Sorry if I don’t post as much lately (and these apply to my other side blogs)
I’m trying to keep up doing my music as well as do my outside work and take care of my body.
Maybe it’s because of the seasonal change, but lately I’m coming back to I used to be two years ago, which is very frightening, because my life spiraled out of control to the point where I was going anymore.
I tried to be optimistic which got me out of my grey state. I created this blog for that purpose so that I and other people have a comfort and happy zone.
Even if I pretend that everything is alright, little things frustrate me which make me want to break down (but I don’t, I keep it in because it’s awkward when you’re constantly surrounded by people). I’m finding it hard to tell the difference of the past and the present because to me it’s just a cycle.
I’ve been treated like crap every day in my life, but I can’t be like the people who treated me like that. I shouldn’t make other people feel sad because I’m sad.
I also don’t have a lot of money, and I’m paying for something right now. I don’t have a lot of food and I can’t buy money for food, so I can’t eat, which is kind of dangerous because I do a sport everyday that requires lots of energy. I don’t like asking for money cause I don’t want to be selfish ;v;
Anyways, I might delete this later, but until then, have a nice week, I bet next week will be better! I love you guys ;v;
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