Could I request headcanons for Peter Roiter and Vincent Caldwell?
Note: Case 63 au (no pandemic); our boys are in it for love
Contents: non-explicit sex and f receiving oral, past dv & death
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Peter Roiter
You meet Peter when he rings your doorbell.
A weekday morning. You’re usually at work, but there’d been a flooding incident from a leaky pipe and the whole place had closed.
Peter, of course, knew this.
He's handsome, curly hair and dark eyes. A flash of a tattoo under the short sleeve of his t-shirt.
He tells you something from your childhood. Too personal for you to have ever told anyone.
Peter says you’ll tell him the story, 5 years from now.
The day after you two get married, when you’re on your honeymoon. The Isle of Skye in Scotland.
You’ll wake up together, in a rental cottage you’d seen on Pinterest.
A photo you’d looked at for years, whenever you needed a mental vacation.
A little place out in the middle of rolling green fields with white, weathered clapboard and old, wavy glass in the windows. Sheep grazing behind it. Cuillin mountains in the background.
Peter had found it and surprised you, two whole weeks. Just the two of you in that exact cottage.
"Do you know the one?" He asks.
With shaky hands, you take your phone out of your pocket. It’s your background.
You’d just seen the photo for the first time, minutes before he’d shown up at your doorstep.
Peter knows he’s changed the timeline by coming back to see you.
He had to come back, though, because before you meet him and fall in love, you meet a man who will eventually kill you.
A man who sees your wedding announcement in the paper.
He finds you when you come back from Scotland.
You and Peter don’t even make it to your first anniversary.
Peter can’t let that happen.
He sounds crazy, you shouldn’t believe him.
But when he shakes your hand, you can’t let go.
He hugs you and starts crying.
You let him stay.
He’s funny. Brave.
And patient. Lets you take as long as you need to fall in love with him. He's not going anywhere.
Loves to listen to you obsess over things, hear your mind digging deeper and deeper into something.
Peter needs to be with you almost every minute of the day, to be sure you’re safe.
Sometimes he sits bolt upright in the middle of the night, short of breath, dreaming you’re still gone.
Stays awake until the sun comes up, just looking at you.
Possessive during sex, a holdover from watching you be ripped out of his life.
Passionate and desperate, Peter tells you over and over that you’re his.
He kisses you deeply, his body heavy on yours, hands gripping you so tightly it almost hurts. "We're going to feel this way forever. *Feel that?* How deep I am inside of you? Every single part of you. Forever."
Lays claim to every place on or in your body that he can touch and taste. Memorizing you.
Like he can fuse your skin with his through sweat and heat. Never separated again.
Driving you to the edge over and over, until you beg him.
Until you feel as desperate for him as he remembers feeling for you, when he thought he’d never see you again.
*****
Vincent Caldwell
You’re his patient, assigned to him because he happened to be there the night you admitted yourself.
The hospital he works at is hours away from your house, but it’s the one you felt compelled to drive to.
The nurse brings him up to speed as he makes his way to see you for the first time.
She says you’re inconsolable, plagued by dreams and things you know aren’t true.
You go on and on about how you can’t tell reality from fantasy.
You ask about your husband and daughter, but then insist you’re single. Something about playing a piano. Going to Europe. But you don’t know if any of those things are true.
You’re sitting in a hospital bed, covering your face with your hands.
He greets you as he enters. Your hands drop.
You look at each other.
Vincent with a smile and a white doctor's coat. His hair pushed back neatly from his face. A clipboard in his capable hands.
The man from your dreams. Your fantasies.
In another life, he’s yours.
Vincent isn’t so easily convinced. But he’s drawn to you. Feels like he knows you.
The things you say feel familiar to him too, even though they’re not real.
He takes a sabbatical from the hospital. Patiently helps you separate your life, and his life, from whatever shared delusion you two have.
He’s not sure it’s a delusion anymore.
He introduces you to his daughter.
The 3 of you fit together like parts of a whole, a family.
You stay.
Sex with Vincent is where the veil lifts, between reality and whatever else draws you together.
Memories of being with him thread through every touch. Your future, other lifetimes, you both feel it.
He kisses down your ribcage, and you know he’s done the same thing, at some other time.
His tongue buries itself inside of you. You both remember the time you were leaning against a bathroom sink.
Vincent was on his knees. Hidden under your wedding dress, eating you out like you were the cake and champagne toast that was being delayed while everyone looked for you two.
He made you come twice, turned you around so you could both watch in the mirror as you had sex for the first time as a married couple.
Vincent ran warm water and wet a hand towel. He cleaned you up gently, kissed you softly.
You both laughed at the absurdity of it.
Hiding like teenagers. You heard people calling out for you.
The reception had been damn expensive, and you two were busy having sex in the bathroom.
Neither of you cared. You were happy.
Here, in bed, now. Laying in others’ arms. Both of you bask in the memory.
The memory that never was.
You’d just moved into Vincent’s house. You weren’t married. He hadn’t even asked. Yet.
Things like that shouldn’t be normal.
But Vincent isn’t unsettled by it.
He feels lucky.
He gets to experience those amazing, precious memories before they even happen, if they ever happen at all.
Like a gift that makes him appreciate you even more.
Summary: You were drawn to him like gravity. Like the only two bodies of mass on a lattice field, dipping in the center like marbles, stretching the fabric of time with the weight of yourselves and converging at the center into a singular point.
Length: 5.5k
Warnings: 18+ MINORS DO NOT INTERACT. Romantic smut. Oral: f receiving. PiV.
Author’s Note: I couldn’t stop thinking about Peter making it to Rome and then confining himself to wait out his remaining days like an invisible stranger, careful not to disturb this timeline. I like to think his curiosity couldn’t keep him away from a special event he never got to see firsthand. Enjoy!
The wedding of Callum Roiter to Rebecca Bradley took place at Creeksea Place in the Essex countryside on Saturday September 30th 2023. Is taking place, rather. Currently taking place. Peter Roiter arrives in a rented grey suit and gate crashes his own parent’s wedding, 13 months before his birth.
They’re taking the photographs now, the photographs that will adorn the walls of his childhood home. The same photograph he will accidentally shatter In 2032 while playing cricket in the house. He recognizes the angle of the pink jaunty bouquets up in the air, the collection of color in a joyous line on the red brick footbridge beside the white gazebo, a bridal party draped in lavender taffeta posed in what looks like “a silly one” where they lovingly encircle the blushing bride—Rebecca Roiter née Bradley.
The camera flashes weakly against the midday light and at the same instant a bridesmaid looks in Peter’s direction and smiles.
He’d cut his palm on that picture frame—the shattered one—the bridal party laid in fragments in that parallel future time. He looks down at his hand and the thick scar is still there. He wonders if the Peter Roiter who will be born 13 months from tomorrow will get the same cut. If he will hit the cricket ball in the same exact angle, turning his head to the same exact call of his mother’s voice from the other room. “Peter!” Crash. A vortex.
That’s what had ruined the photo in the end. Not the shattered glass, but the blood. Will this timeline’s Peter Roiter grow up and do what he’s done? Do it exactly the same? Blood and shattered glass in the parlor. Blood and shattered glass in the terminal 4 bathroom.
He’s never been to a wedding like this before. Never even heard of one with so many people, unrestrained smiles, photographs, laughter, dancing… nowhere outside of a movie, that is. His own wedding to Helen was private, as most weddings in 2050 were. Out of necessity. Sweet and civil. She held peonies and they danced to Marvin Berry in the backyard, underneath the stars and the patio lights. He has an insane urge to make a toast to the people of 2023 and tell them, “eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow we die.”
They’re so unaware. Unbothered. It’s beautiful to see. Like the carefree cheers-ing that must’ve been happening on the Titanic cruiseliner 10 minutes before they collided with an iceberg.
He doesn’t feel sorry for them. He is jealous. They’re feting in the last roaring moments of civilization, right before the interminable lockdowns will begin. He conservatively guesses that half of them will be dead within the next ten years.
He stays as invisible as he can, observing his parent’s tender happy moments from afar. They’re so young. He’s nearly old enough to be their father.
During the ceremony he sees both sets of grandparents for the first time in his life in person. Maybe that should be his alibi instead of “cousin of the bride”, he’s much more believable as “colleague of the father of the groom”. If only he could remember what Grandfather Roiter did for a living… insurance, maybe?
He won’t stick around long enough for anyone to ask just how he knows the lovely couple anyway. He’ll stay invisible for now, just another speck in this world that doesn’t belong to him.
This timeline might be defunct anyway, he may very well be cautiously tip-toeing around what he only assumes is a sleeping beast, but may in fact be nothing more than a carcass. Peter errs on the side of caution anyway and sips champagne from the further-most table.
Callum Roiter, looking everything like the father of his childhood, stands from the center of the high table and clinks his crystal glass. His cheeks look hurt and shiny from smiling, he holds his new wife’s hand and makes his toast, he thanks the guests for coming and makes a joke about how more guests might’ve showed up had they hosted the ceremony on the Boleyn Ground. He’s so young. So untroubled. The trip to Essex was worth every potential risk to the balance to see the joy in his parent’s eyes in real time. He feels supremely lucky to be a product of such an astounding love.
And then Callum raises his glass higher, winks to Rebecca and announces, “and lastly, a great big thank you to American psychologist Doctor Eliza Knight,” There is a knowing laugh amongst the wedding party who are privy to the story of the bizarre phone call from a Dr. Knight. “Without whom, I would have never met my beautiful bride. Wherever you are, love, cheers.”
“Cheers” the crowd responds. Peter downs the rest of his glass, “to Beatrix,” he mutters.
“You know what that’s about, don’t you?”
It’s the first time anyone has addressed him all day. He hadn’t seen her approach. The young woman from the bridal party. The one who smiled at him as the flashbulb went off. Pink roses, purple gown, shards of glass, blood, and a cricket ball.
“What’s about?” His voice slips into the Essex dialect like it’s nothing. He wonders how much of that is the chip and how much of it is his real voice— the one his mother and father taught him to use. He looks down at his lap when the woman sits beside him.
“The American doctor story.”
Oh he knows. He’s heard the tale his whole life, moreover he’s overturned timelines and sold out the souls of billions for the American doctor in question. “No,” he says to the pretty bridesmaid. “Would you let me in on it?”
*******
“Can’t believe you haven’t heard it before,” you smile, “would have thought Cal and Bex told damn near everyone in England by now.”
“Must be a good one.” He says with almost no defensiveness. Almost.
He’s cute. Older than you. A little scruffy, but in a very pleasing way—slightly overgrown at the nape of his neck and shadowed in the roughness of his sharp jaw. His eyes are kind though. So hopeful, sweet, and terribly familiar.
“Come outside with me and I’ll tell you, it’s getting warm in here.”
He glances to the high table, there’s a line forming of folks offering their congratulations along with envelopes of money to the young couple. He nods to you, leaving his grey rented coat on the back of the chair. He offers you his arm and you take it with a “thank you”, leading him to the French doors and stepping out onto the grounds.
The air is late summer. Warm and green. A million twinkle lights glow along the pathway to the pond, the place where you’d first laid eyes on him this afternoon.
“What’s your name?” You ask, trodding slowly towards the gazebo, your arm still in his. His forearm is warm under the white cotton dress shirt.
“Oliver.”
“Hmm.” You smile.
“What?” Defensive.
“Could have sworn it was something else.” You goad.
You can feel his pulse pick up from your fingertips on the crook of his elbow.
“What’s your name?” He counters.
You ignore him. “I didn’t bring you out here to tell you my name, I brought you out here to tell you a story, remember? Do you want to hear it or not?”
Peter breathes deep as if he’s winding up to tell you something but all he does with the breath is exhale and nod, “Please.”
“Last year, November the 23rd, 2022, to be exact, both Callum and Rebecca got a mysterious phone call from a Doctor Eliza Knight, a psychoanalyst from America, telling them that she knew their son. That he was a 39 year old time traveler sent from the year 2062 named Peter Roiter and he claimed to be on a mission to save the world. What do you think of that, Oliver?”
His grin is tight, dismissive, “sounds like a nut job.”
“The odd thing is, Callum and Rebecca had never met each other before. Doctor Knight gave each the other’s information and told them it was crucial that they meet and fall in love and have this child. Peter.”
Peter says nothing.
“So they do get together. Because of the absurdity. They go out for a drink, out of curiosity, to laugh about the madwoman who told them they were going to raise the messiah of the twenty first century.”
Peter leans against the railing of the gazebo and glances back to the house where the party is winding down. “And the rest is history.” He nods toward the red bricked abode.
“That’s not all,” you smile conspiratorially.
“No?”
“No. See, I looked into it, just to check to see if there was a Doctor Eliza Knight, and there is… or there was.”
He remains silent and surreptitiously fingers the raised scar on the inside of his hand while you talk. Nervous habit.
“See, the very next day after she made the phone calls, Doctor Knight walked into an airport bathroom in New York City and disappeared… disappeared! They checked all the security footage. She walks into the restroom and never walked out. They did find her clothes, and a shattered syringe full of blood that wasn’t her own, a tape recorder in a trash can. But her? Nowhere to be found. Can you believe it? The very next day after calling Bex and Cal. That’s insane, right?”
He nods, lost in thought across the lake.
“It’s funny, most people get a real kick out of that anecdote. I was excited to tell you. Brought you out to the dim ambiance and everything.”
“It’s a great story. Really. I’m just tired is all.” He folds his arms across his chest and looks at you with a believable amount of sleepiness.
“You’ve heard it before, haven’t you?”
“What do you mean?”
“That would be one explanation for your boredom— you know the story by heart… How do you know the bride and groom, Oliver?” You nearly whisper, stepping closer to him.
“Who are you?” He backs away a step, bumping into the rim of the gazebo and catching himself on a polished beam.
“Peter, you’re about to upset a very fragile ecosystem that we’ve been curating. I had to get you out of that party, I hope you understand.”
“We?”
“Peter, if you care about the future, you need to kiss me right now, in the next five seconds, it’s our only chance.”
Peter doesn’t hesitate. With a look of solid determination he takes two steps towards you, cradles your head in his hands and presses his lips to yours, kissing you with reserved lips that didn’t match the committed blaze in his eyes. You break the kiss in near disbelief and regret.
“That was mean, I’m sorry.”
Peter’s face scrunches and he takes half a step back, letting you fall out of his grasp.
“What? Wait, tell me who you are, what’s going on? Did the W.H.O send you? Do you have a message for me? Did the project work? Any word on Beatrix?”
You press your fingertips to your lips and your eyes widen.
“Are you fucking with me?” You accuse.
His face drops from hopeful to incredulous and the two of you stare at each other with mutual suspicion for a beat.
He licks his bottom lip. “Why did I need to kiss you? Who are you?”
“I’m… I’m a friend of Rebecca’s. I… hang on, are you— is your name really Peter? I just called you that because… because of what the doctor told Bex…” you can hear your heart hammering in your ears.
Peter’s eyes narrow, “you were teasing me?”
“Holy shit. The… the doctor? The story? Peter Roiter?”
Peter remains stock still, his back rigid, gritting his teeth.
You clap your hand over your mouth and laugh. “Oh my god! Bex is going to murder me if she finds out I snogged her son. This is so weird.”
“How did you know?”
“I didn’t! I mean, god, no one actually believes that story about the doctor, do they? it’s insane! something straight out of a movie! I figured they met each other on tinder and wanted a cuter “how’d you meet?” Story and made this one up for clout or something, but… then we were taking photos today and you were lurking in the back of the setting up, lurking the back of the ceremony, sitting all by yourself in the back of the reception— not talking to anybody… which is exactly what someone who isn’t trying to alter a timeline might do. What am I saying? And god you do really look like half Bex and half Cal… it’s uncanny.”
“You can’t tell anyone about this, you understand?”
“Tell anyone? No one would believe me if I did! I don’t even know if I believe me! Besides, I’m not joking about the whole ‘Bex would kill me’ thing, I’m kind of skeeving myself out right now. I mean they’re both fit and well obviously,” You gesture to Peter up and down before slapping your forehead, “oh my god, I need—I need to shut up.”
“Wait, wait, wait, just calm down. Okay. I need to—look, if this isn’t a dead timeline, I can’t have you treating Cal and Bex’s son any differently than you would had you not learned that.. that I’m him. So—“
“Hang on, dead timeline? What the hell does that mean?”
“Is the name not obvious enough for you?” Peter begins to pace around the pergola, the valley between his brows growing deeper by the minute.
Your eyebrows shoot up, “well excuse me for not understanding your sci-fi speak, Mr. Coherence.”
“Dead timeline. It means the statistical likelihood of salvaging the future of this particular timeline is… astronomically low. If this is a dead timeline, then there is a near 100 chance humanity will be destroyed within the next 40 years.”
“Oh god.”
“It might not be. There’s no way of knowing right now.”
“That’s reassuring.”
“It could be a loop timeline, in which case, it’s important for you to—“
“Not treat the forthcoming baby Peter Roiter any differently.”
“Exactly.” He breathes with relief.
“Even though he will apparently grow up to be a man who potentially puts me and everything and everyone I know and love into a dead future or whatever you called it.”
“That’s not—“
“It’s fine, Peter, the less I know the better, right?” You shift in your heels and lean against the polished railing. “Might make it difficult to take him out for ice cream knowing that I snogged him at his mum’s wedding. Bleeding Christ, I really am sorry about that.”
“You’re surprisingly easy to convince. And you’re taking this extremely well. I’m not used to that— people believing me. And it’s fine, its my fault for being here, for following you outside. I promised I wouldn’t interact with anyone and now we’re getting… inextricable.”
“I don’t know why I believe you. I mean I know it’s crazy, it’s the least likely explanation for all of this, but I just feel like, I have to believe you. I just… have to. Now that sounds crazy.”
He shakes his head. “I really thought I was being stealthy coming here today. It was probably a mistake.”
“Well, if we are in a loop timeline, as you called it, I don’t think there can be any mistakes. And if we are in a dead end, then the mistakes don’t matter, right?”
“Who are you?”
You tell him your name. He shakes his head with that same worried valley between his brows.
“I don’t remember you at all from my childhood. Or hearing about you from my mother. I’m not even sure you were in the photo that I broke.”
“The photo that you broke? What photo?”
There’s a sudden cacophony from the French doors where you exited the reception with Peter. A group of groomsmen stagger out, each with a champagne bottle in their hand, singing what you can only assume is a fight song from Cal’s alma mater.
Peter runs his thumb and forefinger over the stubble surrounding his lips. Those lips that you made him kiss you with. God, what is happening?
“C’mon,” he mutters placing a hand at your lower back and guides you to the path by the pond, further away from the celebration. “Just being cautious.”
There’s a bench aglow with twinkle lights near the pond, out of view of the estate house. It feels good to sit and take some pressure off the silk heels you bought special for this evening. You slip them off and let your feet rest on the cool grass.
“What photo were you talking about?” You ask.
“The bridesmaid photos with the bouquets on the bridge. I grew up with that photo in my house. But one day I was playing football— no, it was… it was cricket. I was playing cricket in the house and the photo shattered. I cut my hand trying to hide it from my mum, look.”
You take his hand, inspecting his palm and turning it over. He continues. “But I don’t recognize you. From the photo. I don’t think you were there. You weren’t looking at the camera. You were looking at me.”
“I don’t see a scar.”
“What?”
Peter pulls back his hand.
“It is kind of dark out, so that could be why.”
“Wha…” Peter holds his hands up to the twinkle lights in the willow branches above the bench. He shakes his head. “This doesn’t make sense.”
“Deja vu.” You whisper.
Peter’s hands fall from inspection, he rubs his fingers together at his sides. “What did you say? Did you say Deja vu?”
“Yeah. I’ve— I’ve been here before. This has happened before. With you. What’s happening?”
Peter sits back down next to you on the bench, grabbing your upper arms with insistence. “Are you messing with me again? Are you screwing with my head?” He’s breathing fast. He looks scared.
“No! No, I swear Peter. This just… feels so familiar. Do you feel it? The smell in the air, the champagne bottles popping, you checking your hands in the light, the kiss in the gazebo… what’s happening? What does it mean that I’ve felt this before?”
Peter lets go of your arms and runs his thumbs across the smooth insides of his knuckles. “It means… it means it’s elastic. This timeline is still alive. I’m not in a loop, I’m not in a dead end. Something is happening… or something will happen. Either way, we’re all still breathing…” Peter laughs quietly for a few moments before silencing himself with his own hand. “Somewhere, somehow, in the past 20 minutes or so, a vortex was formed— a shift in the timeline.”
“What does that mean? Is that good or bad?”
Peter shakes his head. “I don’t know. We—us in the future—don’t even fully understand it. It’s a technology we discovered from elsewhere in the universe. I’ve been thinking lately that we don’t have the receptive capacity to understand the dimensionality. Like trying to conceptualize a tesseract.”
“What are you doing here? Still trying to save the world?”
“No. That window closed. Or at least, I thought it had.”
“So your window is closed. You didn’t succeed?”
He stares into your eyes for several beats. He thinks about December 31st in Rome. How he waited on platform 23 at the piazza di Spagna until the last train came it at near midnight. And how he walked around the Villa Borghese alone when security shooed him away from the station, he walked back to the red tiled hotel alone. A doomed mission. He must’ve passed at least a dozen kissing couples that night ringing in the new year.
“No. I didn’t. I’m sorry.” His apology feels personal.
“It’s okay.” You say with a small voice, placing a hand on his knee. “So, now what? Do you go back, to your original time, the future?”
“Can’t go back. Can’t go anywhere. Even if I could, there’s no one to retrieve me.”
“So you just live out the rest of your days here in 2023 onward?”
Peter bites his lip and looks out over the pond. “Yeah.”
“What happens when baby Peter Roiter is born?”
“You’re too quick, you know that?” Peter snorts and shakes his head.
“I watch a lot of sci-fi movies,” you smile, shouldering off your lavender shawl and pointing out your tattoo. “See. It’s a—“
“DeLorean.” He traces his finger over the small line drawing tattoo.
“A 1981 DeLorean DMC-12 to be exact.” You grin proudly.
Peter swallows and traces his finger down your bare arm, making your hairs raise.
“You got it the day of your 18th birthday. You had a fight with your father and you got it on a whim. You were so angry at your father that you cried when you got it and when the tattoo artist asked if you needed a break from the pain you said—“
“How do you know this, Peter, you’re scaring me.”
“You said, I’ve had worse.”
“Peter—“
“I know you. We’ve been here before. This bench. The lights, the way they glow on your skin.” He swipes the side of your face lightly with the back of his unblemished hand.” He gulps. “I kiss you on the gazebo by the pond, I kiss you under a willow tree far away from the house, I—“ he shifts closer, his forehead nearly touching your own. “I carry you like a bride up the stairs and I kiss you in a room with golden leaves on the ceiling.”
You shift closer to him, your noses touching.
“Don’t you remember?” He asks, cupping your cheek. “No matter where I go. There you are. Entanglement.”
“I remember.” You nod. “Tell me, Peter. Tell me what happens when you’re born.”
Peter cradles your face in both of his hands and pulls back a fraction of an inch, eyes flickering between your own before he sighs and shuts them in a near grimace.
“I die.” He kisses you. And its so different from the kiss on the gazebo. Your little lie, your little trick in back there that got him to kiss you the first time. A lie— or so you thought at the time. Something made you say it to him you’re sure of that now. The deception was compulsory. It wasn’t why you led him out at the time. But now it its.
As sure as he knows the date of his own birth, he knows he will die. In almost exactly 13 months. Or sometime before; but never after. They didn’t teach him every facet at The Project, mainly due to their own ignorance; and he wouldn’t have to face his demise if he had only taken himself to the extraction point… but that had been out of the question. And what is he doing now? With you on this bench? 100 yards from his newlywed parents. This is a new dream he is fulfilling, the erasure of his scar, these new-old memories, the fulfillment of a loop.
Your silk shoes abandoned in the grass, he scoops up your knees onto his lap, he holds your face so tenderly and kisses you, and kisses you, and kisses you beneath the willow tree.
He carries you like a bride to your bedroom at the top of the stairs. If any party stragglers notice you, you aren’t aware. You cling to Peter with your face buried in his neck, holding to his broad shoulders, your bare toes make brushing contact with the walls of the stairwell as you ascend. You don’t need to tell him which room is yours, he’s been here before hasn’t he? You certainly have. In a dream. In another life.
He lays you gently on the bed, kissing up your ankles, sliding the satin of your sheath dress up your legs as he goes, crawling up and up and up you, his lips trailing over the rise of your knees with abject devotion. His strong hands splay and scoop under your dress, under your hips, to grab your lace panties. He looks into your eyes from where he kisses the crest of your thigh when he slides the material down your legs and tosses them to the floor.
“How could I have forgotten you?” He whispers with a longing against your skin, pushing your dress up until it pools in a satin puddle at your middle. He kisses the tip of your hipbone before he settles between your thighs, his stubble scratches pleasantly at the sensitive flesh when he runs his nose along the junction of your hip and thigh.
Cradling your hips in his palms, he shrugs your legs over his shoulders. He’s still fully dressed, the only disrobing he did of himself was the grey jacket abandoned on the the back of the far-table chair in the reception hall downstairs, and the blue tie he loosened and discarded somewhere near your panties. His disguise.
He crawls up further onto the bed to fully press his face into your sex. He latches onto your puffy cunt with his kiss-swollen lips and licks you open with messy, savoring swirls of his tongue. His mouth hot and slick, chin and nose pressing into you with a rocking hungry motion. You don’t intend to cry out at the sensation but he’s making love to you with his mouth like it isn’t the first time and you have no choice but to strangle your own keen of pleasure and fully and gracelessly recline on the bed, the prop of your elbows unable to hold you up through the slick furnace of pleasure that is Peter Roiter’s mouth.
You scrunch your eyes closed and bite your bottom lip when his tongue focuses in on your clit, hot mouth still sealed around your pussy, he lathes you with stern and steady lashings to your point of pleasure. Your hands fist in the pool, of silk at your belly. He sighs hotly into you and works his own fingers through yours, loosening your grasping hands from your dress. He laces all his fingers flush with yours, soothing the sides of your palms with his thumbs.
He never stops the hot assault of your spread sex with his tongue. Your grass stained heels rest lightly on the taut warm linen of his dress shirt. You can feel the way the muscles back there flex, your feet sliding every so slightly when his hips buck gently into the mattress. You don’t open your eyes until you’re desperately close to cumming in his mouth and when you look up all you can see are flashes of gold.
Your hips lift off the mattress with the arch of your back and the contraction of your thighs. You let out a long low keen and his face tilts up to follow your clit, sucking you lovingly, his hands gripping more tightly to your own than ever before.
“Peter,” your lips tremble, you slowly open your clamped shut eyes.
There it is. The gold leaf ceiling glinting in warm yellow light. Just as he said. Just as your remember. You stare dazedly at it and you know in less than a moment Peter will crawl up your shaking sweating body and place a kiss on your lips. He does. You grab him by his thick curls and push and pull and twist him in a debauched kiss till he’s flat on his back and you’re on top. His mouth is hot and sticky and so, so giving.
He runs his hands lightly over the open back of your dress. You only unbuckle him enough, and shimmy his trousers midway down his thighs, to get him inside of you. When you sink down on him he holds your forehead against his and gasps in disbelief.
“I—“ He chokes, catching his breath and fighting his eyes rolling back so he can get a good look at you when you take him all the way down.
“What?” You smile, stroking his cheek.
“I— I’ve missed you. Ahh.” He grabs you hard then, sitting up slightly and clawing your dress strap down so he can bite and suck the softest parts of your chest.
You cradle his head there, grinding into his lap slowly, gasping softly at the feel of him inside you.
“You won’t disappear, will you?” You whisper in a daze of pleasure.
No, he chants against your breast.
“No, no, no. I can’t lose you.” He holds you tight to him like he means it.
Peter has pulled the top of your dress down to your waist now and his hands roam freely over your back, plotting the elevated terrain of your shoulders, the valley between your breasts, and the maps of rivers at your wrists.
He lays fully back down and takes you with him. You smile against his kiss.
“Getting tired, old man?”
“Mmm, I’m younger than you—technically— negative one years old next month.” He bites your ear. You laugh. He thrusts up into you. You moan and clutch him by his clothed shoulders.
Peter cups your cheek in his hand. The one with the missing scar. You turn your face to kiss his unblemished palm. You rock on him slowly, his mouth parts in bliss.
“Does this mean anything can change at any time?” You ask, glancing at the inside of his hand.
“Yes but that’s always been a given.” Cheeky.
“No, I don’t mean just anything. I’m not talking about normal changes, I concerned about—“
“Dissolving out of a photograph? Ceasing to exist?” He teases, flicking your tattoo.
“Or Chuck Berry never writing Johnny B. Goode?”
“Who?” Peter delivers in convincing deadpan curiosity before breaking out into a beautiful grin.
You pinch his side. “Rat.” You can feel the intensity of his jerking response to the pinch where he’s buried warmly inside you.
Peter nods, “I don’t know. I hate saying that I don’t know and I hate that worried little look on your face, but I promise that it doesn’t change anything. We are here and like it or not the only thing certain is change.”
“The mortal agreement.”
“There is one thing I do know. No matter what I change, no matter where I go. I find you. Even when I send you away, you bounce back. Right back into my arms. A less scientifically minded man might think that love has it’s own special inter-dimensional set of physics. We just… keep extracting entropy from a closed system. No matter how hard I break the billiards they fly right back to the center of the table in formation. Not always in the same order, but… still… accounted for. I thought it was fragile, like butterfly wings, you know? But I’m learning it’s durable. It’s elastic, alive. And you always bounce back.”
“Sounds less like time travel and more like pattern reconfiguration.”
Peter tucks your hair behind your ear and drinks in your face, nodding thoughtfully. “Everything you say. Everything you’ve said. It’s all like something that’s on the tip of my tongue.”
You grin, bending over him, taking his pretty face in your hands, you kiss him and suck his tongue into your mouth, bobbing your mouth on the tip of it suggestively, “is it?” You smile. He’s still hard in you. You hope he never stops. This is how you should have every conversation about everything from here on out. Joined together, the beast with two backs as Shakespeare would say.
“I don’t want to cum.” He groans into your mouth, “when I cum I’ll have to stop being inside you, and I don’t want that, I want to live inside you.”
Call it the contrarian in you, but the admission only makes you want to force it out of him against his will. To make him fall apart precisely because he said he was trying his best to keep it together.
You clench, ride him, and moan into his ear until he’s nearly tapping out from ecstasy and when he comes he calls your name.
“Oh no.” You gasp, looking around worriedly.
“What? What is it?” Peter halfway sits up, adrenaline opening his eyes fully.
“Do you think your parents heard us?” You grin teasingly.
Peter sighs with relief and shakes his head, kissing your cheek and crushing you against his chest in a hug.
You don’t worry about tonight, the shoes you left outside, the rented jacket in the reception hall, or what will transpire in the next 13 months. Everything will bounce back in the end.
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You still would've been mine (Peter Roiter x Reader)
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A/N: A wild Case 63 fanfic appears! Next week You'll get Vincent Caldwell.
At first Peter had no idea what he was going to do in this doomed timeline. Knowing what he knew, it sure put a damper on living a fruitful life. But then he met her. it was something He hadn’t expected. Finding love again, after everything. It took a long time for him to warm up to her, and then to finally tell her about everything. To his relief she thought it was fascinating, to his surprise she believed him, to his wonderment she loved him even more for it. She would always tell him she was thankful for the time they do have together, no matter what the future held. She believed that they had the kinda love that you only find once in a lifetime. She was the light in a world full of darkness. They were spending the day out at an art festival. Walking through the booths of acrylic paintings and intricate pottery. Her small hand in his as they walked. That’s when he saw something, a piece of art, it gave him the deepest sense of déjà vu. He stopped to look at it his eyebrows furrowed as he looks at it.
“What is it?” She asked as she looks between him and the painting
“It's so hard to explain…” he mutters looking at the painting of the winged horse. A Pegasus. The memories we’re hard to deal with, even now, about the life he life he left behind. He had never really told her about how the world would end, it caused him enough pain to know there. She squeezed his hand.
“You don’t have to. It’s okay.” She says softly. He looked at her, he was reminded of Beatrix, not because she was necessarily like her, but because she made him feel the same way. The same love, the same feeling, He loves her. He pulls her in close for a moment.
“I know that you and I would've found each other, No Matter what would have happened. It doesn’t matter what the past held. I would have found you.” He says as he gazes into her eyes. Her heart skipped a beat and her breath caught in her chest. She didn’t understand what he was talking about, what caused him to suddenly act do out of character. Peter wasn’t a normally overly romantic, he wasn’t one for bold gestures or grand statements.
“What are you talking about Peter?”
“What am I not supposed to talk about how much I love you?” He looks at her with a playful smirk
“No, No that’s not it. Sorry Peter I just-” He interrupts her by pressing a kiss to her lips, she lets out a soft squeak.
“You still would've turned my head, No matter what would’ve been.” He softly speaks against her lips. “Even in a different life, you still would've been mine…”
“Peter…are you saying you would’ve run away and left it all behind…If she had made it to you? The first time that you saw me, you would’ve just left to be with me?” She asks quietly with glimmer in her eyes.
“I would have, I’ve loved you since the moment you said, Hello" Peter looked at her, then over at the Painting. He smiles at it, knowing that this was a short but timeless love, meant to only last as long as he could keep her.
