i ask myself "what is it called when i needlessly obsess over getting something absolutely exact according to the made up notes in my head about how it should be done that i made + if i dont follow my made up instructions my brain explodes badly even though i know logically it's literally fine."
and then i stroke my chin and think. maybe it's not that hard to figure out, but it doesnt change anything anyways dhfhsjfbdj










