Am I feeling extra angsty or does the majority of the prompts from the angst list just screams fake dating au? Like c'mon, look at this:
1. "Why does it sound like you're saying goodbye?"
7. "It wasn't supposed to end this way."
21. "You can't just act like nothings wrong when it is!"
Would also love 19. "Would you have said yes?" from any jasco au cuz to me the more angst there is, the greater the fluff when they finally get together. Oh, and I'm just in love with your writing style, perfection really, hope you keep doing this đ„°
Anon, the way in which you've inspired me to tear up while crying and to share that experience with everyone else? It's absolutely magical. Also you're truly right that all the angst prompts are so so fake dating au.
So here's a little fic, set during chapter 3 of fake dating au. It uses 21. "You can't just act like nothing's wrong when it is" and 19 "Would you have said yes?"
For the first time in months, Jasmine didnât feel that unexplainable warmth settle into the pit of her stomach when Bosco wrapped their arm around her waist. Instead, she felt their nails dig crescents into her exposed side. Like a constrictor had a hold on her, was dangling her. Like she was swaying throughout the entire engagement party as the two were passed from friend to friend, congratulations to congratulations. Â
But Jasmine couldnât complain about Boscoâs stiff movements. It was enough to drag your fake fiancee along to an event where everyone thought you two were genuinely engaged. It was near criminal to make them keep playing along, as Boscoâs straight, stony stare ahead at their apartment wall betrayed, not even paying a glance at Jasmine as she emerged in that spaghetti strap dressâthe same one not a month ago Bosco had torn from her and then so lovingly sewn back together the next morning. And it was practically a war crime to press kisses to their cold, flat lips, each icy with the reminder that Bosco wanted them to be real, that Jasmine had extinguished their wishes days ago.Â
Jasmine was glad to be done with the event, throwing her keys into the bowl by the door and sinking into the couch.Â
But Bosco lingered, meticulous as they shed their jacket, lined their heels up against the wall, twisted their hair up and out of their face. And when they finally joined Jasmine on the couch, they sat an ocean away, their side pressed against the arm of the couch, legs folded up underneath them.Â
Jasmine had never seen them look so small.Â
The air hung like a wet curtain on a breezeless day. Dank. Putrid. Thick.Â
And Jasmine, as she usually would, cut it.Â
âThank you for, umâŠâ Jasmine fiddled with the ring. The pale white stone. The dainty vines wrapping around it. âYou know, still coming and, umââÂ
Jasmine was faltering, but Bosco didnât cut her off out of kindness.Â
âI canât keep doing this anymore.âÂ
There Bosco was again, staring straight ahead. They were cold, unflinching. Like there was nothing they could urge themself to do besides stare straight ahead at the potted plant next to the TV.Â
All Jasmine could do in response was wring her hands out, again brushing against that cool metal. She was torturing herself and she knew itâwith every brush against the ring, she was back in that cabin, her hand tender in Boscos, her name sweet on their lips.Â
âWe just have to get through one more and then find a way out.âÂ
Jasmine knew it was the wrong answer the moment Bosco wretched their gaze away from the wall, facing Jasmine. Their brow was pulled taut. Their hands graphing each other until their knuckles turned white. Their lips pressed thin.Â
âYou canât just act like nothingâs wrong when it is.â Bosco closed their eyes and shook their head, disappointed as Jasmine kept fiddling. She couldnât meet their gaze, so they didnât offer any more. âMaybe you can. But I canât.â Â
âI know you want out, thatâs what Iâm trying to say.â Jasmine held her voice constant, wanting to hold Bosco as well. If only she could take them and pull them close, wind her pinky with theirs like they would when they wandered around the market each Sunday. âMaybe we should take a minute before we plan and, kind ofâŠcool down.âÂ
âJasmine.â Bosco was clenched. Her name had to fight through a forest of razors to come out, to hang between them from its noose.Â
âLetâs just go to bedââÂ
âYou cannot possibly still think thatâs what I want.â They heaved a breath. And their girp on the couch cushion was firm, planting those came nail-crescents in the pillow that Jasmine still felt dug in her waist. âItâs like you donât fuckingâforget it.âÂ
Boscoâs up on in an instant, already slipping back into their jacket, jamming their feet into their sneakers.Â
âI get it.â Jasmine tried not to bite it back, tried to keep herself composed, but found herself dragging her fingers through her hair, tugging, letting the frustration breathe. âYouâre in love with me and I wonât say it back. You want me and I apparently donât want you back enough.âÂ
âAbolutely fucking dense,â Bosco muttered to their phone, tapping frantically.Â
âYou want too much!â Jasmine steadies herself as she shoots up, still unsteady in her heels. âI said I wasnât in love with you yet. I had feelings but I couldnât call them âbeing in love.â And if you could just wait for me, I could get there.âÂ
Sheâs closer now, having moved steadily toward a paralyzed Bosco. Frozen in their place, spinning frozen words.Â
But for every ounce Bosco was icy, Jasmine was aflame.Â
She jabbed a fingernail square into their exposed chest, right at a purpling, taunting hickey she didnât even have the pleasure of forming. âYou say youâve waited years, you go on about how long youâve loved me, how much youâve loved me, and you donât have the patience for me to catch up.âÂ
Bosco slid their phone back into their jacket before taking up their keys fignering through them. Jasmine knew they were ignoring the closeness, ignoring her hot breath gracing their lips, the searing of her fingertip.Â
Jasmine feared Bosco was putting on their final act as fake-girlfriend: the death of the fake-girlfriend.Â
âI shouldnât have to wait.âÂ
The keys clanged with their grating metallic ring, as though measuring seconds, minutes, slipping away from Jasmine.Â
âIâm not asking for a lotââÂ
âI wasnât done.â Bosco had always been swift, cold. But in this instance, theyâd cut down to Jasmineâs bones in three words, rendering her silent. She withdrew her finger, letting her hands grip on her dress.Â
âAfter everything Iâve done for you, with you. The relationship I thought we had with each other. I shouldnât have to do any more for you to love me.â Bosco bit their cheek and sucked in air, as though through a cigarette. âAnd I shouldnât have my hard-won feelings insulted as you parade me around to all your friends, acting as though the love I wish you had for me were actually real, while I have to both pretend it is and remind myself it will never be.âÂ
And as Bosco threw those last words, their jaw tight, the grip on their keys tighter, all Jasmine could muster was a nod.Â
They stood in that thick air for a moment, maybe two. For Jasmine, the time began blurring together, each instant growing lost in the tangle of Boscoâs words. I shouldnât have to do any more for you to love me.Â
Bosco yanked the door open. With their hip propped against the door frame, bored expression returned to their face, they delivered their final blow.Â
âYou know when you asked me âIf you knew you were going to fall in love with me, would you have said yes to being my fake-girlfriend?ââ Bosco twirled their keys until Jasmine nodded toward her hands, now rubbing the velvet of her dress clean off. âAnd I said âI would. Because I always want more of you.â Do you remember that? Were you listening then?âÂ
âYes,â Jasmine replied wetly. She knew where Bosco was headed; the fat, hot tears now trailing from her cheek to her chin knew as well.Â
âIâve changed my mind.âÂ
Jasmine couldnât help but let a sob break forth, couldnât keep her hands from flying up to wipe the snot from her nose, let it trail across her cheek as well. âPlease,â Jasmine said. It was all she had left.Â
âIâm gonna go sleep at Dayaâs.âÂ
And with Bosco gone, the door clicking behind themâso faint, she wouldnât have known theyâd left if she hadnât seen it, hadnât indulged in watching as they trailed down the hallwayâJasmine sank to the floor. She gripped the glass bowl on the end table, the same one she kept her keys in, the same one Boscoâs were missing from. And when she went down, it did as well, striking the floor and smashing, all good and messy, spread out in pieces.