how Pluto in Aquarius has changed my life *so far*
(for reference I'm a Sagittarius rising that falls in the late degrees so I resonate more with Capricorn rising folk + horoscopes. I will touch basis on how it has affected my values + self esteem.)
Pluto moved into Aquarius back in March 30th, 2023 + so much has happened in just a little over a year so let's review. Aquarius falls in my 2H so themes of money, possessions, & values have become a very common theme at the forefront of my life. Aquarius also rules technology & I have purchased some gadgets over the last couple of months but I'll have to make a separate post for that. Here's what's occurred so far:
1 month before Pluto moved in Aquarius I was dating my ex of 3+ years, we were going through a confusing later turned messy break up. He broke up with me out of the blue 2 months prior but threatened me that I had better not be seeing, dating, or talking to any other guys......lol ok? I was used to dealing with his possessive ways so I thought he was just having one of *those* moments (causes drama in our relationship because he was having an insecurity/crash out moment). During that time we were still seeing each other, texting, etc.. you know the usual stuff we did when we were together. Fast forward to Valentine's Day he takes me out to dinner, buys me flowers, & a gift but had let me know that "this doesn't mean were getting back together" ??? This was such a confusing time because he was being super cold + avoidant yet super possessive. I wasn't appreciating the fact that he was playing mind games, giving me mixed signals, & what seemed like only wanting me on his terms. 3 days later I found him cheating on me in a parking lot LOL (we were still sharing our locations, thanks technology). I had also found more evidence of him TRYING to cheat on me with other girls that did NOT care to give him the time of day....embarrassing asf. (logged into his IG because he told me he had the same password for everything) I was completely heartbroken, devasted, & depressed. I felt so humiliated that I wasted my time on some scumbag that did not care about my love or feelings, I realized how I was practically sleeping with an opp. (he'd spend the night at my house every day when we were together...because he wanted to lol)
During this time I also had one of my best friends from the past come back, funny enough she was an Aquarius! She had came at what seemed like the perfect time. I was constantly asking & praying to God to please bring me a friend, I felt so alone & fearful during this time. (i had no friends when I was with him...because he'd get jealous) She helped me find my zest for life again. I was spending a lot of time with her. We'd get off work & have lunch together at her home, we'd walk her dog, we'd facetime 24/7. If she never reappeared I know I wouldn't be here today, I was really struggling mentally with how easy it was for someone that was so possessive of me to all of a sudden take a step back & leave me all by myself. She really was one of the very few handful of support systems I had at the time. Unfortunately her & I didn't last as friends for long, she didn't share the same values as I did when it came to friendships so I also had to leave her in the past a few months later. (long story short it involved her befriending another girl that has moved sneaky & grimey behind my back so this made me pull away & not wanna trust her) During the first few months I was friends with her I was still dealing with my shitty ex, i know i know pls don't come for me LOL. After the cheating scandal I had put him on a 3 month probation, I said to myself that these next 3 months were gonna dictate how I'd wanna move forward with him. I was in a weird stage where I was disgusted by his ways but still had love + care for him. My mom had already knew about the betrayal at that point so he not only lost my trust but he lost hers too. There was a brief period where him & I attended couples therapy for like a month LMFAAOOOOO (no cause I shoulda been outside instead tf was I doing) He didn't seem to care that much i guess since he continued to still act childish & in return it just made me drained, anxious & mute. I was put in a position where I had to figure out if I was willing to forgive cheating or stick by my values. I realized my loyalty wasn't negotiable at this point anymore; he disrespected me, he was not being gentle or patient with me during my depressed period; & told me "I'm tired of hearing about your feelings get over it." I was tired of the push & pull dynamic with him. I had to relearn how to live life independently & rework my self-esteem from the ground up. The situation with him alone last almost 6 months of the year & I just wanted a fresh start.
Fast forward to now I have not spoken to him nor do I plan to. I don't see myself befriending someone that brought me to my absolute lowest point while treating me like those years we spent together meant nothing to him lol. I attend weekly therapy sessions trying to work through my anxiety & trust issues. The situation has definitely left me traumatized & made it extremely difficult for me to trust new people; coworkers, friends, & especially men. I haven't seriously dated anyone since only because I hope to find a mature man that has his priorities in check & is wanting a long term relationship. I want something stable, peaceful, & fulfilling. (manifest for me pls). I know this was a bit of a long read but are any late degree Sag risings or Capricorn risings that went through or are going through the same thing? How has this transit affected you? Let me know & let's get a convo going!! I'd love to hear your guys experience :)
