Bringing another microdose of "things -I-(just)-realized-again" in EP 01 of Playboyy S01 because we have a whole week for the rewatch and I am using it. So if you hope for peace and silence: 💫suffer💫 because I can't shut up XD
(This is the point where I spoil the whole season)
Zouey in this episode is another level if we consider what we know about the whole shit that hit the fan. Holy fuck, Korn acted his ass off because I really interpreted Zoueys reactions in complete different ways than I do now. And it still makes sense, so he left room for different views, just... the mind of the writers and acting coaches...
Anyway, what I am talking about:
We see Zouey still stalking Nants facebook, as if he would return suddently. And we know what role Zouey had in the whole dissapearing circle. He knew where Nant was at first. And he feels all the guilt that comes with it. Evidence a, the drawing of the baddie bunch on the table.
Zouey sees himself as guilty but he doesn't want to. This feeling is horrible, it haunts him for 1 whole year already, it is enough!
But how to work with such a guilt? Well... he is the only one who knows what happened. He and Nant, who isn't there to sing the tale. So how to avoid this choking feeling of his own wrongs?
We shift the blame to these, who don't know the full story.
I am not saying, that Captain, First and Porsche are innocent. They are partly at fault too, which will unfold in the series. And this is what makes it so easy for Zouey.
He can just lie. Lie to himself and the others. Because they are at fault, what they did brought Nant to the point where he was. So they are to blame, right? They are at fault too and maybe, maybe even a tiny bit more than Zouey himself.
They know that as well, we see it in Captains reactions and also in his face at the last picture.
There is no smile, no dramatic sigh or mocking tune. Captain knows what he did and he has someone who tells him that it is his fault. He can't hide from it.
He tries to avoid the guilt as well as Zouey but with this they return to point 0, where the blame just starts to take turns with everyone, fueled by Zouey's tries to push the guilt he feels away.
And that's how we got this picture:
We see the shock, surprise and confusion of First, Captain and Porsche but Zouey doesn't seem to share this.
He freezes up. Because all he can see is Nant, the only other witness to his wrong doings. The one who can expose all the blame he shifted and directed from himself at the others.
So the tiny prick of fear drips into this scene, shining through the shock and gifting us AGAIN a multi- layered character, who is confronted with the threat of exposion and guilt.
And oh, fear is a terrible advisor.
