, like if we want to get “legally” married first for tax benefits before getting married in the church. and reserving a wedding reception hall at least one year in advanced (someone else said 8 months, or 6 months, i don’t know). the only person i approached advice for was this principal of a catholic school (he’s a member at the gym i work in) about a number of things about getting married in the church and what the process is like for different parishes and whatnot. he was very helpful but wow. oh, and then my sister got me an Ultimate Wedding Planner guidebook?? ..i have to *legitimately* think about who my bridesmaids are gonna be and how many bc i have Too Many close friends... and just aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!

wow.

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i think it’s been a while since i’ve made a legit text post here archiving little details of my life (the life in my head and my exterior “irl” life).

**to more recent followers: i tag these things as “trivial drivel” and/or “personomz”

a lot has happened. a lot has been happening i guess. i haven’t really been on tumblr a whole lot and my blog now runs on a queue. i’m sort of a “full-fledged” eruri whose “assimilated” into a niche community (i put those words in quotation marks bc i lack better ones). i’ve made a lot of friends who i hope to keep in contact with for as long as this lasts. i say that because a part of me is really scared deep down inside that those friendships will only last as long as our common interests last. i’ve thought about this for a while and it’d be a huge shame if that were certainly the case bc i really love my eruri friends a lot. i guess i’ve been reflecting a lot about what makes a friendship and the general difficulties of long distance friendships. also there is no point to this post as i am just posting whatever flows into my consciousness at the moment so sorry if i lose you, or if you are already lost (or if anyone is necessarily reading this).

a lot has happened. i’ve had to deal with a lot of stress at work, a lot of bullshit, and a lot of emotional turmoil. i’ve also made friends at work even though most of them are the type of people i would never have approached otherwise (and im thankful for this) -- but at the same time it bring me to question again what makes a friendship (in this case what makes a particular friendship with specific people) if not for the common “condition” of employment. and then i end up reflecting on those who i consider my life long friends and how deeply those roots of friendship go and why makes it so easy for me and those friends to just re-connect after days, weeks, or months of no contact. it’s really nice. and it must be nice if i had that with my other friends who i feel only land on a more surface level of friendship. i think i just want my friendships to deepen if they haven’t already but i guess i don’t know how to go about that, plus if either party has the time or energy for effort. things are easy right now. because common interests and common placement is granted. i guess this is just a case of me not wanting to let go of those who i find meaningful. i wish i could interact with these people in person and more often. sometimes im just really bad at keeping in contact just strictly online or via text. who knows. maybe i’m getting ahead of myself. who knows.

a lot has happened.

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lemme tell u, erur-i is one quality ass ship with some quality ass art and quality ass fics

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apparently i am not allowed to queue over 300 posts at a time

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waker-of-the-winds replied to your post: waker-of-the-winds replied to your pos...

I see s2 ending with the govt arc end. That is, if s2 ever comes out. (its been sooo loooonnnnnggg)

i believe 2016 is the year they plan on releasing s2. TuT;;;; i have nooo idea how they're gonna pace s2 but im sure (i hope) it's gonna be crazy action packed w/o too much deviation form the manga

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waker-of-the-winds replied to your post: waker-of-the-winds replied to your pos...

I think that story could have been told in a faster way. Also I think if/when it gets animated it’ll be much more enjoyable

i agree with you 100% dunno i am crossing my fingers that the pacing for s2 will be much better bc they have more manga content to pull from ;u; also because there will be more erwin smith but i digress

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waker-of-the-winds replied to your post: killerdraco replied to your post:kille...

I will say the last few chapters have been great compared to some of the other recent ones

i would have to agree yes!

tho tbh i will confess that i liked the political arc bc... for reasons i guess O_O i hear a lot of people lost interest bc it was boring and there was no action & i get that and understand but i dunno man i was just stressed out each month ha ha i cannot explain myself >_>

i *would* have liked it if it weren't stretched out over months tho like it'd have been better if i read through those chapters in one go instead of waaintgg and waaitinggdsfjg