Jul 19
#these were from a few dayss aggggggoooooo.....#plush stranger.....#i cant stop wishing me and my f/os were plushes and in love and cuddling all of the time and beigj happy#i have been unironically trying to concept this but it seems a bit expensive and complicated but i will figure it out one day cause i NEED#this.....#i also have been slowly working on a personal fic pertaining to these drawings... idk if i will ever share it cause im not really the best#writer and its super indulgent and weird and aaaaaa#Multiple Layers Of Ob.jectum.....#i posted these after going through my old selfship blog because recently my brother informed me my mom did infact find that blog and even#though there is embarassing stuff on there in the context of like. your family reading about intimate things but i didnt choose for that to#happen and no one forced her to go searching/looking for it so oh well#im not gonna be ashamed of what i care about. even though its been a long time since ive even spoke to her and i know i never will again#i refuse to allow her to continue to judge and dictate what makes me happy#i went through some very painful periods of my life voiding myself from what i care about because it wasnt godly or she didnt understand it#i dont know if i ever will completely elaborate on what the deal was#but part of this feeling in me is related with stranger.#i know i have other issues within her source material that is one-sided and mental related but even with that i am certain none of that#would have happened i would have continued being as happy as i was about her and things related to it all those years ago if i just never#listened. granted theres more to it but that was what felt like the starting point.#severing that connection i had did more harm to me and my mental health then any of the contents of both games and the “”“satan.ic” imagery#im very thankful to be where i am right now in this moment even if things are hard#i love my favorite fictional characters and they have always provided warmth to me in times of great need and i should always be#unapologetic about it. sorry this got a little personal at the end i just have been processing things.#personal#vent ish?