#philosophical rambles

[seraphs-spider-web]

Musings on spirituality

And today, my favorite person

With scintillating eyes that twinkled with the might of a thousand stars

Extolled his god man to me

And said,

"He is the oracle, the divine and the answer

To the questions I seek.

With him on my path

I have come to be who I am

I will become whom I'm meant to be"

Fascinated, I wonder why

You, who commanders the wealth of the world at your finger tips,

You, with the divinity of the purest soul,

You, with the warmth of the brightest sun,

Why oh why do you need to worship another

When you have all the answers.

And my favorite person said,

"Sometimes to flex the muscle,

You need outer weights

To pressure the functionality of the inner spirit."

As always, my favorite person has all the answers.

But I still wonder....

Can one godlike person truly represent the alpha and the omega and the one true God?

[sanctuaryforwords]

10.18.2022

[ramble]

I can't for the life of me figure out if I'm a good person. I mean, I put the worms back in the dirt after a night of heavy rain. I help strangers with directions. I wave at babies while waiting in line at the grocery store. I text my friends that I love them, and I'm honest to the core.

but.

but I have such a capacity for cruelty. When I think it's called for I can say the harshest things. I don't forgive easily, and when I lose my temper it scares people. So I don't lose my temper anymore. I try to keep it to myself. I don't give people the benefit of the doubt when they hurt someone I care about. I have to remind myself that I'm not as clever as I think. I'm prideful, and lash out when my pride is wounded. I think maybe I just learned how to act like a good person. what things to do, to say, to care about. I learned how to walk a certain tightrope that society and religion and the internet designed, and God knows they don't collaborate well. Do people usually think this much about whether or not they're a good person?

Cuz here's the thing: I can't be good. not to everyone. not all the time. being good to one person could mean actively hurting another. cruelty to one can be a kindness to another. so I just live my life trying to figure out who I'm suppose to help, and who I'm supposed to hurt.

so maybe I am good and maybe it's because I decided to be

Could that better than it coming naturally? I looked at the world in front of me and thought, yeah I'll do the more difficult thing. I'll care about people, even though I don't have to. Even though it hurts.

[seraphs-spider-web]

Musings

Are we attracted to personality traits we wish to have or do we see the traits that are already in us at a subconscious level in those we love? 

[garakow]

The strong don't need validation, yet they get the most notice for their strengths.

The weak seek validation, but have nothing of worth to notice. 

An interesting conundrum, don't you think?

[garakow]

The progress of a loser may be slower than that of a winner, but it does not change the fact that it is progress nonetheless.

Of course the fact that the loser is still a loser doesn't change as well, but hey-- One step at a time.