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officially created the latex template/repo for my thesis... big day

also big-small (escaped) fuck up of the day: in my general extremely tired stupor I forgot to turn off the laser for the raman spec while changing samples. lifted the curtain to see that my sample was green. a solid ten seconds of "green sample? huh?" and NO blink reflex before I realised that the green was the laser. dropped the curtain and FREAKED. I did put the shutter in so green was much reduced in intensity but many a nightmare story about class 3/4 lasers about blindness and permanent visual defects. and tbh i'm not sure what class my laser is exactly. such details never quite stuck in my mind. that said – three different "checkpoints" for the raman; shutter, switch and curtain – hoping that with one in it should be fine (at least, I am not presently blind). why do they let me around the instruments. i am not adult enough for any of this

#i have had two fifteen hour days in a row #and ten twelve hour days in the past two weeks #fried is a small word.#phdying

researching: Great! Amazing! Love learning! Finding out new things! Cool beans! Fielwork! Books! Data! Wowie!

writing article: Hmmmmm not as fun for sure but like. The process. helps a little to put things into words. 5/10 i guess it’s o k

editing article: I crave the sweet release of death. Endless years I have suffered - tell me when it will end? Language is meaningless and I have lost sight of my path. Here alone in the desert I wander, searching the empty expanses of my mind for a synonym. How to tempt Word into formatting my diagrams without ruinous consequence? I am the master of my own garden of sorrow.

writing the cover letter to go with the article submission: somehow f u c k i n g w o r s e

#i bet u cant guess what stage im at #academia #gradblr #phdying #archaeology

help i signed up to a bayesian stats summer school (idk maths) and we'll have a test first thing first day on a lecture we have to watch this is nightmare fuel i thought phd life meant no more testssss

#what have i done #phdying

off for an R training course today in statistics and sampling. base level expectations of assumed knowledge is that "you know some R" as "the course will not be of benefit to complete beginners". took me four hours to download R yesterday... safe to say I will be disappointing and dismaying the good people of notts with my unlearned incompetence. guess we'll see if I learn me a thing or two despite my newness to this language.

#timing being what it is #it's also the dreaded birthday today. hello 25 #and because I am a complete and utter grouch I am turning off my phone and very much ignoring the fact (as I do every year)#usually I indulge the need to escape by catching a flight and leaving the country but I guess the r course takes precedence #(celebrations? me? never! just the gaping maw of existential dread and the desperate need to disappear entirely)#at least I get to stay in a nice hotel. peut etre #phdee #phdying

academia is just

>gets email from institute listserv about postdoc opportunity there

>gets same email forwarded from your department’s listserv

>gets same email forwarded from an associated department’s listserv

>gets same email forwarded from the old chair of your dept who knows that you’re defending soon

>gets same email forwarded from 1 of 3 committee members

>gets same email forwarded from friend at that institute

>gets same email forwarded from 2 of 3 committee members

>gets same email forwarded from friend in a different dept

>gets same email forwarded from mentor at a different uni

>gets same emai-