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HEY, FOOLS!
THE MAD KNIFE FANFIC IS DONE! READ IT!!!!!
https://archiveofourown.org/works/80074836
PLEASE, I WORKED HARD ON THIS...
OH! CREDIT TO BOTH @seven-oh-four AND @nikirgb FOR HELPING ME WITH HOW THE KNIGHT AND MADDIE WOULD INTERACT, EVEN IF IT ISNT IN THIS CHAPTER! THANK YOU TWO!
colours that remind me of you
first love / late spring by cherryconke
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As if enough could be fucking thrown at me... My dog isn't doing good now. He's not eating, his equilibrium is off, he threw up, he's not himself. This isn't my dog... Something is wrong with my baby boy and I don't know what to do man. His breathing is wicked raspy like I'm right next to him and I can hear him wheezing when he breathes. Why... Why my dog..? You were supposed to be here when Ryan got back... You were supposed to be with me for a whole week when mom and dad were gone... What am I going to do without my best friend..? Incase I am not talking or wicked depressed guys I am sorry. I have to deal with my grandmother dying ontop of this.. Fuck my life...
Whoever I am RPing with I will be replying and I'll be needing everyone for this entire week since whatever happens to my dog is going to mess me the fuck up...
Whoever else I forgot to tag I'm sorry I gotta remember so many tumblr names lol..
@the-sloth-woman @bittersweet-faerietale @auntiesakamaki @chimmerly @nixiemel @animeislife54 @vantalizing @1-800-vamp @l-e-w-d-y @spellboundsonnet @lavendel080 @smoke-grass-eat-glass @skyboivinauthor @fairibb @nerieda @yukinonshi @lets-bewitched @lexiy-dreyar
I don't know who to tell this to but I feel like I can't talk to anyone in my family or my friends. I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for years and I've been trying my best to get better but my mental state is worse than ever. I'm constantly having anxiety attacks. I barely have any motivation for anything. I keep thinking about dying and it's scaring me so much. I never thought about hurting myself this much. I'm scared I might hurt myself. I tried therapy but they didn't help much (the small town I live in is just...a mess). If anyone has any advice or something that can help me I would greatly appreciate it. I usually try not to put too much of my personal struggles online but I literally have no one to turn to.
Hey guys. I’ve never asked this of my followers but I’m having a family emergency right now and I could really use your help. So here it goes… Sorry if my grammar is off and if my sentences are long… it’s been a hard week.
3 days ago, my aunt in South Korea told my mom that my grandmother had fallen into a coma. My grandmother has been in the hospital for almost 8 years now and her health has been deteriorating over time, but right now she is in critical condition. Her doctor said it could be any day now. The last time my mom saw her own mother was on our last visit to South Korea 5 years ago. Right now, we aren’t in a financial position where we can afford to send my mom back to say her goodbyes to my grandmother and be there for the funeral. So, I’m trying to raise enough money for the airfare to send her to Seoul. Any contribution would be such a blessing to me and especially my mom. Please help me send her back home to her family.
From me and Ally to Mark and the community...
One last message to Markiplier from me and @allyandmusic
This is a conversation me and Ally had... Please, read the whole thing..
Ally: I'm honestly thinking about dropping mark now too... I mean he was a great guy and I loved him to death but his recent "sass" (if you can call it that) hurt one of my friends deeply, it was the both the Anorexia and Abuse "jokes" and she broke down and I couldn't believe the guy who used to get mad at people who did that...does it, I'm glad Jack though is still okay yknow? But like... I'm really upset with Mark so much it disappoints me, like I don't find the motivation to watch him anymore if he takes a "Jab" at like depression or any other mental illnesses. It made me genuinely upset and I hope it stops soon and we get are actual (not dick) markimoo
Me: Yeah
Ally: It sucks but it's just getting way too far
Me: It really does
Me: Like
Me: Just like with Jack, Mark has been like a brother to me. But now..
Ally: It's like seeing someone becoming who they once said they hated... someone so innocent turn into a sub monster.. I'm just glad Jack remembers who he is and remembers not to do what marks doing
Me: Exactly. I think it's the 10 million, it changed him
Ally: Same... But that makes me upset even more if it's true
Me: Yea....
Ally: He became what he told us to swore not let him become
Me: I'm both mad and worried about him
Ally: And people are supporting him saying it's the "old" him. I am too and he's ignoring us when trying to tell him to stop
Me: I don't know about the rest of us, but I feel heavily betrayed.
Ally: Most of the fandom does, everyone is going to give up on trying to help this new him
Me: yea, I hope that
Ally: Like he became a monster
Me: He will realize it once he notices how many has left
Ally: That what he did. Was unacceptable
Me: Worst thing is, it's difficult to leave someone who's helped you, eve after they're hurt you
Ally: That is the worst part.. But imagine the people who are still healing and then he makes jokes like he does and when they be sincere he goes and acts like he doesn't care
Me: Yea. I cannot imagine what they must feel like right now
Ally: They must feel like they deserve what they got and that makes me so mad at Mark. Like he forgot where he came from
Me: Exactly
Ally: Why he did YouTube. Now it's all numbers. More subs
Me: It feels like he's forgotten his past.. He won't notice it until the numbers drop heavily. He won't care about anything. Then to get them higher up. We're all just dollar signs now
Ally: Tell everyone who asks who Markiplier is that he's going to beat them up if they don't sub and i don't know if I even want to be labelled as one of his fans
Me: Yea. I just did the first thing, I unsubscribed. Now to unfollow him on everything... It hurts
Ally: I'm gonna to. You got this, imagine the fans who he hurt
Me: I am actually about to cry
Ally: Don't, he doesn't deserve your tears. I love him too. But not this him
Me: Yea... Mark, what happened..
Ally: Mark, do you remember who you are..?
Me: Or is that just buried under the money and subs? Has it gotten to you? Have you turned into the ''cartoonyoutubers''? Who does not care about anything but numbers? Have you?
Ally: Do you even care about what happens to us as long as we view?
Me: Mark.... No, you are not Mark. Who are you even?
Ally: You are just one of them. One of the monsters of YouTube who use their subs just to bring hatred to this world. Is that what you want? Is that why you started YouTube?
Me: I am so disappointed in him, or it. I don't even know what or who he is anymore.. If he blames his new ''him'' on the death of Daniel or anything like that... Then we know that he doesn't really care about us. That he just makes excuses
Ally: Is this what you want people to remember when they think of the name Markiplier? The one who changed and hurt fans of many. And if he did, I wouldn't ever forgive him, you continue for Daniel, not change into a sub monster, and how dare you blame your friend who was depressed
Me: The effect should be opposite. You should be more caring, careful, friendly. Not selfish, offending and hating
Ally: Try to make it your life goal to make everyone smile at least once. But you're making them cry
Me: Not of joy
Ally: Are you happy, the one who says they are ‘’Mark’’?
Me: Are you?
Ally: He could’ve caused suicide and that thought makes me so angry at how he probably would make a joke about it.
Me: I will make one last, big post to him, I’ll take our messages and put them into a big post. And I’ll hope that, IF he DOES see this, that he’ll understand
Ally: How damaged we are by this. I miss the person I called my idol. I hope he sees what he’s doing.
Me: And even if he doesn’t, it might feel better for both of us to get it out. I’m only afraid of one thing, though.
Ally: Getting attacked by ‘’loyal’’ fans?
Me: That and that those ‘’hardcore’’ fan, or even nonhardcore, will say that we’re just acting to get attention. Or that they’ll say that we’re hating on him.
Ally: Was this conversation started for the post? I don’t think it was so why would we act? And we are trying to show him what he’s become.
Me: Yea, I am actually scared. Of him. Of the community.
Ally: Sadly, I have to agree.
Me: "This is one of the strongest communities. One of the best. We are strong enough to change the world!" If we really are... or... were... Why can't we change him back to normal?
Ally: Why is he refusing to be himself again? Why is he saying that he always was like this?
Me: Mark, why have you become this? Why have you become what you’ve promised us never to become? Why have you done this? Don’t you see that you’re hurting more than you’re helping? Please. Please try to understand...
Ally: I’ll miss the community and Mark that I once knew. I hope this is over soon. Mark, please, open your eyes.
@markiplier, please... If you see this, I hope that you will understand what you’re doing... You’re not being ‘’sassy’’. You’re actually hurting people.
Introduction To This Blog!
((Ah, this is my first post on this blog... Well, short meet the mun time!~
Hi, my name is Emily, call me Emmi or Emma or whatever you like! Well, the mun is trying to edit and stuff but I do roleplay, just like on asktheislandofsicily. Feel free to send a starter or whatever! Send questions and she will answer. NOTE: This is a Human Gakuen Hetalia AU, so she is not a country or island on this blog, please call her by Adrienna. Thank you for reading and following...))
