#pesterings

[ghostydoof-blog]

==> John: Vent about a lot of things.

Last Night

ghostydoof i can't BELIEVE she's back here. honestly, i told her it wouldn't be a good idea to rush into things because they would just end up falling out of love or whatever the fuck happens with people that are in relationships like that. i TOLD her. i WARNED her. but no, she went and did it anyways. they even moved in together? who moves in with someone after only just meeting them and then getting into a serious relationship? really? it's like i'm stuck in some never ending romcom except the end isn't going to be a happy one. no, i'll have to be on my toes trying to make sure an undying idiot doesn't keep trying to off herself or something. it's bad enough she decided to come HERE instead of having me go there, and wow i'm pretty sure she won't want to go back because it's full of MEMORIES. memories of what? the month they were together? jesus. i have to get a new place. i'm on thin ice as it is and rose has pets. i literally can't deal with this.

ghostydoof and i'm so scared of having someone LIVE with me again because i was stuck in homes and just. i like my quiet alone time. i don't want her to live here. i'd rather YOU live with me, but i can't exactly get you a recuprecoon like i know you need to sleep. i can't stand this.

ghostydoof i don't even know what to do because i can't be mad at aradia for this. rose fucked up and now she's paying for it. i don't mind helping her but ugh. it's just one big i told you so!! i feel like i'm in high school or something this is so STUPID. ugh. sorry for going on and on about it, you're probably busy as it is. i'll see you tomorrow but i'd rather go to your place. goodlight. :*

Today

twofoldanihilation oh. 2hiit. do you.. need anythiing from me? iidk what ii can actually do two help, but we can do 2omethiing iif you need a dii2tractiion.

ghostydoof i just woke back up honestly. i didn't sleep last night and had to work.

ghostydoof i'll be fine, don't worry about it.

twofoldanihilation are you 2ure?

ghostydoof no.

twofoldanihilation want me two come over anyway?

ghostydoof if you aren't busy.

twofoldanihilation ii’m on the way.

ghostydoof i'll probably just fall asleep on you. i'm... so tired.

twofoldanihilation that’2 ok. ii’ll be a 2pace heater, lol.

ghostydoof i like this idea.

twofoldanihilation me two.

ghostydoof good because i am actually in a pretty bad mood.

twofoldanihilation ii can try two fiix that.

ghostydoof you probably can. i mean you DO so.

twofoldanihilation good.

ghostydoof rose isn't here anymore either so just come in and lay with me. i'm too tired to get up.

twofoldanihilation oh 2he left?

ghostydoof yeah i guess. not happy about that but whatever.

twofoldanihilation but you wanted her two go?

ghostydoof i don't know. she's not in the best mindset right now, i shouldn't want her gone i'm just so tired of trying to help her when she just won't change.

twofoldanihilation diid you 2ay that two her?

ghostydoof she went off to go hang out with a different john and then came back drunk out of her mind. and then passed out. so no. i haven't gotten to talk to her at all yet.

twofoldanihilation ok. diid 2he talk two you at all?

ghostydoof no. she probably preferred other me's company.

twofoldanihilation you thiink?

ghostydoof probably. she went out with him and then left me so.

twofoldanihilation 2he came back.

ghostydoof because she had nowhere else to go. it's whatever, i just don't like being used.

twofoldanihilation maybe you 2hould talk two her?

ghostydoof i don't want to right now. i'll probably blow up on her and i do not want to do that.

twofoldanihilation ok, that make2 2en2e. maybe when you’re le22 mad.

ghostydoof yeah. i don't know.

ghostydoof she came to me for advice in the first place and then totally blew off everything i said and now it's just one big told you so moment. i'm really sorry i ranted like that it was dumb of me.

twofoldanihilation ii diidn’t miind. ii’m 2orry ii wa2 a2leep for iit.

ghostydoof you don't have to be sorry about that.

twofoldanihilation ii ju2t don’t want two acciidentally blow you off.

ghostydoof you didn't!

twofoldanihilation ii mean iin general.

ghostydoof you aren't.

twofoldanihilation ok good. ii ju2t want two be 2ure.

ghostydoof you don't have to be there for every little thing. :*

ghostydoof you have other friends that need you too.

twofoldanihilation ii know but that diidn’t 2eem liike a liittle thiing.

ghostydoof it's eh.

twofoldanihilation 2tiill. 8*

ghostydoof shh.

twofoldanihilation ii thiink ii got AA two feel a liittle better, though.

ghostydoof that's good. i worry about her but i don't know her very well. i already stuck my nose in her business once. she probably doesn't like me much.

twofoldanihilation ii don’t thiink 2he dii2liike2 you. 2he helped me fiix thiing2 wiith you.

ghostydoof she did?

twofoldanihilation yeah, 2he told me ii wa2 beiing a fuckiing iidiiot. ii mean 2he diidn’t 2ay that, but 2he helped me realiize iit.

ghostydoof oh... hmm.

twofoldanihilation what?

ghostydoof nothing!!

twofoldanihilation ??

ghostydoof i'm glad she helped.

twofoldanihilation why hmm?

ghostydoof just thinking.

twofoldanihilation about??

ghostydoof a lot. i feel even worse.

twofoldanihilation why?

ghostydoof she helped you but i couldn't help her or rose.

twofoldanihilation ii wanted two be helped, though. riight? that’2 a thiing.

ghostydoof you did. i guess rose doesn't.

twofoldanihilation iif 2he doe2 2he’ll let you, riight?

ghostydoof i don't know. she's exhausting me though. i have been trying and trying to help and talk to her but she doesn't even want to see that she's worth the time.

ghostydoof i'm glad she's not here right now because i wouldn't be able to handle my anger.

twofoldanihilation ii wa2 about two 2ay 2omethiing but iit 2eemed liike bad adviice.

ghostydoof what is it?

twofoldanihilation ii wa2 gonna 2ay maybe 2he wont lii2ten becau2e you’re comiing at iit tryiing two be niice.

ghostydoof i don't know. i ripped into her the other day pretty bad and it still didn't help.

twofoldanihilation yeah 2ee? probably bad adviice.

ghostydoof it helped for all of five minutes i guess. like i said she seems pretty dead set on being a mess so it's whatever. am i like that?

twofoldanihilation you 2hould tell her what you’re thiinkiing. at 2ome poiint.

twofoldanihilation you diid that for a liittle biit. am ii?

ghostydoof you were in the beginning.

twofoldanihilation not anymore?

ghostydoof you're trying. so am i. i knew bugging you would be worth it though.

twofoldanihilation yeah. 8*

ghostydoof :* nothing screams i want friends more than a nerd saying they don't want friends, hehe.

twofoldanihilation iidk iif that’2 true.

ghostydoof uh you proved my theory.

twofoldanihilation iit take2 more than one iin2tance two 2upport a theory.

ghostydoof yeah but the full theory is actually just me knowing we'd be good buds from the get go and that if i bugged you enough we would be. no takesies backsies and all.

twofoldanihilation yeah, good bud2.

ghostydoof best buds.

twofoldanihilation 8* !!

ghostydoof :* ! i don't know, it'll get better eventually.

ghostydoof maybe it's just better that they find other people. or just, don't.

twofoldanihilation we’ll 2ee what happen2. ii don’t want two meddle two much.

ghostydoof yeah that kind of thing is a big deal to you guys isn't it?

twofoldanihilation ii mean iit doe2n’t have two be? ii ju2t don’t know enough about 2hiit two ju2tiify even tryiing two get that iinvolved.

ghostydoof basically rose said something in a way that was pretty shitty of her, and then did some equally shitty things and i don't blame aradia for being upset at all. this is like an adult version of high school drama and i hate it.

twofoldanihilation ii mean ii talked two aa but dream memory ii2n’t the be2t.

ghostydoof i wouldn't know the feeling but that's fair.

twofoldanihilation yeah.

ghostydoof i can try to give you more details to help her but. i don't think it's worth the trouble.

twofoldanihilation yeah, no. iif 2he need2 me agaiin ii’ll get iit from her.

ghostydoof yeah. i meant i don't think it's worth the trouble to keep thinking about it. i'm tired.

twofoldanihilation ju2t 2leep on me.

ghostydoof i will right after i'm done being comfy on you.

twofoldanihilation ok.

ghostydoof :*

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==> John: Meddle more.

ghostydoof heyyyy aradia.

aradiaas hey john!

ghostydoof how are things?

aradiaas uhmmm theyre alright i think how about you?

ghostydoof um. they aren't really very great actually.

aradiaas oh? whats wrong?

ghostydoof a lot if i'm honest. can i ask you a question?

aradiaas yes

ghostydoof if you're going to break up with rose can you do it already? alternately if you aren't, can you please talk to her.

aradiaas oh i i dont know

ghostydoof i know that it's hard and she messed up but you can't just leave her here to rot! she's falling apart, aradia. i'm going to talk to her too, but i can't let this keep going. i am worried about both of you.

aradiaas shes shes falling apart? whats she doing?

ghostydoof currently? she's sitting in my bathtub sobbing. or at least she was. for the past several hours she's been hiding in a broom closet i forgot i had. she barely speaks, she barely eats, and she is really not doing well.

aradiaas oh no i i dont know if im ready john?

ghostydoof i get that, i do. but sometimes we just have to do stuff we aren't ready to do yet. i know she can't go off and do anything stupid, but leaving her hanging from a lack of communication is... not really ok.

aradiaas i know i know ill unblock and talk to her

ghostydoof thank you. i've spoken with her and she knows what she's done wrong. i apologize for my forwardness but i care about her and you both. i want you two to be happy again.

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==> John: Meddle with your friends.

ghostydoof so. your drinking is a habit, i take it?

insomniacseer What do you mean?

ghostydoof you know what i mean. you said you wouldn't do it anymore.

insomniacseer I said I wouldn't let it get out of hand.

ghostydoof well, aradia thought you meant you wouldn't drink again. she found out about the other night and that's why she's upset. she's hurt because she thinks you lied to her about it.

insomniacseer I never promised her that, either. I worded things carefully. Wait. She knows?

ghostydoof she knows.

ghostydoof i don't know how she knows, but she knows. you obviously worded things kind of shittily if this is what's happening by the way.

insomniacseer God. I preferred not knowing.

ghostydoof that's a horse shit lie.

insomniacseer It's so much worse to know that she was right.

ghostydoof rose. hey rose? rose? shut the fuck up for a sec.

ghostydoof it's a miscommunication.

ghostydoof you just need to calm down for about two seconds and take a deep breath, and apologize to her when she comes to you. tell her what you MEANT when she thought you said you wouldn't drink again.

insomniacseer What I MEANT was that I planned to continue to be a piece of shit in secret. How is that better?

ghostydoof if you said you wouldn't let it get out of hand? don't let it get out of hand. don't go slinking off in the dead of night to drink in some probably seedy bar in the middle of nowhere like an asshole! be open about it! at least you admit that your plan was shitty. even i'm mad about it. fuck.

insomniacseer I'm sorry.

ghostydoof don't be sorry to me. be sorry to aradia. we love you. we don't want you to hurt yourself like this.

insomniacseer I'm not hurting myself. I NEED this.

ghostydoof need what? secret boozings? need to hide in closets because you can't face anything? need to be miserable when people out there care about your happiness? instead of drinking try talking to someone!

insomniacseer It's the only way I can sleep.

ghostydoof like, i don't know. your girlfriend? if that's the case you need to get some help.

insomniacseer No one on or off Earth can fix me.

ghostydoof but there are plenty of people willing to try.

insomniacseer You think I haven't tried to talk this shit out?

ghostydoof i don't know, rose! you don't TALK about it!

insomniacseer "Excuse me, doctor, every night I witness the deaths of alternate mes in first person, coupled with all of the fear and pain they feel." "If I'm REALLY lucky, I also get flashbacks and watch my friends die, sometimes at my own hands!" "hmmmm.... sounds like depression. here, have some pills and go on your merry way." The liquor numbs the nightmares.

insomniacseer It's the only thing that works.

ghostydoof alright fine. booze it up then. but be open about it. you can't hide that kind of thing from someone that loves you.

insomniacseer No one liked me when I was open. I didn't like me.

ghostydoof no one likes it when you're closed off either. i want to know what's on your mind. aradia wants to know what's on your mind. if you don't let anyone see what's inside do we really love the real you?

insomniacseer No, you don't. That's deliberate.

ghostydoof then i want to know the real you.

insomniacseer No, you don't. She's not a pleasant person to be around.

ghostydoof yes. i do. who is these days? look. you're not going to succeed in pushing me away now because i called you out.

insomniacseer Watch me.

ghostydoof you can't. that's petty as hell and you're better than that.

insomniacseer I'm really not,

ghostydoof you are. stop trying to self deprecate too, fuck.

insomniacseer Why do you even care.

ghostydoof i'm giving you crap because i care about you, and you just have to deal with that. why wouldn't i? rose.

insomniacseer You've got another Rose to worry about. Shr's better than me I'm sure.

ghostydoof i'd be DEAD without you.

ghostydoof fuck her! i don't WANT her. i want YOU. SHE isn't the one that helped me out of a life or death situation. SHE isn't the one that helps me when i'm upset and have no one else to turn to. SHE isn't my rose anymore, YOU are. YOU are the one i wish was my flesh and blood sister. YOU are the one i would lay my fucking life down for. YOU are the one i care about most. not a stranger with the same name.

ghostydoof i love you, rose. you're someone i trust with my life. you're one of four people with that right. you're my sister, i want you to be happy. i hope that you can feel comfortable opening up to us someday but until then, i'll still be here for you no matter what. you can't do anything to scare me off. i have been through hell and back as it is so you're stuck with me. stuck with all of us.

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OOCly viewed chatlog you know the drill.

-- technicalGyrations [TG] began pestering eggBoy [EB] at 08:16 --

[08:16] TG: egg BOY

[08:17] EB: egg boy.

[08:18] TG: egg boi

[08:18] EB: that's me.

[08:18] TG: like soulja boy

[08:18] EB: one hundred percent farmland fresh egg boy.

[08:18] TG: but with eggs

[08:19] EB: hot off the truck and into market, soon to be on your breakfast plate at denny's when it's 2am and you're feeling down.

[08:20] EB: we should go to denny's sometime at 2am when we're feeling down.

[08:20] TG: we could go to dennys right now if youre feeling down

[08:21] EB: it's not 2am yet and i've been up since six making myself homemade mac and cheese.

[08:22] TG: okay instead of dennys come to my work and eat mac n cheesy with me and tell me whats going on

[08:24] EB: i can't, legs are broken.

[08:25] EB: my face hurts.

[08:25] TG: JOHN

[08:25] TG: JOHN!!!

[08:25] EB: suddenly my fingers are broken too, my skin is paper and my bones glass.

[08:25] TG: JOHN EGBERT YOURE KILING ME

[08:26] EB: it happens.

[08:26] EB: you are way too excitable for this time of morning, dave.

[08:27] TG: i have to be im at work and i gotta be excitable so i dont fall asleep

[08:27] TG: so i got music playin and im knitting and drinking some tea

[08:27] EB: i'll accept that.

[08:27] TG: you could be energized too if yall came here

[08:27] EB: i've got a pot of coffee on the table next to my bed and i have been playing threshers 2 all morning.

[08:28] EB: i need to get human games so i can stop playing this.

[08:28] EB: i.

[08:28] EB: ugh.

[08:28] TG: are you havin fun with it at least

[08:29] TG: whats wrong dude

[08:29] EB: i do.

[08:29] EB: i guess?

[08:29] EB: it just upsets me.

[08:29] TG: why?

[08:29] EB: actually a lot of things upset me lately apparently.

[08:29] EB: i'm worried about sollux.

[08:30] EB: apparently i had a family that i don't remember.

[08:30] EB: oh and we're from the same earth i accept that ok?

[08:30] EB: apparently your shades are from me.

[08:30] EB: somehow we forgot these things.

[08:30] TG: i need a second to process this

[08:30] TG: okay im starting the process

[08:30] EB: so i mean i haven't been able to talk about any of it and i'm losing my mind over it!

[08:30] TG: who told you this?

[08:31] EB: rose.

[08:31] TG: how do they know??

[08:31] EB: she's the only one that i've met that will just TELL me about myself.

[08:32] EB: she knew a john that she played that god awful game with.

[08:32] EB: her john knew a dave.

[08:32] TG: and her john gave her dave the same pair of shades i have

[08:32] TG: ?

[08:32] EB: they all played that game together.

[08:32] EB: yeah.

[08:33] TG: i have a feeling that we played that game together too

[08:33] EB: how?

[08:34] EB: everyone that has KNOWS they have.

[08:34] EB: how do you forget DYING?

[08:34] EB: or being a god or something?

[08:34] TG: when i talked to sky about some of this he basically said that what my dream was lines up with some stuff that happens in it and if youre from the same place as ME then we would have HAVE to played it together or someting like that

[08:34] TG: i think were remembering it though

[08:34] TG: since meeting each other

[08:35] EB: :/

[08:35] EB: i can barely sleep anymore, my dreams are so weird they wake me up now. i can't remember them but ugh.

[08:35] EB: they leave me in a cold sweat.

[08:36] TG: ive just been having a lot of migraines lately about all of this stuff

[08:36] EB: ugh.

[08:36] EB: yeah.

[08:36] TG: no dreams i can remember besides the one of someone giving me my shades

[08:36] TG: which is now you

[08:37] EB: when rose was telling me about the shades it hurt, and when she was trying to tell me about my family i?

[08:37] EB: i had a family, dave.

[08:37] EB: a dad.

[08:37] EB: you saw me give you your shades?

[08:37] TG: in a dream, yea, but it wasnt you in my dream just some shadowy ass lookin figure

[08:37] TG: a dad

[08:38] TG: is there any way you could find him?

[08:38] EB: he doesn't exist. the actual address on my id also does not exist.

[08:38] EB: the street does, but there isn't that number house on it.

[08:39] EB: i guess he did something shitty with baked goods and that's why i still don't like them though.

[08:39] EB: so maybe it's not that much of a loss.

[08:40] TG: i had the same thing happen to me address wise like they looked it up and theyre like shit my dude you dont exist

[08:40] TG: and that makes sense i guess

[08:40] TG: some shit like that probably stayed latent in your brain and surfaces without your control

[08:40] EB: yeah.

[08:40] EB: it still sucks!

[08:40] EB: i want him back, dave.

[08:41] EB: i'm grown now but i didn't want to be stuck in foster care for two years! i hated it.

[08:41] TG: i want you to find him so he can explain where the hell hes been all these years

[08:42] EB: he's dead.

[08:42] EB: if i remember correctly, it's been mentioned that he died.

[08:42] TG: WHAT

[08:42] TG: what the fuck

[08:42] EB: or disappeared into the game, if we really did play it.

[08:42] TG: thats even worse

[08:42] TG: but if he disappeared into the game like us wouldnt he be back if were back? this is so fucked up dude

[08:43] TG: do you think if you have a dad

[08:43] TG: that i have a dad

[08:43] TG: ?

[08:44] EB: probably! rose mentioned having a mom too i think.

[08:44] EB: or someone else had a mom. or something?

[08:44] EB: i can't tell if i know this stuff or if someone told me anymore.

[08:45] TG: i mean i guess the only thing we can do is ask rose more

[08:45] TG: if she doesnt mind?

[08:45] EB: she says she doesn't but i wouldn't want to push it.

[08:45] EB: she has a key to my apartment so if you want to meet her you could use my place.

[08:45] TG: we could talk to her together

[08:45] TG: just a meeting betwen all yall

[08:46] EB: i don't know dave she's really nervous about people still.

[08:46] EB: sort of a one on one kind of girl.

[08:46] TG: i could sit in the bathroom while we talk so she doesnt have to see me

[08:47] EB: oh my god dave no.

[08:47] EB: then we'd have to be in my bedroom!

[08:47] EB: what am i going to do, text her up and be like hey rose want to hang out in my BED?

[08:47] TG: dude weve hung out in your BED before

[08:48] EB: yeah but we're also more accustomed to that sort of thing.

[08:48] EB: she's been really alone for a long time, i don't think she's quite ready for THAT.

[08:48] TG: you have seen my shirtless bod before so were past that level of friendship

[08:49] TG: okay new plan: i can hide behind the couch while all yall are on the couch and i can talk from there

[08:50] EB: she might kill you if you do that.

[08:50] EB: but it's your ass not mine.

[08:50] EB: also your body is fine dave.

[08:50] TG: okay new plan: you can facetime me and we can talk from there

[08:50] TG: my body is,

[08:52] EB: how about this?

[08:52] EB: i talk to rose and ask if she'll meet you.

[08:52] TG: that also works

[08:53] EB: no deception and you guys can still use my place.

[08:53] EB: and dave.

[08:53] EB: your body is fine.

[08:53] TG: IT IS,

[08:53] EB: it IS, yes.

[08:53] TG: im yellin

[08:53] TG: youre too nice to me

[08:53] EB: i'm telling the fucking truth you goon.

[08:54] TG: youre STILL too nice to me you goon

[08:54] EB: if i wasn't armpit deep in my clinically diagnosed depression i would come kick your ass.

[08:56] TG: i mean i want to come over to kick your ass out of your armpit deep clinical depression but im at work and also armpit deep in my clinical depression

[08:56] EB: well look at us both stuck in this quicksand of sadness.

[09:03] TG: well pull each other out eventually

[09:03] TG: just gotta wallow for a bit til we feel better

[09:03] EB: i was doing ok until the shit hit the fan.

[09:03] EB: is it bad that it bothered me less when i didn't have friends?

[09:04] TG: i mean same but thats cause you have your own ways to deal with things and when friends get involved you feel like you gotta blab to them about everything and it messes up the coping

[09:04] TG: at least thats my theory

[09:05] EB: no.

[09:05] TG: ?

[09:06] EB: it's because i had nothing to worry about. i worked, a came home to my apartment. i ate and slept and watched movies and had nothing to think about but the next day.

[09:06] EB: now?

[09:06] EB: now i'm worried about my troll friends because they might just die for no reason.

[09:07] TG: and thats making you feel worse combined with your own stuff you got on your mind

[09:07] TG: i gotcha

[09:07] EB: i worry about my human friends because some of them are so sad that i just want to hug them and tell them it will be ok.

[09:07] EB: and yet no one wants me to care.

[09:07] EB: so i'm trying to not care.

[09:07] EB: it's hard.

[09:08] TG: hey if it means anything i want you to care about me

[09:08] TG: and i bet all your friends appreciate you caring even if it seems like they dont

[09:08] EB: congrats you're the only one that does!

[09:09] EB: between troll dave shitting on me for being empathetic and me royally fucking it with sollux i'm ?

[09:09] EB: trolls?

[09:09] EB: what are they?

[09:09] EB: why are they?

[09:09] TG: trolls are strange as hell and they have different views on emotions than humans do

[09:09] TG: makes em a bit complicated

[09:10] EB: i noticed.

[09:10] EB: apparently i messed up and started doing some weird quadrant stuff at sollux.

[09:10] EB: but it doesn't matter, he says it doesn't bother him.

[09:10] EB: (spoiler alert: it does.)

[09:10] EB: and i know it does.

[09:11] TG: i mean id be surprised if it DIDNT bother him

[09:11] EB: but if i don't say anything about it and act normal maybe it will be ok.

[09:11] TG: hes probably just making it seem like it doesnt bother him both for you and for himself

[09:11] EB: but i can't bring myself to talk to him because i don't want him to stop being my friend.

[09:12] TG: you should still at least talk to him if hes your friend dude

[09:12] TG: but i also think you should talk about the pale stuff too

[09:13] EB: i tried to.

[09:14] EB: but everyone else seems to want to get their nose so deep into my business there's no room left for me. i appreciate spanky but uh...he's way too nosy for someone i don't know.

[09:15] EB: i also don't get the subtle difference in what changes being his best friend to being his pale...whatever it's called.

[09:16] TG: theres only one way to find out and thats asking him about it

[09:16] TG: but id think it over before you do

[09:16] TG: i dont completely understand troll stuff either even though i live with two of them

[09:16] TG: and dude if you need me to back off just let me know ok

[09:17] EB: well, karkat told me he doesn't want any quadrants right now so i mean i don't want to poke that hornet's nest and bite the dust on it yet.

[09:17] EB: there's also the uh.

[09:17] EB: looming possibility that he's going to die.

[09:18] EB: so that's a thing i'm supposed to probably pretend that it doesn't bother me.

[09:18] TG: um what

[09:18] EB: he's messing with that game, dave!

[09:18] EB: and something is wrong with it! like really wrong!

[09:18] TG: nothing good ever comes from that goddamn hell game

[09:18] EB: it's not like i pour over every single post of his but i see enough to know that something bad is going to happen.

[09:19] TG: you definitely pour over all his posts

[09:19] TG: callout

[09:19] TG: and yea

[09:19] EB: i do not!

[09:19] TG: i have a bad feeling about this

[09:19] EB: he's not even denying it anymore, dave.

[09:21] TG: i think cause he realizes shit is going to hit the goddamn fan

[09:22] EB: i know.

[09:22] EB: i should just let other people do things for him.

[09:23] TG: john

[09:23] TG: why

[09:23] TG: ?

[09:24] EB: because.

[09:25] EB: i don't know anything useful to him. i don't know about the game.

[09:25] EB: i don't know anything about trolls.

[09:25] EB: or their romance.

[09:25] EB: or their society.

[09:25] EB: the more i learn the more worried i get.

[09:25] EB: the more i wish i could just pull him here.

[09:25] EB: give him a hug, tell him it's ok!

[09:25] TG: once he gets into the game he might be able to get here though

[09:26] TG: transportalizers are normally a game thing i think from what ive seen

[09:26] EB: i don't want him to ever go into that goddamn game dave!

[09:26] TG: rossea didnt play and she had to build her own

[09:26] EB: i want him to stop messing with it before it's too late.

[09:26] EB: he's going to die.

[09:26] EB: and i'm going to lose my best friend.

[09:26] EB: i'm...

[09:27] TG: john

[09:27] EB: i'm sorry.

[09:27] TG: i dont think hes going to stop messing with it

[09:27] EB: i know.

[09:27] EB: i know he's not.

[09:27] TG: so you can at least hope that he finds a transportalizer and get the hell out of there

[09:27] EB: i do hope.

[09:28] EB: but we didn't.

[09:28] EB: did we?

[09:28] EB: you died.

[09:28] TG: i

[09:28] EB: and so did our friends.

[09:28] TG: i dont know

[09:29] EB: we didn't survive that game.

[09:29] EB: not the same way other people have.

[09:29] EB: did we?

[09:29] TG: i dont think so

[09:29] TG: ?

[09:30] TG: but i dont know what happened at all

[09:30] EB: well my dream says everyone died.

-- eggBoy [EB] is now an idle chum! --

[09:42] TG: my dream says at least me died so i believe your dream

-- eggBoy [EB] is now an idle chum! --

[09:44] EB: it doesn't make it any better.

[09:45] EB: i have a lot of worries ok?

[09:45] EB: i'm sorry for suddenly dumping them on you but they just keep coming.

[09:47] TG: dude john

[09:47] TG: dont be sorry at all

[09:47] TG: were friends right?

[09:47] TG: thats what friends are for

[09:47] EB: yeah!

[09:47] EB: still.

[09:48] EB: i kind of exploded there.

[09:48] EB: hey dave.

[09:48] TG: what

[09:48] TG: ?

[09:48] EB: denny's date tonight?

[09:48] TG: of course : *

[09:49] EB: good.

[09:49] EB: because i feel like sobbing into a grand slamwich.

[10:09] TG: you can sob into as many grand slamwiches as you want bud

[10:09] EB: i can only maybe handle one.

[10:10] EB: they're kind of gross.

[10:10] TG: perfect to cry into then

[10:10] EB: exactly.

[10:10] EB: you've witnessed me crying, i'm gross.

[10:11] TG: DUDE youve witnessed ME crying

[10:12] EB: then we're even.

[10:30] TG: : *

[10:30] EB: right back at you buddy.

[ghostydoof-blog]

==> John: End your birthday with your moirail.

twofoldanihilation let me iin.

ghostydoof [He is let in.]

twofoldanihilation thank2.

ghostydoof hi.

twofoldanihilation 2orry.

ghostydoof for what?

twofoldanihilation not beiing around. waiitiing for ro2e two tell me two come. beiing 2tupiid.

ghostydoof you're going through so much. i don't want to be a bother. i want to be there when you need me. not burden you even more.

twofoldanihilation iim not 2uper experiienced wiith thii2 2tuff but ii know enought two call bull2hiit. ii want two help you and ii 2uck at iit but ii cant do anythiing iif you dont tell me 2tuff. and ii know ii do the 2ame thiing. but 2tiill. iim tryiing two be better at telliing you thiing2. that2 why iim here.

ghostydoof i don't know what i'm doing either.

ghostydoof i feel like i'm failing you. like i'm ruining this. i want to make you feel like you're really going to get through all of this but i don't know HOW. and. i don't know how to make you talk to me. i don't know how to get you to open up.

twofoldanihilation iim tryiing.

ghostydoof i know. i'm sorry.

twofoldanihilation ii dont want you two thiink ii dont want iit two work. ii want you two know iim tryiing a2 hard a2 ii can, and ii. ju2t kiind of paniicked. ii got 2tuck thiinkiing iit wa2nt gonna work, and iim 2tiill a liittle 2tuck there, but iim tryiing. ii ju2t diidnt want two get overconfiident and then dii2appear on you wiith no warniing cau2e ii know what that2 liike and iit2 not 2omethiing ii ever want you two deal wiith, 2o that2 why iive been tryiing two get you two accept the fact that iit miight happen.

ghostydoof i know. i know. i know you're trying. i know that everything is going to work out in the end. because i believe that it will! if i didn't...i don't know what i would do. i am so scared that you'll be gone the next time i wake up that i barely even sleep anymore. i'm scared you're going to leave me before you leave me and i'm just. it's only been a couple weeks, how am i this attached to you already? it's all terrifying, but it's even more terrifying to try to imagine that i might never get the chance to spend even a sliver of my life with you. i lost everything because of that game once, and here i am possibly losing my everything all over again.

twofoldanihilation

iim not goiing two go anywhere wiithout 2ayiing goodbye fiir2t. iim not doiing thii2 on a whiim. ii dont want two dii2appear but more than that ii dont want two do iit wiithout a warniing. iim not goiing two leave you. youre 2tuck wiith me untiil you dont want me.

ghostydoof when you say goodbye, say goodbye for now. because you'll be back before you know it, and i firmly believe that. i don't think i know a more capable guy than you. you're not going to disappear. i guess you're in this for a long time though, because the day i don't want you isn't coming any time soon.

twofoldanihilation ii ju2t want my goodbye two be enough. ju2t iin ca2e. ii dont want iit two have two be, but ii need iit two be.

ghostydoof you could say "bye stupid" and it would be enough. as long as i know i'm ok.

twofoldanihilation youre 2tupiid. that2 2tupiid.

ghostydoof i never denied that.

twofoldanihilation iim ju2t remiindiing you.

ghostydoof don't let me forget it.

twofoldanihilation ii won't.

ghostydoof good. i won't let you forget that you're loved then.

twofoldanihilation good luck wiith that.

ghostydoof it's a life goal.

twofoldanihilation unfortwonate.

ghostydoof *snort*.

twofoldanihilation ehehe.

ghostydoof hehe. you might not think it but you're too good to me.

twofoldanihilation lmao, how?

ghostydoof you just are. i don't have words to explain it.

twofoldanihilation ii don't get iit, but ok.

ghostydoof it's emotions, they don't make sense.

twofoldanihilation tell me about iit.

ghostydoof i don't think they're supposed to.

twofoldanihilation yeah probably not, lmao.

ghostydoof if they did i think life would be kind of boring. we would be like. ah yes i am feeling the happiness for this exact specific reason. and that's kind of lame.

twofoldanihilation iidk, iit would be niice iif they made a liittle biit of 2en2e.

ghostydoof i like the mystery.

twofoldanihilation 2twopiid.

ghostydoof hehehe.

twofoldanihilation 8)

ghostydoof :)

twofoldanihilation 8*

ghostydoof :*

twofoldanihilation 8)

ghostydoof :')

twofoldanihilation ehehe.

ghostydoof :'')

ghostydoof i told you, too good to me.

twofoldanihilation iit wa2 a 2mall kii22.

ghostydoof you're right. another one.

twofoldanihilation 8*

ghostydoof :* !!

twofoldanihilation 8P

ghostydoof hehehe! :p

twofoldanihilation ehehehehehehe.

ghostydoof hehehehehe.

twofoldanihilation ii'm gonna try two do better. 8*

ghostydoof :* ok. let me try too.

twofoldanihilation obviiou2ly.

ghostydoof good. i'm going to try to be the best there ever was.

twofoldanihilation you're off two a good 2tart.

ghostydoof i've been pulling...double duty. trying to get to the point of being decent.

twofoldanihilation ehehehehe.

ghostydoof hehe. it's been a learning curve for me.

twofoldanihilation me two.

ghostydoof but i like to think i'm doing ok.

twofoldanihilation you are.

ghostydoof just a little bit though, a tiny bit.

twofoldanihilation no, you're doiing well.

ghostydoof sometimes.

twofoldanihilation faiir.

ghostydoof but it's ok to mess up sometimes, right?

twofoldanihilation ii hope 2o.

ghostydoof so do i.

twofoldanihilation then iit'2 probably ok.

ghostydoof it is!

twofoldanihilation hey.

ghostydoof hmm?

twofoldanihilation ii'm glad you're iin my liife.

ghostydoof :') you're the best thing in my life.

twofoldanihilation 8* 2hhhh.

ghostydoof :* nnnno.

twofoldanihilation 2hhhhhhhhhhhhh.

ghostydoof never.

twofoldanihilation 22222hhhhhh.

ghostydoof nope.

twofoldanihilation 8* 2hhhhhh.

ghostydoof :* i can't.

twofoldanihilation 8* ye2 you can.

ghostydoof :* not happening.

twofoldanihilation fiine. 8*

ghostydoof :** i'll never stop reminding you how much you mean to me.

twofoldanihilation thank2. 8) 8*

ghostydoof i mean it! :*

twofoldanihilation ii know. 8*

ghostydoof :* good. don't forget it. :*

twofoldanihilation ii'll try not two. 8*

ghostydoof i won't let you. :*

twofoldanihilation 8) thank2.

ghostydoof :) you bet.

[ghostydoof-blog]

((OOC posted log I wanted to save for wholesomeness and plot stuff.))

keedlez2 psst i got the aol messenger thing so im sending you a message to see it even if were sitting literally with me coiled around you like a goddamn snake

ghostydoof dave. that's really gay.

keedlez2 john im really gat

shit gay

ghostydoof aren't you dating a fish girl?

keedlez2 PALE dating thats like saying youre gay cause youre dating sollux

ghostydoof that's still kind of dating.

keedlez2 im pan as hell for real though

ghostydoof wow i go both ways sort of.

keedlez2 shes my pale fishy gillfrond

ghostydoof yeah and he's my dorky multi colored idiot boyfriend i guess.

keedlez2 what do you mean MULTI COLORED ARE YALL VALLICATING OR WHATEVER

ghostydoof no? oh ok.

keedlez2 yall are all the colors

keedlez2 pink red black

ghostydoof so you can call her your dumb fish pun girlfriend but i can't call him my boyfriend?

keedlez2 even gray

ghostydoof no?

keedlez2 thats not what im WHAT ing about

ghostydoof i meant his eyes. you DORK.

keedlez2 i said PALE as in the relationship not her eyes DUMM Y youre the dork here

ghostydoof yeah. i was saying the same thing!

keedlez2 your punishment for being a dork is watching my weird tv shows

ghostydoof DAVE i literally don't get what you meant about vacilliwhatsit you're a madman.

keedlez2 jus means youre going between quads did no one tell yall bout that

ghostydoof we aren't? what gave you that idea?

keedlez2 i was giving you a hard time cause you said multi colored boyfriend and trolls have colors for their quads so it means hes a multi quad boyfriend its nothin big

ghostydoof what?

ghostydoof no. i was literally referring to the fact that he has red and blue eyes and wears two different colored shoes. he's multicolored.

keedlez2 i know that now it was just funny how you phrased it BP

ghostydoof rude as hell.

ghostydoof i don't actually know that though. i don't know anything about the other quads, just pale really.

keedlez2 i had rossea tell me a lot about them and i read some stuff spanky sent to me theres apparently troll mags about this shit

ghostydoof well sollux doesn't tell me about anything.

keedlez2 sollux SHOULD tell you stuff

ghostydoof tell him to tell me stuff. he doesn't really think it's important so i don't think it's important.

keedlez2 i mean i dont think sollux will listen to me if he doesnt even listen to you but i can always try to tell you what i know

ghostydoof he won't!

keedlez2 god dammit sollux

ghostydoof he's not talking to me again. but he hasn't been around at all.

ghostydoof so i figure he must be really mad or really bent out of shape about the whole boat ordeal.

keedlez2 probably both honestly have you messaged him at all ?

ghostydoof no. he told me he wanted space, so i've been letting him have it.

keedlez2 i gotcha well if you need anything im here bud

ghostydoof i'm glad. i was really feeling out of it before i went to hang for pizza. whatever happened last night just made me feel bad / . damnit dave.

keedlez2 youre becoming me dude

ghostydoof you're rubbing off on me.

keedlez2 my punctuationless ass is rubbing on your punctuation ass

ghostydoof no please i like punctuation.

ghostydoof but anyways. everyone was yelling at me and i didn't know what was happening. i felt like i did something really horrible!

keedlez2 i was at work so i didnt know what was going on until i got home and even now i dont know what happened

ghostydoof and...it made me feel like i did when i first woke up again.

keedlez2 shit thats not a good feeling somethings missing, then

ghostydoof yeah, the whole week.

ghostydoof i lost it all. i almost lost what i have with sollux. :(

keedlez2 :( i dont know what to do to get it back i wish i could help

ghostydoof it's ok...

keedlez2 the past couple weeks ive been feeling pretty useless

ghostydoof i mean i guess there was other stuff but it's not important. i guess spanky broke my nose for some reason and i was a rabbit guy.

ghostydoof and also yell asked me out, but i think i'm going to ignore that for now. :( you're never useless to me.

keedlez2 YELL ASKED YOU OUT and i know that i just FEEL useless im just a dude, john

ghostydoof don't feel useless! she did though.

keedlez2 i dont got anything else going on

ghostydoof i'm just a dude too dave.

keedlez2 i know but youre surrounded by people who are Cool and Powerful and then theres me a Dude

ghostydoof but. i care about you more than most of them. don't tell them i said that. but you're the only one that has never made me feel like i'm not what i'm supposed to be.

keedlez2 what does that mean

ghostydoof people talk about how john egbert is supposed to be a god, supposed to save the day. i can barely save myself.

keedlez2 hey i hear the same things about dave strider so were in the same boat

ghostydoof yeah. we can be the wimpy dave and john together.

keedlez2 were just ourselves and thats okay something happened to us that made us different still not sure WHAT exactly and ill be fucked if i ever find out but

ghostydoof we goofed. but we're alive so that's what matters.

keedlez2 we fuckin goofed up so bad that SOMETHING horrible happened

keedlez2 makes me nervous can feel it in me bones but thats a convo for another day my dude you good if i fall asleep again

ghostydoof no you're not allowed to sleep. but yeah, we can talk about it when you're not so snakey. go sleep.

keedlez2 im sleepy john which makes me snakey

ghostydoof i've noticed.

keedlez2 :*

ghostydoof smooch.

keedlez2 me rn

ghostydoof i'll cuddle you until i need my night meds. snake!

keedlez2 thats okay remind me to go home in the morning so i can take my day meds

ghostydoof i will. sleep and i'll pet your hair.

keedlez2 B*

keedlez2 thanks john i love u

ghostydoof if you ever get a headache? come to me, i have magic fingers. love you too dude.

keedlez2 john i always have a headache

ghostydoof then i'll rub your temples until you fall asleep. shoosh. phone down.

keedlez2 phone down

[ghostydoof-blog]

Ayyy OOC viewed log because that’s how we roll.

-- eggBoy [EB] began pestering twofoldAnnihilation [TA] at 23:32 --

[11:32] EB: it must be all this talk of the game.

[11:32] TA: what?

[11:32] EB: that hurts my head.

[11:32] EB: i told you about the nightmares, right?

[11:33] TA: oh riight.

[11:33] TA: yeah, that could be iit.

[11:34] EB: maybe dave's right and we did play that stupid game.

[11:34] EB: i don't know.

[11:35] TA: ii mean iit ii2 pretty weiird that your head alway2 hurt2 when 2hiit happen2 wiith me.

[11:35] TA: iidk what el2e would cau2e that.

[11:35] EB: you being a pain in the ass?

[11:35] TA: very funny.

[11:35] EB: har har.

[11:35] EB: i just wanted to talk to you. i don't know.

[11:35] EB: i couldn't think for a while.

[11:36] EB: i still can't but i just wanted to

[11:36] EB: talk to you.

[11:36] TA: ii mean ii wa2 kiind of freakiing out there for a 2econd.

[11:36] EB: i know.

[11:38] EB: i'm useless as all hell to you so i just kind of went to have my own freak out in dave's bathroom so i didn't wake him up.

[11:38] TA: iit'2 mo2tly fiine now, ii thiink. ii mean me. ii'm fiine.

[11:38] TA: there'2 nothiing tryiing two kiill me.

[11:39] EB: try to keep it that way.

[11:39] EB: i can't...

[11:39] EB: nevermind.

[11:40] TA: you can't what?

[11:40] EB: nothing.

[11:40] TA: john.

[11:40] EB: sollux.

[11:41] TA: ii'm pretty much iin everyone'2 iidea of liiteral hell and you're goiing two try and pull thii2 2hiit. ju2t tell me.

[11:41] EB: you really want me to get all shitty and emotional at a time like this?

[11:42] TA: iif you don't ii'm gonna go exploriing two fiigure 2ome 2hiit out.

[11:42] EB: i can't even tell if that's a threat or just what you're going to do anyways!

[11:42] TA: can't iit be both?

[11:44] EB: isn't it both?

[11:44] TA: iit'2 both.

[11:44] EB: of course it is.

[11:45] TA: 2o are you goiing two 2piill?

[11:45] EB: oh right.

[11:46] EB: i just can't handle the thought of you being gone.

[11:46] EB: i mean you aren't NOW but you know what i mean.

[11:46] EB: ok?

[11:46] EB: i'm sorry!

[11:47] TA: ii.

[11:47] TA: ok. uh.

[11:47] TA: yeah.

[11:47] TA: ye2.

[11:47] EB: i'm sorry.

[11:47] TA: don't do that.

[11:47] EB: don't do what?

[11:48] TA: 2ay 2hiit and then apologiize for iit. wtf.

[11:48] TA: iif you mean iit ju2t leave iit.

[11:48] EB: i still mean it. i am apologizing for being stupid.

[11:48] TA: lol.

[11:49] TA: riight now. you're not the 2tupiid one.

[11:49] EB: for once i won't argue that.

[11:50] TA: good. don't.

[11:52] EB: sigh.

[11:54] TA: ii know nobody'2 beiing optiimii2tiic iincludiing me but.

[11:55] TA: ii'm pretty 2ure everythiing'2 goiing two work out the way iit need2 two.

[11:55] EB: i.

[11:55] EB: ok.

[11:55] EB: i'm optimistic.

[11:55] EB: i know you'll be ok in the end at the very least, because you're you.

[11:56] EB: and you have me, somehow, and maybe i can help in some way.

[11:56] EB: right?

[11:56] EB: you can't say no because i will find a way.

[11:57] TA: iif 2omethiing come2 up that you can help me wiith, you'll have my coord2 a2ap.

[11:57] EB: shouldn't you give them to me in advance?

[11:58] TA: probably, yeah.

[11:58] TA: but al2o, iit miight depend on what the ciircum2tance2 are.

[11:58] EB: i guess?

[11:59] TA: ii'll get them two you before ii pull any 2hiit, ok?

[12:03] EB: ok.

[12:03] EB: that's the best i can hope for.

[12:04] TA: pretty much, yeah.

[12:04] TA: iit'll be fiine.

[12:04] EB: pretty much, yeah!

[12:05] EB: it will be fine!

[12:05] EB: and if it isn't i will come into that game myself and kick your ass?

[12:05] TA: that wa2 pretty clo2e two the plan, lol.

[12:05] EB: and if it is i will still come into that game myself and hug you and probably never let go again.

[12:06] TA: al2o pretty clo2e two what the plan wa2.

[12:06] EB: what does that even mean?

[12:06] EB: i can't hug you and kick your ass at the same time.

[12:06] TA: lii2ten.

[12:06] TA: don't worry about iit.

[12:06] EB: now i'm worrying!

[12:07] EB: tell me.

[12:07] TA: ii'm not telliing you, cau2e ii know you'll freak out. ju2t know iit'll be fiine, and ii've thought about iit. and iit'll work out.

[12:08] EB: i promise i won't freak out.

[12:08] EB: please tell me.

[12:08] TA: ii'll tell you iif iit come2 up.

[12:09] EB: sollux please!

[12:09] EB: i told you my thing now it's your turn.

[12:09] TA: iit'2 probably not gonna come up!

[12:10] EB: sollux!

[12:10] TA: ii'm gonna try two fiigure out how two reach god tiier before anythiing can happen.

[12:10] TA: and then iit won't even be relevant.

[12:10] EB: sigh.

[12:10] EB: whatever! it looks like i'll be kicking your ass then.

[12:10] EB: no permahugs for you, asshole.

[12:11] TA: ii could ea2iily take you.

[12:11] EB: aradia doesn't seem to think so.

[12:11] EB: you can cheat just because you're a zappy boy.

[12:11] TA: ii have bone2.

[12:12] EB: can you kill a sentient pile of noodles?

[12:12] TA: ii thiink 2entiience iimpliie2 the abiiliity two kiill.

[12:12] EB: you might have bones but.

[12:13] EB: i don't know where to go with this.

[12:13] EB: i'm still going to kick your ass?

[12:13] TA: you're welcome two try.

[12:13] EB: i would honestly rather do the hug thing but you'd just zap me either way.

[12:14] TA: why do you legiitiimately thiink ii hate you?

[12:14] EB: i don't!

[12:14] EB: i know you don't.

[12:15] TA: you 2eem two thiink ii'll try two kiill you iif you do anythiing niice.

[12:16] EB: that's the joke, stupid.

[12:16] EB: i know you won't!

[12:16] TA: ok 2o iit II2 a joke.

[12:17] EB: ...did you actually think i actually thought you actually hate me?

[12:17] TA: iidk!

[12:17] EB: i do not think you hate me at all.

[12:17] TA: good, cau2e ii don't.

[12:17] EB: good!

[12:17] EB: i would nope not.

[12:18] EB: we played video games. :(

[12:18] TA: yeah that would be awkward.

[12:18] EB: i gave you sprite!

[12:19] TA: yeah, iit wa2 good.

[12:19] TA: 2weet.

[12:20] EB: like you.

[12:20] TA: oh.

[12:20] EB: :)

[12:21] TA: 8)

[12:21] EB: !!

[12:21] EB: cute.

[12:21] TA: 8/

[12:21] EB: you're so cute.

[12:21] EB: no!

[12:21] EB: don't do that.

[12:21] TA: you need two chiill.

[12:22] EB: wow i say one nice thing and i need to chill.

[12:22] EB: i guess i was just too smooth for you.

[12:22] TA: iit'2 a 2tre22ful tiime.

[12:22] EB: i'm trying to help us both here.

[12:22] EB: i feel better talking to you now.

[12:23] TA: me two, but 2tiill.

[12:23] TA: everyone on the planet fuckiing diied, except me, lol.

[12:23] EB: so i saw.

[12:23] TA: kiinda fucked up.

[12:23] EB: i'm trying not to think about that.

[12:24] TA: yeah.

[12:25] EB: you blew my cover. i was trying to be a temporary distraction from all of that.

[12:25] TA: iit wa2 workiing.

[12:26] TA: ii'm not thiinkiing about that 2tuff riight now.

[12:26] EB: ok.

[12:26] EB: then shut up and let me compliment you.

[12:27] TA: that'2 two much.

[12:27] EB: goddamn.

[12:27] EB: can't a guy tell his best friend that he's kind of cute?

[12:27] TA: ii diidn't do anythiing!!

[12:28] EB: do you have to?

[12:28] TA: iif ii 2ay ye2 wiill you 2top?

[12:28] EB: no.

[12:28] TA: then ii gue22 not.

[12:29] EB: i mean, what should i say if i can't compliment you??

[12:30] TA: ii don't know.

[12:31] TA: u2ually the weiird 2tuff you 2ay ju2t make2 me feel better.

[12:31] EB: then can i just say that one thing without you getting slanty with me?

[12:31] TA: fiine.

[12:31] EB: ok!

[12:31] EB: everything about you is really cute.

[12:31] EB: :)

[12:32] TA: ii don't know how two re2pond two that.

[12:32] EB: you don't have to.

[12:33] EB: i just felt like saying it.

[12:33] EB: is that ok with you?

[12:33] TA: ii gue22 2o.

[12:33] TA: yeah.

[12:33] EB: :)

[12:34] TA: thank2.

[12:34] EB: you're welcome?

[12:35] EB: i don't know what i did.

[12:35] TA: you helped.

[12:35] TA: iit'2 fiine.

[12:36] TA: don't worry about iit.

[12:37] EB: i try.

[12:37] EB: i.

[12:37] EB: yeah.

[12:37] EB: i try.

[12:37] TA: ii've notiiced.

[12:37] TA: 2o do ii.

[12:37] EB: i know.

[12:37] EB: that's why you're my best friend!

[12:38] TA: yeah.

[12:45] EB: i'm going to uh.

[12:45] EB: go home i think. you should try to not do anything stupid or i'll have to dig out my ass kicking shoes?

[12:46] TA: yeah, no. ii'm probably goiing two 2leep.

[12:46] TA: 2ee iif ii can get 2ome iinformatiion on pro2piit.

[12:46] EB: yeah.

[12:47] EB: stay safe ok? i want to be able to hug you again.

[12:49] TA: yeah. me two.

[12:49] EB: :)

[12:50] TA: 8)

[12:50] TA: get re2t or 2omethiing.

[12:50] EB: you do too.

[12:50] EB: i don't think i can sleep but i'll try ok?

[12:50] EB: i care about you a lot, please don't get yourself hurt.

[12:51] TA: ii'm not gonna pull any 2hiit untiil ii have tiime two thiink.

[12:51] EB: ok.

[12:51] EB: ok good.

[12:52] EB: i'm going. i'll talk to you tomorrow ok?

[12:52] TA: 2ound2 good.

[12:53] EB: it sure does.

[12:53] EB: ok. i'm going this time.

[12:53] EB: goodlight sollux.

[12:53] TA: goodniight, john. 8)

[12:54] EB: :)

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OOCly viewed pesterlog yeet.

-- eggBoy [EB] began pestering twofoldAnnihilation [TA] at 23:20 --

[11:20] EB: ok.

[11:21] EB: so.

[11:21] EB: dreams.

[11:21] TA: ye2.

[11:21] EB: they are a thing that happen.

[11:21] TA: yeah, we e2tablii2hed that.

[11:21] EB: but not to me, usually.

[11:22] TA: oh, diid you have one?

[11:22] EB: yeah. i mean i think so.

[11:22] TA: what wa2 iit?

[11:23] EB: horrible.

[11:23] EB: and i remember every awful detail. :(

[11:23] TA: are you goiing two tell me about iit?

[11:24] EB: yeah.

[11:24] TA: ok, ii'm lii2teniing.

[11:24] EB: i think i just saw all of my friends die?

[11:25] EB: we were in this place full of fire, and we were fighting. i don't even know how to fight, but apparently i did in this dream.

[11:26] EB: and this THING was trying its damnedest to kill us, but we were holding it back on this giant platform thing that was kind of exploding?

[11:26] EB: but i think it was supposed to be.

[11:28] EB: anyways, this thing had me and this short haired girl on one side of the platform and my other two friends on the other side? and somehow it kept teleporting back and forth or something in the blink of an eye. and at some point i heard yelling from the other side and when i looked across.

[11:28] EB: he'd killed my friend.

[11:29] EB: and that caused the other girl there to panic, and she was distracted and he killed her too.

[11:30] EB: the short haired one and i tried to run to help but now he was on us even harder i...

[11:30] EB: left the girl to fight for some reason and ran to where the platform was exploding?

[11:30] EB: and i broke it.

[11:30] EB: the platform i mean.

[11:31] EB: everything hurt and then i woke up.