#plus writers block

[cenotaphghuleh]

If my moods could stop yo-yoing, that would be great. 👍🏻

[feelingthedisaster]

me looking at all those writers saying they didnt write anything in two days or their word count of day is really low when i havent written anything in a month

[chaosvelaryon]

I NEED... Jace and Luke having the most obscene, filthy, lewdest, nastiest, wettest, make out session to guilty as sin by Taylor Swift. I NEED... jace and luke dancing on their wedding day to the alchemy also by Taylor Swift. I NEED... slutty, revenge Luke blaring imgonnagetyouback while giving the sloppiest top to Jace.

[forestofstarlight]

Send in starters... please?

[paigiepixels]

Yes, a You + Me update will be coming soon! Ya girls got midterms this week buuut next week is my spring break, and aside from sleeping a lot, my plan is to write as much as possible! So please, wait till the end of this week and I promise I will update soon! I love you all so much! Thanks for sticking around!!! ❤️❤️❤️

[gunsli-01]

So I've been gone for quite awhile and here's why that is if you were interested in knowing.

The main reason I haven't been on is due to that aforementioned editing. I've had to write a lot in the past few weeks actually I think it's been a couple months now and the appeal of writing is... Well let me just say the pen isn't mightier than the sword at this moment. It's not that the premises aren't good and it's not like I'm not having fun but the outcome of all this work and writing has been thoroughly underwhelming. I know it can be better  and that's the sad part I read over it and most of my pasts works and I think meh it entertains but leaves a lack of thought.

The problem is most of my writing is pretty straight forward at least in my opinion it doesn't leave too much to the imagination. It answers every question that could possibly be asked and I just don't know if that's a good thing anymore. Other than writing problems that seem to be taking up most of this explanation I was out of town a couple weekends ago leasing an apartment of all things. It's nothing really major well I guess it is since it was my first time leasing an apartment. I'll be moving into said apartment in January and going to college.

I say this isn't a big deal because well one of my roommates is my older sister her and her dog will be there when I go there in January along with a third roommate who has this giant husky! Just imagine looking around this apartment and your sis is like oh hey roommate has a dog and then this giant HUSKY CRAWLS FROM UNDER A BED LIKE IT JUST CAME FROM ANOTHER WORLD and your just standing there with this cool but wary front like oh yo a husky cool, cool I can be chill about this. The husky is cool though my sister says the guy is afraid of everything including her and I'm like oh okay still gonna have to get used to that. Only downside to moving is I can't take my pet I know roommate has a husky and my sister is going to have her own dog up there to but my cat despite her angelic name doesn't play well with others and would tear up the furniture which is a huge no, no so she's staying home sadly.  Which whenever I come back she is going to be ticked off this is cat I've had for five years and the longest I've been away from it is three to four days at most. 

Then when I come home she just jumps into the window and starts rubbing up against glass like hey you're back but then she gets mad when I get in the house like wait a minute you left for four days. So I'm not too sure what she's gonna be like after six months let alone one so that's gonna be awkward. Plus what I want to do is going to take six or five years at most to accomplish two of those years are going to be spent at community college since I'm in no rush for the university prices education. Six years is a long time a really long time and I don't know where I'll be spending all of those six years but I do at least know where I'll be staying for six months of next year which is pretty good start.

So with all of that I actually won't be studying English or writing okay well at least not as a major but as a minor. Which yay once I get past this writers block I'll be really glad about all this writing I'll have to do while down there, then depressed when it starts and then more depressed when I get writers block on an assignment. Though my major which I already have a bit of a head start on is Psychology. So I haven't been on here too often in the past two months I think mostly getting on here when I realize whoa I haven't been on tumblr in awhile and this is why. On top of getting certain personal matters in order, I've been visiting family a lot and trying to hang out with certain people before I leave I guess I'm upset yet happy and a bit nervous about all this change that happened in the span of one phone call from my sister.

I don't have any friends down there can't bring my pet but they have a pool like I know that's a very superficial thing to say but I haven't swam in a good couple years and I'm like fishing for a bright side here so it has it ups and it downs. I'm gonna be miles away from everything I know in a completely new place it's pretty awkward I don't find myself to be a go getter or the type of person to go on some high action adventure. I'm more the chill type of go with the flow person who writes about it I know that sounds self depreciating in a way but I appreciate what I have now regardless of how little or how much that may be in the eyes of others. I mean it's like okay I can't see my friends as often as I could understandable stuff happens I wasn't seeing them that much anyway I can still call them. Oh and you can't bring your cat oh ho wait hold on what I have literally had this cat for five years I've known this cat longer than half my friends I have one friend I've known longer than this cat and to be fair I've known that person for nine years and I'll still know her next year so I can just round that up to ten now.

This cat sleeps next to me and the last thing I do in the day is pet her and write I just imagine myself getting in bed in college and it's like oh yeah you're not here cool and then I'll probably cry for a couple minutes and I'm not ashamed to say that. Some people say hey when people fail you at least you still have animals and it's like no I don't have that either so what do I have an infinite amount sadness and time to build a bridge and get over it. This got super depressing really quick sorry moving on. I mean it's just a change I'll just have to get used to. Doesn't mean I won't be sad but things are always changing and sure sometimes it will get you down but the lower you go the higher you'll be able to reach.

Even though it'll probably take you a long time to get back to the place you once were you'll learn a lot on your journey back there and then you can use what you learned to go further and make your life better than it was before. Then you'll wake up one morning and think wow I made it and I couldn't be happier and those are the great days. Those are the days I like to believe we're all striving to get to regardless of how hard it gets there's always happiness in the dark unfathomable world that is always waiting for us to get there and that's why we'll always have tomorrow to look forward to. No matter how much today may suck.

[the-quiet-painter-blog]

OOC: Sorry I haven't posted lately but I've been swamped with work lately. Plus I'm not staying up till 3 in the morning anymore cause of my sleeping pills. Point is I'll post soon I promise. I'm sorry for the delay.