( This would have fit better if I’d sent this before you switched accounts, but oh well. )
Gotta say, I really like Beck—he’s basically a more destructive / toxic take on Don Quixote. Trying to force his delusions onto someone who clearly regrets indulging him to begin with.
(Nah, don’t worry about it! I’m kinda half-back to using @sincerely-sofie as my main blog again anyhow hehe)
Beck is a delightful character to write, especially because Eve didn’t just indulge in his delusions by entertaining his crush on her— she was indulging her own. She wanted to love him at first, and then to get him to understand and love her as she truly is later on, but you can’t make someone better. For better and for worse, they can only do that themself. She fell for the trap of trying to fix him. Though she snaps out of it eventually! This snippet is from a document titled “Beck’s Grand Finale”, after all :>
Her gaze couldn't maintain the same cold as she hoped to, but she continued. "I loved you. Truly. As much as I could ever love another, I thought I loved you. But perhaps I'd seen another's face in place of yours. You have your Lady, Beck, and I have my Beloved— a haughty, condescending fool whom I thought I could one day convince to love me as I really was. I thought I could soften him, that I could have a friend akin to what I found in Suffering, someone whom I could speak to in a language beyond my own tears. I must thank you, Beck, for killing that man in my mind, so that I could see you for who you truly are. May I do the same for you now?”
Many thanks for the kind words!!
