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thejamesberry:
To a certain extent? I did listen Rachel, but saying sorry twice would be a little silly. Saying it once should be enough especially when I mean it. And you did receive one of them, I said I was sorry. It’s right there in black and white. I didn’t accuse you of anything Rachel, I didn’t say I think the worst about you. I think the worst because the worst normally happens to me.
Fine, your claim doesn’t have to be what I wanted, you did it as you wanted and it doesn’t concern me. I get that okay, all I was saying that it would have been nice to be there. But it was your choice, it still doesn’t change what I think.
Other then that, I honestly don’t know what you want from me. I’ve tried saying sorry but you haven’t accepted that. And I just don’t know what else to do. This seems to be a recurring thing between us and I’m tired of it. I’m sorry, truly, about everything and if that’s not enough, well I don’t know what else I can do. If you have any ideas, let me know.
The fact that you’re now choosing to be purposefully obtuse, James. To once again reiterate and spell it out in terms you maybe won’t ignore this time, I asked for two specific apologies. Instead, all you’ve offered have been a generic sorry attached to excuses.
One of which happens to be you stating that you “...think the worst because the worst normally happens to me,” (James Berry, Dalton Institute, April 8, 2015). You thinking the worse was happening to you in relation to my Claim is again you making my Claiming ceremony and my Claim about you. And I think by now we’ve established it’s not.
Because it was my choice and it is my Claim, James. And while you’re free to not change the way you think about this entire mess you’ve made, the point I’m endlessly making that you keep failing to comprehend is that what you think and especially how and when you presented those thoughts is shitty.
And no, James. You didn’t just say, ‘it would have been nice to be there’. You said, “...did you ever think how I would feel...when we weren’t invited to it [my Claiming]. Because I’ll tell you now it feels really crappy” (James Berry, Dalton Institute, April 6, 2015). Because if you had approached me in the idyllic manner you’re retroactively suggesting you did, this entire conversation would not be occurring as such.
But yet, here we are, waiting for you to get your head out of your ass, and properly apologize as you have been asked to do.