; seems like whenever we start fronting we can no longer remember what happened in headspace until we start talking about it ?? like, we'll have 0 memory of what has happened then someone will ask like " anyways what've you been up too " and we start getting snippets of memory/more the longer we talk about it ?? and with fronting, since I'm almost always doing so you'd think I have perfect memory of what happens, but there's gaps in it whenever someone else co-fronts/influences with me ? like whenever someone co-fronts, I'm pushed to the side and forget most of what happened, then when they stop co-fronting I'm just. lost. and if they share what happened the memories slowly come back ??
; or I'll have memories of something happening but it's very vague and more like they're < giving > me those memories and less I'm actually remembering .. idk, just thoughts
- myles / blurry ? ( they/them )