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i remember the first time you told me you loved me. i was having a breakdown (what’s new) and you were right beside me comforting me. when you were listing a bunch of reasons why i meant so much to you and without thinking, out slipped those three words. i was already on a roller coaster of emotions then throw in some more after that, safe to say i was overloaded but also mostly in shock.
now lots has happened since then. i eventually said it back - i wanted to make sure i did actually love you and i wasn’t just saying it in the heat of the moment (which you helped me clarify later that night when we called). so since then we have said a couple more things; forever and always and only you. which i love so much. i love us so much. i remember i said forever and always and you said only you which in a funny way comforts me? i don’t know if you realise but i will forever love you. you’re my first love. every time you say only you, it reassures me that i’m the only one for you and it makes my heart skip a beat. and of course one of our main rules which is ‘we will never get into an arguement of who loves eachother more’ (we have one more rule which is never break a promise)
tonight though i saw something which said ‘with every heartbeat’ which i just adored. i remember i once read this text post that said something along the lines of, “your heart creates enough energy to drive a truck or car 30kms everyday. in a lifetime equals driving to the moon and back (768,800km). when someone says they love you to the moon and back they’re basically saying that they will love you with every beat of their heart for the rest of their life.” and i don’t know why but i thought of that quote/fact because i honestly love you with every heartbeat. i don’t believe there is anyone else out there for me, i believe that we were made for eachother. with every heartbeat i will love you, appreciate you, being grateful for what i have but also remember that i am equally as loved.
23-january-2020