#phoebe fumbles

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imagine if my public digital diary thought dump became tumblr again

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this is what i get for getting my hopes up

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I had to read this with my own two eyes

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i knew i wouldn’t end up getting this position, but it’s so fucking depressing to get rejected after going through the whole interview process.

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i cannnNNOTTTTndk my algorithms exam smfbemfktgk it’s open book open notes unlimited time whatever (thanks online school that’s how you encourage learning!) but i already know i won’t know any of it and it’s gonna be hell

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do i play league of legends because it is a fun game i enjoy, or because it’s successful at numbing my mind for hours

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tumblr is my new vent space i’m tired of putting all my business on twitter too many people following me

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am i just a jerk like it’s nice of people to reach out if you post something about being depressed but honestly most of the time i’m just like leaaavve me alone lmao... i should appreciate it right and be glad that someone cares about how i’m doing. (unless they’re just doing it because it seems like the right thing to do?)

like “something/what’s wrong?” “you good?” i will literally just say “nah all good” i just feel like shit and hate existing there’s nothing to explain. my life is meaningless and i’m worthless and i’ve never been convinced to believe otherwise by anyone’s attempts to help. i’ve tried explaining the reasons why i feel so shitty 90% of the time and hate living but no one has ever been able to shake my beliefs or sway my feelings.