#plus pandemic

[sparrowposting]

Just an fyi. I've been sorta absent from tumblr lately and tbh I think that's gonna continue for the indefinite future. I've just been so....irritable? Cranky? Anxious? Guilty? Idk but everytime I'm online it seems to get a hundredfold worse and I thought it was just an off week but it's been more than a month now and if I'm in the mood for something mind-numbing genre fiction and video games don't leave me so out of sorts and Moody and Upset afterwards

Idk? It may pass? I'll still be on occasionally and will absolutely will check messages but idk I'm just gonna spend time by myself ig

Anyway sorry

[a-kind-of-merry-war]

The way I’m sort of looking at the “oh god I didn’t do anything this year” thing is like, it’s not just me that didn’t do anything. I haven’t fallen behind, we’ve all collectively stopped. Y’know? 💕

Yeah see this is what I’m trying to think too, although irrational brain is irrational. I get this feeling most years, to be honest, but this year I’m trying to give myself more leeway as, ya know, global pandemic (amongst... other things).

I think it’s tricky as part of me knows that this is extenuating circumstances and me feeling a little stagnated is perfectly understandable - and natural - but also I look back at the past eight months of not really being able to do anything and think... hmm welp look at all that free time I just wasted.

[scullysflannel]

I’m kristen stewart in happiest season without the gf or the cool suit

[wecanthavethat]

I'm a strong believer in eating, hydrating, exercising, and sleeping regularly, to the best of my ability. I'm reeeally hoping that will help me in the next year.