plans, future, etc
A few hours ago my relatives came to my home to deliver a good news. Her daughter is (soon) getting married. I am so happy for them, I really do. Also surprised since she’s still really young (younger than me).
So, I knewwww every time relatives or friends of my family announced the ‘big news’ it’s likely coming back to me. My parents - note this - always asked me (and my brother) when is our turn. I was like ??? I don’t even know the answer to that. Because...
I don’t have any S.O. at the moment (not that I don’t want to, Idk why either)
I am considering myself so young, I mean, I know few people get married at a really young age, but I guess it’s not me
I still want to do a lot of things in my life really. But I don’t know if my parents will approve, esp my mother since she thinks that if I go pursue further education or pursue my career I will be ‘perawan tua’
It’s not that I don’t want a family or something, I really do. Yet sometimes what you want and what your parents want are in opposite direction. I am sure every parents want the best for their children, and I also think that I have every right to pursue what I want and what’s best for me....(everlasting dilemma)
Back to what family talk this evening, my dad was (I hope) jokingly said that he wants to marry me off with our family’s acquaintance. Again, I was like ????? plus my brother mocked me at the same time, as the background. You see, I know this guy and he really is a nice guy, coming from a respected family, educated, smart, religious, my father has befriended with his father, my mother has befriended with his mother, yadda yadda. We know this family from our last trip to Europe and I just knew today that they talked about this jodoh-jodohan kind of thing.
Well, I am not 100% disagree but I don’t know, there’s a piece of me which still don’t want to get too serious this soon. And it’s not like that he wants to be with me either. Hahahahaaha.
Please pray for me and my future partner whoever he is. Hahahaha
-Y
