#phasingghost | ava

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✱ @phasingghost ❱ [ INTERNAL MEMO: MISCELLANEOUS ]

❱ [ note: additonal correspondence recovered from floor 67 wastebin ]

❱ [ transcript below: ]

ordered this on accident. you can have it.

probably doesn't taste like shit if you're british or whatever W.

you looked ███ tired today

i noticed that

saw this and thought of

you're not sleeping. i can tell

don't tell anyone i gave a shit or i'll █████████ [TEXT OBSCURED]

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✱ @phasingghost asked:

» "when was the last time you slept?"

❱ [ send "when was the last time you slept?" for my muse's reaction ] ❰

John didn't startle this time, like he had been waiting for it. Only the faint twitch of his shoulders gave him away.

He was slouched behind the half-demolished bar --you'd think Valentina would have gotten to it by now, he thought irritably-- back against the cracked counter, one of his long legs stretched out like it hurt to keep it bent. The bottle resting against his thigh was half empty.

"Trying something new," he said after a beat, voice low and rough with fatigue. "Figured enough of this shit might knock me out eventually. No dice."

He nodded at the cabinet-- mostly shattered glass and rubble half-covered with tarps, though a few bottles had miraculously survived. "Bar's still open," he added, the ghost of a smirk tugging at his mouth as he lazily waved the whiskey bottle in Ava's direction. "If you don't mind sharing."

Then, a little quieter: "Didn't think anyone else'd be roaming around. This room still gives me the creeps."

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✱ [ @phasingghost asked: hc + family ]

JUN. 27 PROMPT: » What does 'family' mean to you?

Depends who's asking. I guess it used to mean people you'd give anything for. Lemar. Olivia and Isaac. My folks. Mike. (Kate, before she stopped answering.) That used to feel permanent and then it wasn't anymore. I mean, three out of seven's not looking great. I don't know if it's supposed to be different now or if I messed up too bad to have that again. The Thunderbolts aren't… it's not the same. I wouldn't call them family out loud, that'd make things weird. And I don't think they'd want that from me anyway. Shit, I'm not even sure they like me half the time. But I keep track of them. I mean, not just in a 'cover your six' kinda way. But I do that too. Some part of me's always counting heads, keeping tabs, whatever. By now I can tell who's in the hallway by their heartbeat their footsteps. That's not normal, right? Like that sounds fucking weird. Whatever. Maybe that's something. It still makes me feel sick sometimes, though. Feels wrong saying that kinda thing. Like I'm replacing people who didn't ask to get replaced. Not as much as it used to, I guess. This one was weird as fuck. AND way too long. I'm stopping here. -JW

» STAFF NOTE(S): ( initiate low-level recon on subject associate KATHERINE WALKER, confirm current status and any recent contact history. )

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✱ [ @phasingghost asked: hc + seasons ]

JUN. 19 PROMPT: » What is your favorite season, and why?

I don't think about seasons much. Back home spring's kinda awkward. Too cold for shorts and too warm for a jacket. It's like the weather can't decide what it wants to be, which is maybe how I feel sometimes. (Is that the kind of dumb shit you wanna hear?) Plus the pollen in Georgia is a fucking nightmare. Fall's okay. Football season. I used to play in high school, but I guess that's in my file. Probably sounds stupid but I guess it still means something to me. Winter sucks. If I say summer is my favorite, will you sign off on a pool? Just kidding. No way in hell Val lets us budget for that. Are all these prompts gonna be boring shit like this? -JW (why do I have to sign? who else would it be)

» STAFF NOTE(S): ( he actually did it? postponing temporary suspension pending continued compliance. winner of the staff betting pool to collect after next check-in. )