I get so sad when I think about you... Kind of like a happy-sad though. I miss you so much, and I wish I could see you every day. Even though I kinda hate you sometimes, but I know you hate me sometimes too. You're really funny, And you always have that dumbass crooked smile on your face that gives me butterflies. (Why oh why do I feel this way...?) I've known you for so long, but it feels like I barely know you at all... You're slowly slipping into a state of nostalgic nothingness. I'm sorry for things that've happened to you. You're my bestest friend And always will be. I know you're the only one who will understand the beginning and end of this, but I don't care. As long as you still remember. I love you so, so much. I shouldn't have ignored you for so long... But what's happened has happened, and if you don't want to have anything to do with me anymore, I have no one to blame but myself. You used to always know what to say, and how to make me smile, and be there for me even when everyone else hated me. I love you, my dearest friend. Don't let the barn door open