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Pink Shield with Wings Symbol

This is a high-quality PNG image with a transparent background, showcasing a stylized and ornate emblem. The centerpiece is a classic shield, presented in varying shades of purple and pink. It features a prominent, darker purple border and a central crease that catches the light, giving it a three-dimensional, slightly metallic appearance. Extending from behind the shield on either side are a pair of large, soft-looking wings, colored in a light, ethereal blue with subtle shading. The composition is further embellished by four delicate, purple leafy branches that frame the shield, two above and two below.

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[nauticalmoose]

I'm Out

So I left Pink Shield. For some reason, my concerns about the new mod's disturbingly comfortable stance on silencing assault survivors and being grossly ableist towards people with mental illness went entirely ignored in favor of blaming it all on... Transphobia? Like, New Mod being trans had nothing to do with my response to the situation. New Mod being an ableist shitwagon had EVERYTHING to do with my response. Brushing it off as some perceived transphobia that isn't there, instead of acknowledging the actual issue and actually addressing my concerns, just really goes to show how serious they are about making Pink Shield a safe space for everyone (hint: It's not at all.) One of the admins messaged me privately Wednesday afternoon, but I still haven't read it. Having it there in my inbox was stressing me the fuck out and causing huge problems at work, so I opted to just block her for now and archive it so I can't see it anymore. She's the one who'll say anything to anyone to stay on their good side in private while saying totally contradicting things in private to opposite parties for the same reason (while passive-aggressively vagueblogging about everyone in the process), so whatever she has to say, assuming it isn't just more dismissive bullshit, is likely insincere anyway. And she wonders why so many people won't go to her? "Protector of the small." Hope she's talking about her reptiles, because she sure as hell isn't talking about all of the people she's alienated and scared out of the group. I've been triggered into panic attacks four times over the last 2-3 days trying to deal with this, and I'm so numb and exhausted and depressed at this point. My feelings mean nothing, nobody cares, and these people have confirmed that. So there's no sense trying anymore, I give up. It's probably all in my head anyway.

[nauticalmoose]

Maybe I’m The Problem.

I’m actually still so stupidly fucking upset about Pink Shield today. Like, I’m so fucking tired of everyone being so condescending to each other, I’m tired of the infighting and drama, I’m tired of certain people getting a free pass to talk over and down to others and condescendingly tell them that their feelings as survivors don’t matter, and that they should stop “using it as a crutch” and just “learn to heal” as if they have any business or even half a fucking clue as to how these people are coping with their trauma anyway. “Just get over it” “You’re using your history of sexual abuse to project, stop being so sensitive and learn to move past it already” I’m so sick of people who are more focused on proving how much more ~*feminist*~ they are than everyone else turning everything into the Oppression Olympics by telling other people to just get over these problems, because it’s taking away from their ability to focus on them and their issues. If you disagree with this person on anything at all, you’re a transphobic TERF, if you disagree with anyone at all you’re a bad feminist and you’ll be shunned. Like, I don’t get why every single fucking group here in Newfoundland has to be so full of such endless amounts of drama and bullshit all the fucking time-- and not just feminist-oriented groups either, literally every fandom/hobby/whatever group I’ve been involved with has had the same problem. I talk to people in groups in other provinces, and other countries, and nobody’s ever even heard of this much infighting and drama. What the fuck is the problem with the people here? And the worst part is that I always end up feeling totally shut down-- even when I’m not the one being targeted in these fights, when I’m not the one being told that my feelings don’t matter or that my experiences as a survivor are somehow invalid, it just brings me back to all the times when I was the one at the end of that and it just leaves me feeling just like it did back then, that maybe they’re right, that if I have a problem with other peoples’ behaviors in these groups, then I’m the problem and I’m the one who needs to change, because somehow my feelings are wrong and unwarranted and unimportant. Like, I want to just give up on Pink Shield altogether but I feel like that would make me a terrible feminist, because somehow it’s my fault that something that’s supposed to be a “Safe Space” doesn’t feel safe to me anymore. Yesterday, I was just angry about the whole thing, but today I’m just... tired and depressed. And I feel like I can’t talk to anyone in charge of the group because of just how fucking often they side with the people who leave me feeling like my opinions and experiences are worthless in the first place. It would never get anywhere. I don’t think I’m gonna be very active in the group anymore. I’m not sure if I’m even going to stay, to be honest. I appreciate what the people in that group are trying to do, but I feel like something isn’t working. Maybe I just don’t belong there, or something.

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Making people in Harmony think I’m an asmo.