Ghost Hunter!Marauders x New Recruit Reader (pt.5)
You ran from the boys, from the truth, from the fire that was slowly building inside you. But the past has a way of catching up, dragging you back to where it all began. Back to Grimmauld Place. Back to the night everything burned. And this time, there’s no one left to blame but the one who struck the match.
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pt.1, pt.2, pt.3, pt.4, pt.5, pt.6
The air inside the abandoned archives room was thick with dust and stale cold, the faint hum of old ventilation mingling with the distant drip of water somewhere beyond the cracked walls. She crouched low, fingers trembling as they traced the edge of a worn manila folder half-buried beneath a crumbling pile of discarded papers. Her breath caught when the top of the file, faded and brittle, bore her name– unmistakable, painfully real. On the cover:
Classified: Project Anchor – Subject 7
Her name was scribbled underneath. A faint line slashed through it.
Heart hammering, she peeled back the folder’s yellowed cover, revealing a black-and-white photograph pressed carefully between the pages.
The photograph slipped free. A younger version of herself, pale and bruised, staring dead-eyed into the camera. Behind her, a looming manor– its shuttered windows and scorched brick left a residue in her bones. The image pulsed with some strange gravity, like it remembered her better than she remembered herself.
The first page was clinical. Stark:
Name: Subject 7.
Memory Anchor Effectiveness: Declining.
Conditioning: Inconsistent.
Subject exhibiting signs of Rejection.
Then the names– each one like a strike of lightning in her skull.
James.P– Emotional Conditioning & Obedience Anchor
Sirius.B– External Threat Simulation & Attachment Control
Remus.L– Cognitive Monitoring & Emotional Decompression
Peter.P– Data Logging & Internal Feedback Analysis
Each name had a weight, a role. A betrayal.
Peter’s name was circled in angry red ink.
Your eyes scan the next page, and your breath catches.
Subject maintains stability only if unaware.
Your name is scrawled beneath it, listed under Monitored– Status: Unstable. The handwriting isn’t neat. It’s jagged, hurried. You recognize it– it’s Sirius’.
You blink, the paper blurring. You try to focus, but everything feels too sharp and too hazy all at once.
A sudden rush– a broken memory, or maybe a dream– flashes behind your eyes.
You’re screaming.
Your arms are tied down, and the air is thick and heavy.
A voice shouts, angry, desperate:
“She’s rejecting the reset!”
You try to recall more, but it slips away like smoke.
The file hints at an event. A fire.
You see flames licking at a window.
Your hands press against cold glass.
Locked inside.
Your heart stutters.
Your family– where are they? Not dead, you’re sure. But gone. Or erased. Or maybe running.
A woman’s voice whispers your name in your mind, soft and distant.
Then silence.
You try to picture your mother’s face–
But all you see is static.
For the hundredth time again, you wonder why.
Why can’t you remember your own family? Your own life?
Why have you never gotten the answers all these years?
Your eyes fall to the back of the page.
Faint, nearly erased, a note is scribbled:
“You were never supposed to remember. But you did. And now everything burns.” –P.P.
Her knees nearly buckled. The file felt heavier now, as if soaked with blood or something worse.
Another page, smudged with ink and fingerprints. Scribbled margins:
“She’s waking up too fast. Suppress again.”
“Memory loop, instability increasing.”
“Subject believes control is organic. Proceed.”
“Risk of collapse if anchor resets fail.”
Surveillance photographs fell out like ghosts. James reading to her in a hospital cot. Sirius gripping her wrist, fury on his face. Remus kneeling beside her, his expression soft, calculated.
But no Peter. Who was Peter?
Something inside her cracked.
Her eyes landed again on one line, bold and underlined in heavy black:
Subject maintains stability only if unaware.
Unaware. Suppressed. Controlled.
The handlers– James, Sirius, Remus, Peter– they weren’t just friends. They were assigned. Constructed. Scripted into her life like actors in a carefully curated lie.
A sharp knock echoed in her chest- panic. Her skin felt too tight. Her breath, too shallow. The study spun around her like a sinking ship. The house was no longer a home. It was a lab. A cage.
She backed out, clutching the file like a blade, every creak of the floorboards under her bare feet now a gunshot.
She had to run.
They would know she’d found it. They’d feel it in her silence, her eyes, her absence. They were watching. They always had been.
And something told her: they wouldn't let her go easily. Because these boys know about a past she does not and that's dangerous.
...
Your footsteps echo down the hall like they belong to someone else.
The folder burns against your side, hot under the roll of paper towels and the cleaning rag– like it’s aware, like it knows you weren’t supposed to touch it. You walk stiffly. Not too fast. Not too careful. Just enough to look normal. Just enough to pretend you aren’t unraveling.
Laughter spills from the living room– then stops.
Too sudden. Too clean.
Your throat tightens.
You round the corner. They’re there– James, Sirius, Remus– spread out across the battered furniture like nothing’s wrong. The television glows a dull blue, painting flickers across their faces. But the moment they see you–
Silence.
James leans forward slowly, forearms on his knees, his expression unreadable.
“You alright?” he asks.
Casual. Concerned.
Too casual.
You nod stiffly, the folder like a brick under your arm. You say nothing.
His eyes linger. Too long. There's something behind them– calculation? Confusion? A code no one ever taught you to crack?
“You’re pale,” Sirius mutters from the arm of the couch. He doesn’t look up. But there’s a sharpness in his tone now. Measured. Tense. Like he’s listening more than speaking.
“I’m fine,” you say, your voice too small, too rehearsed. You edge toward the stairs.
Remus smiles– soft, careful. Like he’s trying to be kind. But his eyes are locked on you, still and watchful.
“You sure?” he asks. “You’ve barely eaten. Long day right, with all the cleaning?”
His voice used to soothe you. Now it crawls over your skin.
“I just need to lie down,” you mumble.
You move past James. His knee almost brushes yours. The scent of his cologne, familiar, warm, safe– hits you like a memory. Or a lie.
“Sweetheart?” Sirius calls behind you. You pause mid-step.
His voice is flat. Too flat.
“You didn’t go poking around in the storage room, did you?”
Your heart stumbles.
You don’t turn around. “No.”
“Good, cause it's so dusty. Wouldn't want you catching something.”
You keep walking. Force yourself to.
You don’t see the look James gives Sirius. Don’t see Remus slowly setting his mug down with barely a clink.
But you hear Remus. Low. Measured. Almost like a sigh.
“She’s waking up.”
The stairs groan beneath you like they’re protesting. You grip the banister. The folder is still tucked tight beneath your arm, a lifeline– or a loaded gun.
You don’t breathe again until your door clicks shut behind you. Locked.
Your pulse drums in your ears. Your thoughts spiral.
Handlers.
The word slithers through your mind, heavy with implication. Like you’re not a person, but a subject. An asset. A controlled variable in an experiment dressed up as a life.
Why had they kept you here?
Why did you feel like a stranger inside your own skin?
Your mind feels like shattered glass– no reflection, only fragments.
Your eyes flick to the file again. Coordinates.
A place.
Not here. Maybe hope. Maybe a trap. But not here.
You swallow hard. The weight of the choice presses into your spine.
If you stay, you’re their captive– smothered in soft lies, studied behind friendly eyes.
If you run, you’re alone. Blind. Memoryless. Untethered.
The room feels colder now. Shadows stretch in the corners like they’re listening. Watching.
And somewhere, beneath the shock and fear, a sharp ache unfurls.
Alone.
The line of coordinates on the file is where you have to go to get answers.
You move without thinking.
Quiet hands. Quick decisions.
You begin to pack.
Avoid floorboards that creak.
Pull on your hoodie and slip out the window.
The yard is still. Moonlight spills across the ground. You move in the shadows.
And then–
Motion-activated Floodlights.
A harsh, electric glare slices through the dark. She freezes like prey.
A voice floats from the porch– calm. Too calm.
“It’s late. Where are you going?”
Sirius.
His voice isn't angry. It's controlled. Off. Like he's trying not to startle her.
“Dove? Did you read the file?”
Remus.
That word– Dove– slams into her like a bullet.
Her breath jerks. Her pulse stutters.
A memory shatters through her, sudden and violent:
Straps on her wrists. White walls. A woman screaming– no– herself.
“Let me go! Let me go!” A warm hand on her cheek.
“She’s rejecting the reset! Dove, you're fine, okay? Hold on, dovey–” Panic. Needles. Fire. Flatline.
Then nothing.
She gasps.
Staggers back into the now.
Footsteps are coming.
Lie? Pretend? Reason?
No.
Run.
She bolts.
Feet pounding across the grass. Cold air slicing through her lungs. The night splits open behind her with shouts.
“Stop!” Sirius’s voice– raw, panicked.
“Just listen!”
“Don’t run from us!” James now, frantic, desperate.
But she doesn’t stop.
She can’t.
Because now, maybe her life depends on it.
“There!” James yells. “She’s heading for the woods!”
They’re running. No hesitation. No plan. Just instinct.
“Split off. Remus, west trail!” Sirius barks. “We can’t lose her again!”
Remus vanishes into the dark, lungs burning, heart pounding like a war drum. Sirius is already vaulting the railing. James follows close behind.
Leaves slash their faces. Branches grab at their jackets. None of them stop.
“She’s scared out of her mind,” James gasps. “Why is she scared of us?”
“We should’ve told her,” Sirius shouts back “We should’ve told her everything.”
Their feet slam against the forest floor, adrenaline drowning out thought.
They don’t even know what they’ll say if they catch her.
They just have to catch her.
Because if they lose her now, they might never get her back.
But they will.
She can only be safe– only be happy– with them.
Outside, she disappears into the trees.
But they’re right behind her.
She knows she’s not alone in the dark.
The forest tears at her.
Branches claw her face. Her arms sting. Her hoodie is soaked with cold sweat and rain.
Mud sucks at her shoes. Her legs scream with every step.
But she doesn’t stop.
Behind her- shouts. Then silence.
That was worse.
Because if they weren’t yelling anymore, it meant they were thinking.
Planning.
She had to get somewhere.
Somewhere they couldn’t reach her.
She ducked deeper into the woods, heart a thunder in her mouth. Her thoughts weren’t thoughts anymore. Just fragments.
Subject 7. Handlers. Obedience Anchor. Emotional Conditioning.
Her stomach flipped.
Every second she ran, those words chased her harder than the boys did.
The forest thinned.
Gravel and fencing appeared ahead. She didn’t hesitate.
She climbed.
Barbed wire tore into her palm. She didn’t feel it. Her bandaged hand from earlier was unravelling.
Not until she landed hard on the other side– her knee buckling beneath her.
She whimpered. Bit down on it.
Had to move.
They know where you’ll go, a voice whispered inside her. They always know.
She didn’t trust anything anymore.
City lights smeared across her vision. Every corner felt like it had eyes.
Every time she thought she’d lost them, something flickered-
A movement.
A shadow.
The shine of leather.
The echo of boots on pavement.
Sirius was always faster. A shadow on her heels.
But it was Remus’s voice she heard most– lodged somewhere in her ribs.
“You’re safe with us, Dove. I promise.”
Lies.
Now it tasted bitter.
How had she let herself lean on him?
How had she let James in– his warmth, his stupid, easy grin, like a sun made to orbit?
All of it- lies.
Emotional conditioning. Obedience anchor.
They didn’t love her.
They were assigned to her.
She slipped through back alleys, stole a coat off a laundromat line. Her hoodie was soaked through. Her hand throbbed, slick with blood through the bandage Remus had so carefully wrapped around her just this morning.
She slipped once– skidded across a wet curb. Skinned her elbow.
No time to cry.
No one was coming to save her.
And still, behind her, the footsteps never really stopped.
They just got quieter.
Smarter.
They knew how to stalk.
Attachment Control. Threat Simulation. Decompression.
This wasn’t their first time.
...
She had found the coordinates in the file.
Scrawled in the corner of a classified incident report, barely legible beneath redacted lines and water stains: “Location: GP-12 | Archive Access Pending.” There was no name. No explanation. But something in her gut twisted when she read it. As if her bones remembered what her mind had long buried.
So she followed it. Miles on foot. No sleep. Just instinct.
The heavy iron gates groaned as they opened, revealing what looked like the husk of a mansion– cold, sterile, newly rebuilt into something it was never meant to be. This wasn’t a home. It was a laboratory dressed in architecture. As she stepped inside, the air turned clinical. The scent of antiseptic stung her nose. Every footstep echoed too loudly in the dark halls. Shadows gathered in sharp corners, watching.
She froze near the threshold, her eyes wide and unfocused, as murmurs rippled through the small group gathered in the vast entryway. Faces she didn’t know– stoic, unreadable, and tinged with disbelief– turned toward her. One whispered, “Is that... her? Subject 7? But she was– she was gone.” Another shook their head, unable to hide a mixture of shock and wariness. The weight of her name, spoken so quietly yet so urgently, bounced off the cold walls like a ghost– someone declared dead years ago, suddenly returned from the ashes of a past too painful to confront.
Her own mind spun, fragmented images flickering like a broken film reel: flickers of a house she couldn’t place, the roar of flames swallowing everything she once called home, and the haunting echo of a voice whispering accusations she wasn’t ready to face. Questions clawed at the edges of her memory– what had happened to her? Why did her feet bring her here? Why was everything she thought she knew unraveling so quickly? These people seemed to know her.
The oppressive stillness settled over her as a figure stepped forward amidst the masses all gathered around at a distance from her– calm, clinical, the embodiment of cold authority. The words began softly, deceptively gentle, but each syllable was a razor edged in intent: “You must understand, what happened years ago was tragic. There was a fire– right here– it was not by accident. It was you. You set it all ablaze. This was your home, do you remember?” The statement hung in the air, heavy and absolute, designed to crush any resistance before it could take root.
Her eyes flared with disbelief, a sickening knot tightening in her stomach. No, it couldn’t be true. The very idea was unbearable, a monstrous weight forced upon her by hands she no longer trusted. Yet the faces watching her, expectant and unyielding, offered no comfort, only the cold certainty of her supposed guilt.
The walls seemed to close in tighter, the fluorescent lights above flickering like the last breaths of hope. The sterile scent invaded her senses, the silence broken only by the clipped, rehearsed words meant to erode her from within. Every lie planted was a seed of doubt, every accusation a chain tightening around her will.
Her thoughts spiraled as the machinery of control began its relentless work, weaving falsehoods into the fragile threads of her shattered identity. Grimmauld Place was no sanctuary– it was a prison, and here, beneath the weight of shadows and whispered betrayals, her freedom was being methodically stripped away, piece by agonizing piece.
The moment the words left their lips, she crumpled, as if the very ground beneath her fractured and gave way. “You set the fire. You killed your family.” The accusation crashed into her like a tidal wave, relentless and unforgiving. Her breath hitched, heart pounding in her ears, a scream caught in the depths of her throat. Her knees buckled, and she sank to the cold, unforgiving floor, tears streaming down her face, hot and desperate. Her hands clawed at the walls, at the air, anywhere– anything– to hold onto something real. “No, no, please–” she sobbed, voice cracking, “Tell me the truth! Please, I need to know. I didn’t– I couldn’t have! I remember nothing!”
But they showed her the footage. Grainy. Warped. Her, standing in a hallway as flames devoured the walls. Her own voice shouting “Run!” over the roar of fire. Faces– familiar yet lost from her mind– twisting in pain, disappearing into smoke.
Panic spiraled into raw terror. Her breath hitched and then broke, ragged sobs ripping from her chest as the impossible truth seeped in– she had done what? They say she had set the fire. She had destroyed everything. But it couldn't be. If she was from here, why doesn't she remember any of it? But then her mind has been blank for years. The knowledge crushed her like a hammer blow, shattering what remained of her fragile sense of self. The room spun, walls closing in, suffocating, and she clawed at the door, frantic. “No! Let me out! Please, I’m not dangerous! You’re lying– this isn’t me! Why do I not remember anything then?” Her screams echoed, desperate and raw, bouncing off sterile white walls that seemed to press closer, colder with every second.
Suddenly, the harsh clang of metal doors locking reverberated through the room, the lights flickering violently overhead, plunging her into a strobe-lit nightmare. Then a voice– cold, mechanical, and unyielding– filled the room from hidden speakers, detached and final: “Subject 7: Memory destabilization detected. Initiating lockdown.”
Her screams turned frantic, the last flickers of resistance burning fiercely as the world tilted and blurred. Strong hands grabbed her, cold and unrelenting, pressing a needle into her neck before she could resist. Her limbs went heavy, a creeping numbness swallowing her senses as sedation took hold.
When her eyes fluttered open again, she was alone. Cold white walls stretched endlessly in every direction, harsh lights glaring down like sterile suns. The silence was a crushing weight. Somewhere far off, someone screamed– and then it stopped, like a switch had been flipped.
She curled into herself on the cold floor, the taste of fear thick on her tongue. The system had won– for now. And in this sterile tomb, she was nothing but a prisoner of her own mind, haunted by a monstrous truth she barely understood and a past that refused to let her go. Even if she knew nothing of it.
...
They began with silence.
No loud interrogations, no restraints– at least not at first. Just a white room, windowless and humming with fluorescent lights, where time dissolved and the sterile air never shifted. She was left alone for hours. Maybe days. The lights never dimmed. The walls were too smooth, too clean, as if nothing human had ever happened here. Every second stretched long and strange, until her thoughts curled in on themselves.
Then the voice began.
Soft at first. Gentle. Feminine. Maternal. “You’re safe now,” it told her, from somewhere above or within the walls. “We’re here to help you remember the truth.”
She flinched the first time it spoke, recoiled the next. But eventually, after long bouts of silence where she would press her hands to her ears just to hear something– anything– she began to listen.
“You were always different. Special. Important. That’s why they chose you.”
Images followed. Projected onto the white wall opposite her bed: grainy footage, photographs, documents stamped with redacted ink and barcodes. And always, the fire. Its sick orange glow spilled across every surface, flickering in her peripheral vision like it was still alive. She tried not to watch, but they kept showing it.
“You lit the match, sweetheart,” the voice cooed. “Don’t you remember? You always wanted to feel in control. They told you it would make everything better.”
Sometimes, when she cried, the room would soften– the lights dimmed to a warmer hue, and the voice would hush, like a lullaby. “You didn’t know what you were doing. They made you believe it was the right thing. But it was your hand. Your fire.”
She screamed at first, begging them to stop. Pounding her fists against the wall until her knuckles cracked. But every outburst was met with silence, and then another session. More footage. More photographs. A name whispered over and over: Subject 7. Arson-Class Outlier. Emotional Liability. It became harder to hold onto the edges of her memories– were the boys protecting her? Or using her? Had she run away from danger… or straight into it?
Then they gave her a mirror.
She hadn't seen her reflection in so long. She barely recognized the girl staring back at her: hollow-eyed, sleepless, wearing clothes too white, skin too pale. There were burn scars she didn’t remember. On her hands. Her wrist. Her shoulder.
“What did you do?” the voice asked softly.
She stared at her reflection, and for a moment– just a breath– she believed it.
Maybe she had done it.
The voice began to change then– less gentle, more clinical. “You’re dangerous, Subject 7. You’re unstable without regulation. This is why the program existed. To keep you from hurting others.”
More footage. Her handlers– James, Sirius, Remus– standing beside her in blurred images. She wasn’t smiling. They were. A report displayed: “Obedience Anchor breach: Subject exhibited resistance. Required secondary simulation exposure.”
Her head pounded. Her eyes burned. “No,” she whispered to the empty room. “No, this isn’t right. I didn’t– ”
But another file opened on the screen. A recording. Her own voice– cracked, deranged, sobbing: “If I can’t be free, I’ll burn it all. I swear I will.”
She collapsed then. On the floor. Heaving. Her screams shredded her throat as she begged for someone to tell her what was real. For someone to tell her it wasn’t true. That she wasn’t a monster.
The lights went out.
And from the dark, the voice whispered: “This is who you are. This is what you’ve done.”
That night, they gave her a pill.
She didn’t fight it.
...
She awoke again to a thick silence. The world came back in pieces–white ceiling, blinking red light in the corner, a faint antiseptic sting in her nose. Her limbs were leaden, her tongue dry. When she tried to move, her arms obeyed sluggishly, dulled by whatever they'd pumped into her. A heavy blanket covered her legs, but it didn’t bring warmth– only the sensation of being pinned in place, like a patient, like a prisoner.
The room looked like a bedroom. A nice bedroom, even. Pale blue walls, soft sheets, a familiar rug near the bed– one she couldn’t place, but her fingers twitched when they saw it, like muscle memory tugging at something buried. A bookshelf stood in the corner, filled with titles she almost recognized. Everything was soft, sterile, warm-toned, but the warmth was artificial, curated. She could feel it– the hollowness beneath the details. Like a stage set meant to look like home but missing the soul of it.
A soft chime sounded.
“Subject 7 has regained consciousness,” a voice announced overhead, not cruel but not human either. Calm. Pacing. Detached. “Welcome back. You’ve been through a trauma event. Please remain still. Your recovery is being monitored.”
She tried to sit up. Her vision blurred at the edges, heart pounding as the words Subject 7 sank in like teeth.
“Where am I?” she croaked. Her voice felt foreign.
“You are safe,” said the voice. “You have been found, after years of destruction and disappearance. It’s time to heal.”
Heal.
A flicker of memory jolted through her– fire licking at her skin, the weight of hands gripping her shoulders, someone screaming her name– Dove, not her real name, not anymore– and then the sound of her own voice cracking open as the truth sank its claws into her.
She gripped the blanket tighter. Her body had moved through those memories like a ghost, but now they clung to her skin. No one was coming for her. She was the danger. That’s what they had told her. And that’s what she feared was true.
The door hissed.
And he stepped inside.
He introduced himself as Peter. Peter Pettigrew. From the file. One of her handlers.
Soft sweater, tired eyes. Slouched shoulders like he carried something heavy and long-carried. His presence didn’t scrape or jar. He didn’t smile. Didn’t flinch at her panic. He simply sat in the armchair beside the bed like he’d always been meant to be there, as natural as breath.
“I– I don’t…” she started, voice breaking.
“You don’t have to speak,” Peter said gently. “Not yet.”
He sounded kind. That was the worst part.
The others– they'd always filled the room with gravity. James with certainty, Sirius with fire, Remus with mournful calm. But Peter was quiet. Gentle in a way that didn’t demand trust– it invited it. He didn't seem like he was her handler.
“You’re not crazy,” he murmured, watching her hands twist the blanket like a lifeline. “You’re not broken. And you didn’t deserve any of it.”
She blinked at him, confusion fogging everything. “They said I… I killed them. My– my family. They said I set the fire.”
Peter’s throat moved in a slow swallow. “I know.”
A beat.
“They lied to you, dove.”
The nickname shouldn’t have felt safe, but coming from him, it didn’t sting. It shuddered something deep inside her.
“They programmed you,” he whispered. “Conditioned you. Broke you down and built you up again and again until you only fit their shape.”
Her mouth parted, but no sound came.
“They made you love them,” Peter continued, words low and trembling with some barely-contained grief. “Made you need them. And when it didn’t work the way they wanted– when your mind started slipping through the cracks– they made you the villain. Framed you for everything.”
Each word dropped like lead.
“You’re not a monster,” he said. “They are.”
Tears filled her eyes before she could stop them. She didn’t even know who “they” were anymore. The boys? The government? Herself?
Peter didn’t move closer. He didn’t ask her to believe him. He just was there, watching with eyes like an open wound.
“I know you want to run,” he said softly. “But you’ve been running a long time. And I’m the only one who doesn’t want to use you. Just… let me help you sort the truth from the noise.”
And in that moment, with her body aching and her mind full of shadows, Peter didn’t look like a threat.
He looked like a lifeline. A quiet one. A soft one.
...
She’s kept in Grimmauld Place for days. Weeks, maybe. Time drips through her fingers like the IV fluid they pump into her at night, a silent sedative humming through her bloodstream. They don’t call it prison. They call it “sanctuary.” “Rest.” “Rehabilitation.” The words are soft and sterile, like the sheets on her bed. Like the voices that echo from the intercoms in the ceilings. Like the whitewashed walls that seem to breathe when the lights dim.
But she doesn’t trust them. She doesn’t trust the flickering cameras, or the guards in medical whites, or the woman with red lipstick who always smiles too long when she says, “Tell me again about the fire.”
She trusts Peter.
At first, it’s just because he’s quiet. The only one who doesn’t ask. Doesn’t prod. Doesn’t shove a clipboard between her ribs and say, Tell us again how it felt when your house burned. The others– therapists, agents, doctors– leave a film of sickly dread behind them when they exit the room. Peter leaves behind warm tea. Tissues already folded. Gentle eyes like a dog that’s been kicked too many times to bark.
She doesn’t feel anything for him. Not yet. She's still too wary.
That’s the thing.
She doesn't love him– not the way she adored Sirius, with his razor-blade grin and wildfire gaze. Not the way Remus made her ache with his haunted hands and ancient eyes. Not the way James smiled like summer and made her feel like the whole world couldn’t crush them. He is just another one of her handlers.
But Peter… Peter doesn’t ask to be loved.
He just stays.
When she screams, he’s already there, crouched by her bedside with a blanket. When she throws things, when she cries and begs for the truth, he never flinches. He watches her fall apart like he’s seen it before. Like he’s lived it.
And in the beginning, she’s skeptical.
Peter Pettigrew was always background noise– sweet and soft-spoken, but forgettable beside the others.
But now, when the world is shattering like stained glass and nothing feels real, it’s Peter who sits with her through the sharp edges.
“Do you want to know the truth?” he asks her one night, voice low as the hum of the lights. “Really know?”
She nods. She’s so tired of not knowing.
He opens a box.
Inside: a stack of yellowed letters, photographs bent at the corners, and one cassette tape. The smell of old ink and lies rises into the room.
He places one letter in her lap.
“She’ll do anything for them. Sirius knows that. It’s why they chose her.”
Peter doesn’t speak. He just watches her. Waiting.
Another letter. More writing. More cracks in the mirror she’d built of her life.
“Remus says the ritual will only work if she believes it’s her choice. James is getting impatient. I think he’ll do something drastic soon.”
Her fingers tremble.
“This isn’t real,” she whispers.
“I thought the same thing,” Peter says softly.
And the tape– God, the tape.
She plays it, knuckles white.
Her voice. But warped. Screaming. Crying. Laughing in a way that makes her sick.
And their voices– James, Sirius, Remus– cold and clinical.
“She’s compliant now. Burn it tonight.”
“We’ll reset her again after.”
“She is never meant to remember.”
She vomits in the corner of the room. Peter doesn’t touch her. He holds the bucket. Rubs her back. Doesn’t say I told you so. Doesn’t even look triumphant.
He just looks sad.
“They built you,” he says gently. “And they broke you. Over and over again.”
She curls up on the floor. Shaking.
Peter kneels beside her. His sweater smells like mint tea and hospital soap. His hands stay at his sides. Never touches her without permission.
“I tried to stop them,” he says, voice breaking. “I didn’t mean to leave you. I just– I wasn’t enough. But I never stopped looking.”
She cries then. Not because she believes him.
But because she wants to.
Because Peter is the only one who looks at her like she’s still human. Not a project. Not a weapon. Not a ghost.
And slowly– God, slowly– he becomes her anchor.
He doesn’t ask her to remember.
He asks her what she feels.
And when she says, “I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore,” he just nods. Like he’s been there too.
And maybe he has.
Maybe he hasn’t.
But the way he sits quietly and lets her fall apart, the way he holds her truth like it’s too delicate to crush– it breaks her in a different way.
The others had fire. Peter is a tide.
Soft. Relentless. Patient.
And she begins to wonder.
What if he’s right?
What if the others– the ones she trusted– were the ones who made her into this?
And what if Peter was the only one who never wanted anything but her freedom?
What if this is the truth?
What if he’s the only one who never touched her– and that’s what makes him safe?
What if, this time, she’s not being broken?
What if Peter’s the one putting her back together?
...
It’s late. The lights are dim. There’s a fog of silence between them, thick and heavy, like the Veil itself is listening.
She’s sitting cross-legged on the mattress, hospital socks scrunched at her ankles, voice hoarse from sleep and crying and not knowing anything real anymore. Peter’s in the armchair beside her, hands folded neatly in his lap, a steaming mug of chamomile untouched at his feet.
“Tell me the truth. Why am I here?” she says. Not begging. Not whispering. Just… tired.
He doesn’t ask what she means. He just nods. Like he’s been waiting.
“You want to know what you are.”
She flinches. “What they made me?”
Peter finally lifts his eyes. “No,” he says gently. “What you were, before they touched you.”
She doesn't answer, so he does.
“You're an Anchor.”
She blinks. “What is that?”
His voice is steady, like reading from an old storybook.
“Anchors are… rare. People who can touch the Other Side. See ghosts. Hear them. Some can step into it, like walking through a dream. The dead are drawn to them– clinging, whispering. You don't just sense death. You hold it. You pull it in.”
The word pull tastes wrong in her mouth. Heavy.
“That's not real.”
“It’s very real,” he says softly. “You’ve been seeing them your whole life. The shadows. The voices you thought were dreams. The way people left a room colder after touching you.”
She stares at him. “So what does that make me? A freak?”
“No.” Peter’s eyes don’t leave hers. “It makes you a weapon.”
She jerks like he struck her.
He doesn’t flinch.
“That’s what they think,” he amends. “That’s what Project Anchor is for.”
She says nothing, but he sees the question in her silence.
So he tells her everything.
How the government discovered the Other Side. How they built underground labs and put white coats on people who still believed in ghosts. How they didn’t want understanding– they wanted control. Power. Ghosts as spies. Spirits as soldiers. Anchors as weapons.
“How do you think they found you?” he says. “They’re always watching. Near-death experiences, disappearances, sightings… You were on a list before you could read.”
“And the others?” she whispers. “James? Sirius? Remus?”
Peter’s expression flickers.
“They were never your friends,” he says carefully. “They were your handlers. Sent in to study you. To manage you. To… guide your powers into something useful.”
“No.” She shakes her head. “No. They took care of me in the brief time I spent with them..”
“They made you think they loved you.”
He slides a thin folder across the bed.
Inside: surveillance photos. Dossiers. Charts mapping her emotional responses. Clinical notes about memory wiping. Behavior conditioning. Emotional control via positive reinforcement.
There’s a line scrawled in red on the top page:
Subject shows increased stability when emotionally bonded to Handler S. Black. Recommend continuation of affection simulation.
She almost throws up again.
Peter’s voice is low. Almost apologetic.
“You burned down your house, love. Not because you wanted to. Because they made you believe it was the only way out. They triggered your Anchor state. Then wiped your memory clean.”
Her hands are shaking. “Why are you telling me this?”
“Because they’re still watching,” Peter says. “Because if you remember too much, too fast, they’ll reset you again. Start over. You know they'll not stop getting you back.”
She’s breathing too fast. “Then why aren’t you stopping them?”
He looks at her like that’s the saddest question of all.
“I tried,” he says. “I failed. I was meant to be the passive one– the one you never noticed. I was the fallback, the safety net. When they broke you, I was the one they sent in with a soft voice and no sharp edges.”
“But you– ” She looks at him, dazed. “You didn’t–"
“I didn’t touch you,” he says. “Not like they did. I didn’t lie to you. I didn’t break you and call it love.”
She starts crying.
Peter doesn’t reach for her.
He waits.
Because Peter never touches without permission. Peter doesn’t want to own her. He just wants her to know.
...
Grimmauld Place becomes a fixed point in her life. A compass, of sorts. It’s no longer a cursed home or haunted manor– it is a hospital now, a holding cell, a place between madness and mercy. The curtains are always drawn. The walls are a muted grey-blue, like stormlight on old film. Everything is softened– edges dulled, sounds muffled, light filtered through gauze.
They say it’s for her comfort.
They say it’s so she doesn’t panic.
Every morning begins the same: pale sunlight diluted through enchanted glass. Warm broth on a tray. A blue capsule slipped between her fingers with practiced ease. “Just for the nerves,” someone says– always someone new. Their faces blur together: quiet smiles, trimmed uniforms, names she doesn’t bother to remember. But Peter is constant.
He’s already seated in the corner when she wakes, ankles crossed, reading glasses perched low. Never imposing. Never loud. He always knocks, even when the door is open. He always asks before sitting closer.
She never tells him no.
Her body is weaker now. Slower. Limbs weighted. Mind fogged like glass breathed on too long. The pills blur the edges– take the sharpness out of grief, memory, rage. Some days she barely speaks. Some days she whispers fragments: names, dates, the smell of burning wood. Peter just nods. Never pushes. Only listens.
And she begins to crave that silence. The safety of it.
He teaches her to eat again. To drink without flinching. He slips small comforts into her world: soft sweaters, worn books, a clock that ticks gently instead of ticking loud. When she spirals, when her head is pounding and her chest feels too tight to breathe, Peter reaches for her hand, but never grabs. He waits for her to meet him there.
“You’re doing so well,” he says, voice soft as flannel. “I’m so proud of you.”
The others– her new handlers– come and go with steady rhythm. They’re always polite. Always still. They speak in quiet tones and careful phrases.
“You are healing now,” they say as they inject her with something faintly sweet, faintly silver.
“Truth is a mercy,” they whisper as they guide her through old reports, doctored memories, half-truths worn into shape.
“They made you fire. We’re making you still.”
Every time she hears her own name on one of their tapes, she jerks like she’s been slapped. The screen lights up cold and blue in the dining room– a room she only uses when they want her awake. Her file spills open like a wound.
There’s footage– grainy, spliced, but chillingly believable. There she is, in the halls of the old Grimmauld Place, clutching her head, shrieking, crying. Screaming for voices to stop. There is kerosene puddled on the floor around her. Everywhere. A match is struck. Standing there as the flames eat everything. And then the boys appear around her before the footage cracks.
They watch her reaction like surgeons monitor a dying pulse.
She turns to Peter, throat dry. “Why do they keep showing me that? I want to forget.”
Peter’s eyes glisten. But he doesn’t answer.
“It wasn’t your fault,” he says. “But it was your hands.”
The words land like a bruise. Quiet and cold and inarguable.
She stops protesting. Just a little.
That night, she doesn’t fight the sedative.
By week three, Grimmauld Place feels like the only reality she remembers. The rest– hogwash and fever dreams. Ghosts with names she no longer wants to say. Boys with soft hands and too-sharp teeth. When Peter offers her a file labeled “The Handler Logs,” she opens it with steady fingers.
She reads how James manipulated her emotional highs to trigger psychic spikes. How Sirius flirted, then punished, to reinforce dependency. How Remus gaslit her into believing her powers were dreams.
“You loved them,” Peter says. “That’s what makes it cruel.”
She doesn’t cry. She just stares at the page that claims Sirius hand-fed her sleeping pills to keep her pliant. That James gave her false projects. That Remus watched her fall apart and only took notes.
She whispers, “They were supposed to protect me.”
Peter lowers his eyes. “They were paid to monitor you.”
The lines between truth and poison blur. She can’t tell if she’s dizzy from sedatives or despair.
But she starts believing.
Not fully. Not yet.
But enough.
She stops saying their names out loud. She stops picturing their faces when she dreams. Her hands stop shaking when she watches the videos.
And when Peter brings her warm tea and reinforces, “You are healing now,” she believes him.
A little more each day.
Her descent is quiet. Soft. Not a scream, but a sigh.
She doesn’t even feel herself slipping.
Not yet.
...
It doesn’t happen all at once.
Hatred never does.
It starts in the stillness between sedations. In the hours where her mind floats– neither dreaming, nor waking, but open. It starts with every rewatch of grainy footage of The Fire. It starts with the whispered mantras she barely registers anymore:
“They made you fire.”
“We’re making you still.”
“Truth is a mercy.”
She hears them like background music– like white noise behind the flickering of tapes, behind Peter’s steady voice guiding her through another report.
One day they show her interviews. Or old surveillance chopped into pieces. Sirius pacing. James smiling at something unseen. Remus talking to someone off-screen. The voices are altered slightly, the tone just off enough to curdle her stomach. But it’s them.
Sirius says, “She’d tear the world apart for us if we asked nicely enough.”
James says, “She’s more useful when she’s not thinking too hard.”
Remus says, “She needs to feel safe. Not *be* safe. There’s a difference.”
It plays on a loop.
She vomits the first time. She seems to be doing that too much lately.
Peter is there, holding a towel to her lips, wiping her mouth.
“I didn’t want you to see that yet,” he says. But he lets her watch again. And again.
The more she sees, the more the lines solidify. The ghost of doubt becomes the seed of loathing.
“They twisted your gift,” one of the handlers tells her, smoothing her hair like a nurse. “Do you remember when you first saw them? You were unstable. Shaking. They pretended to help. But they needed you to stay broken.”
She shakes her head weakly. “No. They– they helped me… they– ”
“They lured you to them. How do you think you ended up with them of all the people in the world? They used you to track spirits they couldn’t find on their own. They needed your senses. Not you.”
“You were an asset. Not a girl.”
“You were leverage.”
“You were bait.”
“They were obsessed with you. Sick in the head.”
She starts flinching at the sound of their names. Stops correcting the doctors when they call them her captors.
Peter never speaks in absolutes. He just listens. Offers fragments. Lets her fill in the gaps.
“They loved each other more than they ever loved you,” he says one night, after the screen shows James and Sirius laughing together, her watching from a corner.
“They only brought you close when it served them. When it hurt to be outside the warmth.”
Another night, Peter sits at the foot of her bed, voice quiet and broken. “Do you remember what they made you do in the church basement?”
She doesn’t.
But the silence he leaves afterward is enough to make her believe something happened. Something awful.
The room begins to shrink. Every hallway echoes with footsteps she swears used to mean safety. She starts to hate the smell of leather. The glint of gold. The curve of a grin in a photograph. She tears them all down. Screams when they try to calm her.
“They lied to me,” she says, voice cracking. “They played me.”
Peter doesn’t deny it. He doesn’t say, Yes. He doesn’t need to.
He just holds her hand.
“You were eighteen,” he murmurs. “They were trained men.”
Her body goes still.
It was never fair.
They taught her to trust them. Then they trained her to obey.
She spends an hour staring into the mirror one day, whispering to her reflection:
“It wasn’t your fault. But it was your hands.”
It echoes like scripture.
That night, she dreams of the fire again.
But this time, they’re the ones screaming.
And she’s the one holding the match.
...
It’s morning. Or at least, they tell her it is.
The lights above hum in soft, sterile gold. Her room always smells faintly of antiseptic and mint tea– soothing. Controlled. The curtains don’t open. The clock ticks in an artificial rhythm. Her limbs feel lighter today, though the air still pulls slow, like walking through water. The sedatives haven’t fully worn off, but her thoughts are sharper. Sharper than they’ve been in days.
Peter brings her breakfast on a tray, like he always does– oatmeal, blueberries, honey drizzled just the way she likes it. He places it on the table near the bed, careful not to make sudden movements. He never does. He doesn’t hover. He waits until she sits up on her own.
She doesn’t touch the food.
“I want to hurt them,” she says, voice low and calm. Almost too calm.
Peter doesn’t flinch. He simply lowers himself into the chair across from her, folds his hands in his lap, and says nothing.
“I want them to feel what I felt,” she continues. Her eyes are glassy, fixed on the edge of her tray. “To be afraid. To doubt everything. I want to look at them and know they don’t get to sleep at night. That they wonder when it’s coming.”
Peter tilts his head slightly. His eyes are soft. Always soft. “Do you want them dead?”
She blinks.
The question floats between them like smoke.
“I don’t know,” she whispers. “Maybe.”
He nods. Not in approval, not in shock. Just in acknowledgment.
“They deserve pain,” she says. “Real pain. Not just punishment. Not clean. Dirty. Scars they can’t see but feel every time they breathe.”
Peter doesn’t try to talk her down.
He doesn’t offer hollow words like you’re better than this or revenge won’t help. No lectures. No shame.
He just says, “Then we’ll make sure they understand. In time.”
She looks up sharply. “We?”
Peter meets her gaze. “You’re not alone in this.”
His voice is barely more than a whisper, but it carries something solid. Steady.
“I tried to stop them. I failed. I’ll never pretend otherwise. But I saw what they did to you. I saw the way they– ” he cuts himself off. Swallows hard. “I didn’t have the power to protect you then. But now I do. If you want to make them pay… I’ll help you.”
He leans forward just slightly, the gentleness in his eyes becoming something darker, heavier.
“When the time comes,” he says quietly, “I’ll be there. With you. Every step. We’ll make sure they never forget what they did to you. I promise.”
It silences her.
Because part of her expected him to pull back. To chide her. To turn her fury into a lesson.
But instead he’s just… with her. In it.
She studies his face, trying to find deceit. Malice. Manipulation.
All she finds is that same tired sorrow. That quiet regret he always wears like a second skin.
“Why are you doing this for me?” she asks.
He hesitates. Then answers with brutal honesty.
“Because I need to believe you’re stronger than they made you. And because I need to believe that standing beside you now will count for something.”
She exhales.
The hate begins to root deeper.
She imagines James flinching. Sirius shaking. Remus pleading.
And she doesn’t feel guilt. She feels clarity.
Peter rises to leave, but he pauses at the door, glancing back.
“They broke you to build their perfect Anchor,” he says. “But you’re not their weapon anymore. Starting tomorrow, we'll begin practice. I want you to hone your powers for when you finally face them.”
She closes her eyes.
“Truth is a mercy.”
“They made you fire.”
“We’re making you still.”
But today, she doesn’t want to be still.
Today, she wants to burn them up.
...
She stands in the cold, dimly lit training room again, the sterile walls reflecting back a fractured version of herself. Her breath hangs heavy in the stagnant air, and every muscle in her body trembles– not from weakness, but from the relentless storm inside. The power she holds is raw and unpredictable, pulsing beneath her skin like a wild, untamed fire she can barely contain.
They tell her she’s special. The strongest Anchor they’ve ever found. But strength tastes bitter on her tongue, laced with the poison of what she’s done– and what they say she was forced to do. Her hands ache with the memory of the flames she set, the screams she caused. They replay in her mind like a broken record: the fire roaring, the heat scorching every last piece of her innocence. It wasn’t just destruction. It was murder. Her family. Her home. Burned to ash because of her– because of them.
Peter stands quietly across the room, arms folded. He doesn’t shout or demand. He waits. Watches. And when she falters, when her breath hitches with the weight of the past, he speaks– not like a commander, but like someone who’s also been broken before.
“Don’t run from it,” he says, voice low. “You can’t control what you won’t face. Let it come. Let it burn.”
The program pushes her, pushes her harder, telling her that this power inside isn’t a curse but a weapon, a tool for her to wield. To control. To use when the time comes to make them pay– the three boys who used her, twisted her mind, made her set that fire, and then left her to drown in the wreckage. They remind her, with clinical calmness, that her hands were the ones that burned everything down. The guilt claws deeper with every lesson, every training session.
Peter never repeats the script. He doesn’t bring up the boys. He doesn't call it “justice” or “mission.” Just asks her, simply, “What do you want to feel when you touch your power? Fear? Or control?”
She focuses, summoning the faintest echoes of the Veil– the other side where restless spirits drift like shadows. At first, it feels like slipping beneath icy water, suffocating and vast. But with each breath, she learns to stretch her senses farther, to hold onto the edge of that realm without drowning. The cold seeps in, but so does a flicker of power. It’s terrifying and exhilarating. She tastes her own potential– the terrifying freedom of a force that could destroy or protect.
Peter steps closer. “Anchor it,” he says, steady, as if that word alone could hold her grounded. “Not to your pain. Not to your fear. Anchor it to you.”
But it’s always haunted by the faces she can’t forget. James, Sirius, Remus– the ones who promised loyalty but betrayed her in the cruelest ways. The ones who made her this monster and then abandoned her. Every surge of power is tangled with rage. Every step forward is shadowed by the weight of what she’s been made to carry.
They say this training is to make her ready– ready for the reckoning, for the punishment she’s meant to deliver. She swallows hard, the fire burning low but steady inside, fueled by the horror of the past and the twisted love they denied her. She trains not just to reclaim control, but to sharpen the weapon she never asked to become. Her hatred is her fuel. Her guilt, a chain she’s determined to break.
In the silence of the room, with nothing but the echo of her own heartbeat, she lets the anger rise. It is hers. It is raw. It is the only thing left untouched by their lies.
Peter’s voice slices through the silence. “Now. Let it out.”
She draws in a sharp breath– and releases.
The world stills.
At first, there’s nothing.
And then, a flicker.
A ripple through the air, so faint it could’ve been imagined– but it wasn’t. The shadows shift. The cold trembles. A single spark of energy arcs across the space between her hands, burning silver-blue, alive and real.
Her breath catches.
Peter nods once. A flicker of approval– no smile, no celebration. Just quiet recognition. And that warms up her chest.
“You broke through,” he says.
She stares down at her hands, chest heaving. For the first time, they’re not shaking.
She nods.
For the first time, she knows: she can be more than what they made her. The spark is small. But it’s hers. And it’s just the beginning.
And when the time comes, it will be enough.
...
Seems like the day came sooner that she expected.
She sits beside Peter in the quiet hum of the observation wing, knees pulled to her chest, a steaming mug of bitter coffee cradled in her hands. The sterile white lights buzz faintly overhead, but for once, the room feels almost peaceful. She lets herself lean back into the silence, the kind that only comes after months of noise– of training, screaming, remembering. Peter doesn’t speak, and neither does she. They’ve always shared this kind of silence– sharp and steady, like the calm that precedes a storm.
She watches him out of the corner of her eye. He’s sitting still, hands folded in his lap, staring at the monitors on the far wall. He’s more tense than usual. His shoulders too rigid, jaw tight, foot tapping once every few seconds like he’s bracing for something.
A faint sound slices through the room– low at first, like a tremor, then louder, shrill.
Alarms.
The stillness snaps.
Flashing red lights wash over the walls as the klaxon wails, signaling what she already knows before Peter even stands.
“They’re here,” he says, voice clipped but calm. He grabs his coat from the back of the chair. “The boys broke in. All three of them. This is it.”
Her breath catches. That storm inside her stirs, awakening like something old and half-buried.
Peter looks at her– hardly. “Now’s your time. You know what to do.”
She swallows hard, lips trembling. “Peter, I- I can’t set this place on fire again. People will get hurt. This isn’t like before.”
But Peter’s already shaking his head. “Everyone here knew this day would come. Every person who trained you, every person who stayed– they’re ready. They’re waiting for you to punish them.”
Outside, the chaos grows louder– doors slamming open, voices barking orders, a sudden crash of something heavy breaking.
Peter takes a step closer. “You were never meant to stay caged forever. You are not a girl anymore. You’re the reckoning.”
She looks down at her hands. They don’t tremble. Not this time.
Peter leans in slightly. “When the time comes, you set it all on fire.”
Her voice is small. “What happens after?”
“I’ll find you,” he says. “I’ll get you out. Once it’s done, I’ll come for you. But for now– ” He glances toward the door, then back at her, softer now, but with steel in his voice. “They can’t see me. I have to go.”
She nods, even though everything inside her is screaming.
Peter lingers for a second longer. “End it. Correct your past wrongs.”
Then he’s gone, vanishing through a back exit before the next alarm bell even finishes ringing.
She’s alone now.
But the fire is already building in her chest.
And this time, she won't run from it.
The door creaked open– not slammed, but pushed with urgency, trembling beneath the force of desperation. The moment stretched thin, fragile like a thread about to snap.
James, Sirius, and Remus stumbled into the room, breathless, their eyes wide with panic and hope– hope– as if the sight of her might undo the weeks of silence, the nights spent wondering if she was still alive. The sterile air, thick with chemicals and stillness, clung to their skin like guilt.
She was there.
Standing upright, pale beneath the harsh white light. Her wrists were bare now, no restraints, but the weight of the room still held her like a cage.
The world seemed to stop.
James was the first to move. He took a slow step forward, his voice cracking just from the sight of her. “You’re awake…”
She didn’t speak.
Her eyes met his– and then Remus’, then Sirius’. A moment passed. Two. Something ancient and aching stretched between them.
Their faces softened– no masks, no pretenses. Just boys with broken hearts. Remus’s lips parted like he was about to say something tender. Sirius looked like he might cry. And James... James had never looked so unsure in his life.
Their eyes shimmered with everything they’d never gotten the chance to say: We’re sorry. We looked for you. We thought we lost you.
But her eyes…
There was no softness there.
Only fire.
Only rage.
The silence broke with a breath– shaky, bitter, venom-laced. Her laugh was quiet but raw, the sound of something unraveling. “You found me.”
The words weren’t a relief. They were an accusation.
James reached toward her instinctively, like his touch might pull her back into something safe.
She flinched. Hard.
“You think I’m coming with you?” Her voice was low, splintered at the edges. “You made me burn it all down.”
Sirius looked like he’d been punched.
Remus opened his mouth– closed it again. His eyes brimmed with something unspoken, something terrible and tender.
James shook his head slowly, his voice nearly a whisper. “We didn’t know. We didn’t understand what they were doing to you. We tried to fix it–”
“You betrayed me,” she snapped, louder now. “You put a monster in me and you watched me wreck everything.”
The words hit their target, sharp and sure.
“But we’re here now,” Sirius finally said, voice hoarse. “We came back for you.”
Her expression twisted. “Too late.”
The fire was stirring beneath her skin again. Her breath trembled. The ghosts of her family screamed behind her eyes. The guilt. The hatred. The truths Peter whispered into her ears every night. It all swelled like a storm.
“He said I’d get to hurt you,” she said softly, a tremor running through her voice. “And today’s that day.”
James stepped forward again, almost helpless. “You don’t have to do this.”
“I do,” she whispered, fists curling at her sides. “Because this… this is the only thing that feels real anymore.”
The lights above them flickered.
The machines around her hummed like a warning.
And as the alarms blared again beyond the door, drowning out the world, the first glint of flame sparked at her fingertips– small, but alive.
The fight hadn’t begun. It had already found them. And it would end in fire.
...
The alarms shattered the sterile silence, shrill and relentless, echoing through Grimmauld Place’s cold corridors like a scream that refused to be swallowed. The walls trembled with urgency– heavy boots thundered down the halls, radios crackled orders, and steel doors slammed shut one by one, locking the chaos in like a beast in a cage.
She stood at the center of it all. The eye of the storm.
Breathing hard, chest heaving, hands trembling. Not from weakness– but from power. From everything that had been buried deep, drugged down, smothered. The fire inside her pulsed beneath her skin now, aching to be set free. Her fingers twitched. Sparks crackled faintly along her knuckles.
James, Sirius, and Remus closed in, their movements careful, like approaching a wounded animal they had once called their own. Fear etched their faces– not of her, but for her. And beneath that– grief. It settled in the creases of their brows, the tremble in their voices, the unspoken weight of all they couldn’t undo. They reached out to grab her, to pull her back into the shadows they had painted over her mind, but she recoiled as if they were poison– poison she had no intention of swallowing again.
“You don’t get to have me,” she spat, the words venomous. Her voice broke like glass, sharp and splintered. “You left me to burn.”
“Please,” Sirius choked out, hands raised slightly in surrender. “We didn’t know–it wasn’t supposed to go like this– just come with u-”
Her eyes snapped to him. “But it did. Didn’t it?” The fire flickered at her fingertips. “You watched it happen.”
“We tried to fix it,” James said, voice raw. “We tried, alright? But everything was already coming undone– we thought we could protect you if we just–”
“Just what?” she cut in, stepping closer, the air crackling between them. “Erase me? Rewrite me?”
Remus moved forward, tears brimming. “You’re not thinking clearly. You’ve been through hell and they’ve twisted everything. Let us get you out before you get hurt– please.”
Her eyes filled with something colder than fire– betrayal that had turned into something far sharper.
“I am thinking clearly. For the first time in weeks. I remember everything. Every second. The fire, the screams, the ash– my family, gone because you wanted to make me your weapon.”
A tremor ran through James. “That’s not true,” he whispered.
But her lips curved into something broken. “Isn’t it?”
The air vibrated. Sparks danced up her arms now, glowing faintly like embers waiting for breath. The guards were closing in. The facility’s last defense. Peter had said they’d come. He had said this day would end in fire.
“You’ll die if you stay,” Sirius said suddenly, stepping forward. His voice cracked open with fear. “You’re powerful– but this place has kill orders. We heard them. The second you lose control–”
“I already lost control,” she hissed, eyes locked on his. “And no one came.”
Remus reached toward her like it would matter. “Let us come with you. Let us fix it. You don’t have to do this alone– ”
“I was always alone.”
Silence dropped like a blade.
The flames leapt higher at her sides, casting their haunted faces in flickering gold. They looked like the boys she had once loved– fragile and furious and breaking. But she was breaking, too. She had broken long before they realized they couldn’t save her.
“It was all for you,” Remus whispered one last time, voice soaked in ache. “It’s always been for you, love.”
Her eyes glistened, something sharp and unspeakable catching in her chest. And then–
“You don’t get to call me that,” she whispered. “Not anymore.”
The corridors around them became a battlefield. Shouts of commands clashed with the metallic clatter of weaponry and the sharp snap of energy– her power stirring in the air, unstable and unpredictable. Every glance at the three boys was like a dagger twisting deeper, a reminder of every scar they had left behind.
And through it all, a quiet shadow lingered just out of reach– Peter. His soft eyes never left her, steady and unwavering, a tether in the swirling madness. But even his presence couldn’t quell the storm raging within her.
She wasn’t ready to run yet.
Not until everything they built– their lies, their control, their guilt– was ash.
She took a breath.
And then she let go.
With a single, sharp motion– fingers splayed, eyes blazing– she unleashed it.
Flames erupted from her hands like a living scream, hissing and snarling as they tore across the ground. They raced up the walls, hungry and untamed, devouring paper, wires, curtains, the very bones of the facility. The cold, calculated brightness of the hallways was replaced with an infernal orange glow, shadows flickering and twisting like demons summoned from the depths of her broken mind.
The scent of burning plastic choked the air. Smoke curled like black serpents into the vents, swallowing oxygen, swallowing light.
But she barely noticed.
Destruction was freedom.
The fire was her voice, her vengeance, her reclaiming of the self they had tried to erase.
And ahead of her– watching, frozen– stood the boys.
The moment the flames touched the walls, everything else fell away. Time seemed to fracture. James went still, his eyes wide with disbelief, as if reality had betrayed him. The girl he knew– the one who once laughed like sunlight– was now cloaked in flame, her fury pouring out in waves that made the walls tremble. His lips parted, but no words came. He couldn’t recognize her, and yet he had never seen her more clearly.
Sirius stumbled back a step, his breath caught in his throat, a strange, helpless sound. The heat stung his skin, but it was the guilt that scorched him. His hand lifted slightly, instinctively, like he could shield her from the fire– but the truth was brutal and immovable: they had lit the match. Every crack in her voice, every tremor in her hands, every lick of flame was a consequence of choices they’d made. Of truths they'd kept from her.
Remus didn’t move for a long moment. His mind, always the calmest among them, scrambled to make sense of what they were witnessing. But the fire wasn’t a mystery to solve– it was pain incarnate. It was her scream after years of silence. And it was beautiful and terrible and unstoppable.
“James,” Remus murmured faintly. “We have to get to her. She’s not in control.”
James blinked, the words breaking through the fog of horror. He tore his gaze away from the inferno and back to her– just a silhouette now, framed in flames, standing at the heart of their ruin. “We’re not losing her,” he said fiercely, though his voice cracked under the weight of it.
“She’ll burn herself alive,” Sirius snapped, stepping forward, shielding his mouth with his arm from the rising smoke. “We have to reach her– now.”
And so they ran. Into the smoke, into the heat, into the chaos she had conjured. The corridor outside collapsing into a battlefield– sprinklers burst but hissed uselessly, electricity arced across broken wires, the floor cracked beneath the pressure of it all. Each step was a gamble. The building groaned like it was dying.
But still, they ran.
Because she was in there.
Not just the girl with fire in her hands, but the one they had laughed with. The one who trusted them once. The one they still loved, even if she would never forgive them.
The fire surged again, reacting to her anguish– a living storm lashing out in every direction. The walls rippled with heat, the air became a furnace, and through it all she stood, unmoving, eyes locked on the ruin she was bringing down.
She didn’t flinch when they appeared through the smoke, coughing and frantic.
“You’re going to die in here!” Sirius shouted, voice frayed and breaking. “This place isn’t worth your life– we aren’t!”
She turned slowly, flames curling up her arms like armor. Her gaze met theirs– empty of hope, full of wrath. And yet, for the briefest second, it flickered. Just barely. Like a memory slipping through.
“This place was my grave long before I lit the match,” she said quietly. “At least now– I get to choose how it ends.”
And yet–
Remus stepped forward and grabbed her arm roughly, the fire licking at his boots, his skin already blistering from the heat. “Then let us die with you,” he said. “But we’re not leaving you in the fire alone.”
And there it was.
That old wound, deep and endless.
She looked at them– faces streaked with soot and desperation– and for a moment, she faltered.
Not enough to douse the flames.
But enough to remember that once, long ago, she had hunted ghosts with them. And they made her feel like she belonged.
And in the very next breath, she yanked her arm from Remus’ bruising grip, and the ceiling groaned– then collapsed.
The fire roared.
And the world went white.
Flames spiraled upward, shadows dancing like mad specters on the walls. Smoke billowed thick and black, curling like poisonous serpents as it clawed toward the vents, choking the halls in darkness. The acrid stench of burning plastic and paper seared her throat and eyes, but she didn’t falter. Her mind locked onto one truth as she ducked to take cover from the wreckage: destruction was freedom.
Guards shouted. Footsteps thundered. Desperate orders echoed. But the fire was louder– an extension of her scream, her anguish, her rebellion. It swallowed the sterile light, transforming the halls into a hellscape of orange flame and ruin.
Every shattering window, every collapsing beam was a monument to her war– a pyre for the lies, the chains, the years of silence. This wasn’t a cry for help.
This was vengeance.
And amid the chaos, the three boys saw her.
They were too late– too late to stop it, too late to pull her back. The flames were already everywhere. And she crouched at the center, silhouetted against the blaze, an avenging spirit wreathed in fire.
Their faces, streaked with soot and sweat, held an unspoken promise: no matter how broken she felt, no matter the walls she built with flames, they would fight to reach her. Because love, as fierce and consuming as fire, was what remained– raw, painful, and impossible to extinguish.
The moment the flames had erupted, the boys froze. She was getting away.
Time fractured.
The fire clawed at the walls with hungry, furious hands, roaring like a beast freed from chains as Peter’s grip tightened around her wrist. The heat was suffocating– an unbearable wave that pressed against their skin, searing the air with each labored breath. Smoke coiled and twisted around them like living shadows, thick and choking, burning eyes and scraping at lungs that begged for mercy. The acrid taste of ash filled their mouths, mixing bitterly with adrenaline and fear.
Peter didn’t hesitate. His steps were swift but careful, guiding her through the chaos with an urgency that never became frantic. Every moment felt fractured, time splintered between the snap of collapsing beams, the hiss of flames licking closer, and the deafening alarms that screamed out a warning none could ignore. The world they had known was unraveling, and beneath it all, the fragile thread of something new and uncertain stretched taut between them.
Her heart hammered against her ribs, wild and untamed, a mirror of the storm inside her– rage, despair, and a desperate hunger for freedom tangled with confusion and the faintest flicker of trust. She glanced at Peter, his face illuminated by the flickering firelight, calm and steady despite the inferno surrounding them. In his eyes was a sorrow that matched her own– a silent promise that maybe, just maybe, this flight through fire was the first step toward something that wasn’t poison.
Behind them, the flames consumed Grimmauld Place with merciless appetite, swallowing memories and lies in a blaze that was both end and beginning. The past– the cages, the betrayals, the manipulation– burned to ash, leaving only smoke and the sharp sting of loss in its wake.
James, Sirius, and Remus were stuck in the haze, faces pale and etched with desperation. They saw Peter clutching her hand, leading her away through the suffocating heat, the fire swirling hungrily around them like a living thing. Shouts tore from their throats– pleas, commands, heartbreak– but it was too late. The walls cracked and groaned, the inferno an impenetrable wall between them and the girl they had come to save.
James’s voice broke with anguish, “No! Don’t take her– she’s ours! Peter, don't! I beg you. Not again!”
Sirius’s wild eyes searched frantically, hands reaching out as if to pull her back from the edge of the burning abyss. Remus’s screamed so raw that the other two had to hold him back from running into fire.
But Peter moved with unyielding resolve, carrying her through the choking smoke and heat, away from the fire that was both her prison and her rebellion. The burning building behind them was a raging monument to everything broken and betrayed– yet in the roar of destruction, there was a fragile heartbeat of hope.
Away from the flames, in the cool air that burned their lungs with relief, she felt it– the terrifying, raw possibility of a new path. The fire had taken much, but Peter’s steady presence whispered that maybe, beyond the smoke and ashes, there was still something worth holding onto.
And so they fled– two fragile figures leaving behind a world ablaze, stepping into the unknown where trust was fragile, but real. The fire raged on, but the future waited, waiting for her to claim it.
Behind them Grimmauld Place went up in flames once more and yet more destructive and heavily-hearted than the last time years ago. She looked back one last time but the three bodies she was looking for, had disappeared amid the tragic gold flames. And her heart sank for a reason she didn't understand.
...
The car’s engine purred low beneath them, a steady hum in the quiet night. Rain streaked across the windshield in thin, glassy veins, blurring the world outside into a smear of headlights and darkness. The road twisted through a lonely stretch of forest, slick with storm and shadow, and the silence inside the vehicle was thick enough to choke on.
Peter’s hands were steady on the wheel, knuckles pale, jaw set. His voice broke the stillness softly. “You did the right thing.”
She didn’t respond.
Her head was pressed lightly against the cold window, breath fogging the glass as her gaze tracked the blurred trees whipping past. The fire still lived in her nose, smoke tucked into her lungs like it had claimed a home there. Her fingertips itched with leftover energy– residual heat from the blaze she had summoned, uncontrolled and furious.
“You did well,” Peter said again, gently, as if reassuring a child waking from a nightmare. “They tried to use you. Twist you. That wasn’t your fault. I am proud of you. ”
She closed her eyes.
But it felt like her fault.
There was something fractured inside her– a wrongness that pulsed deep beneath her skin. Every time she tried to remember what came before Grimmauld Place, it slipped through her fingers like ash. But not always. Lately, slivers had begun to rise. Not memories, not exactly. Dreams, maybe. Visions.
She saw Sirius’s face, wild and furious, but not cruel. James standing in front of her like a shield. And Remus– his hand brushing her cheek, his voice so real in her ears even now.
“You’re not safe here.”
Her heart twisted painfully.
“Peter…” her voice cracked. “Did I ever– was there ever a time I didn’t hate them?”
His eyes flicked toward her, just for a second, unreadable in the dim orange glow of the dashboard. “You were scared of them. Rightfully so. You didn’t see it then, but I know what they did to you. I saw what they turned you into.”
He reached across the console and gently touched her knee, grounding. “But you’re free now.”
Free.
Why did it feel like a lie?
The rain hit harder, drumming against the car roof like anxious fingers. She curled in on herself slightly, clutching her arms as tremors rippled through her muscles. Her skin felt like it was humming, her body caught between ghost-touch and memory, like something was pressing up from inside her, trying to speak.
“Peter…” she whispered again, hesitant. “Why do I keep hearing them?”
His voice came soft and soothing, like honey in tea. “Trauma plays tricks on the mind. They imprinted themselves on you, branded you like cattle. That’s how they kept you weak. But you’re healing now.”
He smiled faintly, turning down a narrow, overgrown road. “We’re almost there.”
Somewhere behind her eyelids, she saw James’s blood-smeared face. Sirius screaming her name through flame. And Remus, again and again– You’re not safe here.
But she was with Peter now. She had destroyed everything they built.
So why didn’t she feel safe now either?
The car rumbled on and the rain softened to a misty drizzle, steam rising off the hood of the car like breath. Peter drummed his fingers lightly on the steering wheel.
“You’ve come so far,” he said, his voice warm with pride. “They never thought you’d survive without them, but look at you now. Stronger. Sharper.” He leaned back in his seat, eyes flicking toward her. “Exactly what they feared you’d become if you weren’t in their leash.”
She glanced at him, then down at her lap, where her fingers had begun to curl into fists.
Peter’s tone was light, casual. “It’s almost funny, isn’t it? They spent so long building you up, training you like a weapon– and now that you’ve finally become what we designed, they’re the ones who should be afraid.”
The words hung heavy in the air.
Her heart gave a slow, hard thud.
What we designed…?
She turned her head slowly toward him. “What did you say?”
Peter blinked. “What?”
“You said I finally became what you designed.” Her voice was quiet, precise. “What does that mean?”
He hesitated for the briefest second– just long enough to send a spike of unease down her spine.
“I meant… what they tried to force you into. What they were turning you into without your consent.” He smiled, but there was something brittle at the edges now. “You rose above it. You didn't become that. You become better in our care. That’s all I meant.”
But her mind had latched onto the phrasing. Not helped you. Not supported you. Not picked up. Designed. Almost as if manipulated.
A word like a blueprint. A plan.
Her breath slowed.
Peter kept speaking, softer now. “They taught you to burn, but they never expected the fire to turn on them. You did what had to be done. I was there– I saw what they were making you into. I saw how Remus just stood there when you begged for it to stop– ”
“I never begged,” she said sharply.
The silence snapped like a taut wire.
Peter’s mouth parted slightly, like he realized too late he’d crossed some invisible line.
She turned her whole body to face him now, blood loud in her ears. “How do you know that?”
He paused. Then: “You told me.”
“No,” she said slowly, carefully. “I didn’t.”
They stared at each other. And in that space, in that breath, something shifted.
Something inside her woke up.
Peter’s hands clenched the steering wheel, knuckles pale. Rain tapped softly against the windshield, as if trying to fill the silence stretching like a blade between them.
“You told me,” he repeated, quieter this time. “In the facility. You don’t remember.”
“I don’t,” she agreed, eyes narrow. “That’s the thing. I don’t remember telling you. I don’t remember begging. But you do.”
Peter didn’t look at her. “You were in pain. You said things. Screamed things. We pieced together what we could.”
Her voice was a whisper now, dangerous and sharp: “So you watched me?”
He flinched.
“You watched me,” she said again, the words tasting like poison in her mouth. “In the program. While I was broken and screaming and drugged– you watched me. You were part of them.”
“No– no, that’s not– ” he ran a hand through his hair, frantic, face flushed with urgency. “I was with you. I protected you. They would've killed you if I hadn’t–”
“But you never said that before,” she cut in. “You said they lied. You said they made me a monster. But if you were there from the beginning…”
Her throat felt tight, choked with too many truths rushing in at once.
“Did you ever tell me the truth, Peter?” she asked. “Did you ever tell me what really happened?”
His eyes were wild now. “I protected you,” he repeated. “They were going to erase you, burn everything. I stopped it. I pulled you out. You have me to thank for still being alive– ”
Her voice rose, cold and hollow: “You drugged me. You sat beside me and watched me forget who I was. You fed me stories. Showed me footage. Made me doubt myself.”
“I saved you from them!” he snapped, hitting the steering wheel. “They were going to use you again! Just like last time! You think Remus really cared? James? Sirius? They were rebels– traitors– before they were your friends. I was the only one who stayed.”
“No.” Her voice was shaking now, a tremor of rage and horror. “You didn’t stay. You stayed quiet. You let it happen. And now you’re still doing it.”
Peter’s mouth opened. Closed. He looked like a man caught in the open, exposed under floodlights. The charm had vanished from his face. All that remained was something desperate, cornered.
“They would’ve destroyed you,” he said hoarsely.
“And you didn’t?” she whispered.
He turned his head sharply toward her, pleading now. “I’m the only one who knows what you’ve become. They can’t handle it. You can’t even handle it– ”
“I’m starting to,” she said, voice like ice.
Her hands burned in her lap. Not with fire– but with something deeper. Awareness. Truth.
And he saw it, then.
The beginning of her slipping from his fingers.
She looked out the window, into the misty grey woods beyond. Something inside her– fractured and repressed– was stirring with dangerous clarity.
“I’m not safe,” she murmured to herself. “And I never was.”
Peter didn’t respond.
He didn’t need to.
Because the silence spoke louder than anything else.
The car jolted slightly as Peter gripped the wheel harder, the tires slipping on wet gravel as they veered off the main road into the forest path. Trees loomed outside like tall, silent witnesses. Inside the car, the air grew heavier by the second.
“What do you mean? You are safe here. With me.”
She snapped forward in her seat, breath sharp and uneven.
“Peter,” she said, her voice strangled. “Peter, look at me.”
He didn’t.
Her pulse thundered. “What are you hiding?” she demanded.
Still no answer.
“Peter!” she screamed, fury rising from her chest like wildfire. “What are you hiding?! I swear to God– if you had any hand in what they did to me, if you stood there and watched it happen– I will not hesitate. I will burn this whole car down with you in it.”
His jaw clenched. His eyes stayed forward.
“I’m not kidding.” Her voice cracked at the edges, high and hysterical now, but filled with deadly promise. “Tell me. Tell me what it is you’re hiding.”
Rain pelted harder. Thunder murmured in the distance.
Peter inhaled, sharp and shallow. His voice, when it came, was low. Tight. “You don’t understand what they were turning you into. You– ”
“No,” she cut him off, trembling. “Don’t give me that. Not again. Don’t twist it. Just answer me. Did you know what they were doing? Did you help them?”
His fingers twitched on the steering wheel.
And that– that was the answer.
He didn’t speak. Didn’t deny. Didn’t protest.
Just silence.
Silence, and the sound of her heart shattering into something wild.
Her breath caught, and her vision blurred– not with tears, but with rage. “You were there,” she whispered, horrified. “You let them do that to me.”
“I tried to protect you,” Peter murmured, finally glancing sideways– but not with guilt. With calculation. “You were slipping, and they said you were a threat. I did what I had to.”
She stared at him, the image of him sitting by her bedside– smiling, soft, trustworthy– flashing through her mind like poison in reverse.
All of it.
Fake.
She pressed her hand to her mouth, trying to hold back the scream rising in her throat. Her fingers tingled. Her palms were hot.
“Pull over,” she whispered.
“What?”
“Pull. Over.” she snapped.
Peter didn’t move.
And that was another mistake.
Because now she wasn’t scared.
She was awake.
And she wasn’t his anymore.
The car shuddered as her rage broke through the last thread of restraint.
She moved– fast, sharp, and without hesitation. Her hand crackled with heat, raw and electric. The interior lights flickered as the air changed. Thicker. Heavier. Charged.
Peter barely had time to blink.
The dashboard lights dimmed to red as her power surged– raw, volatile, alive. She didn’t raise her voice. She didn’t have to.
“Stop the car.”
“I– ”
Her fingers twitched. The gear shift melted.
Peter yelped and slammed the brakes. The tires screeched across the rain-slicked road, the car jerking to a halt at the side of the tree-lined path. They sat in silence for a second– only the patter of rain on the windshield filling the space between them.
Then she turned to him, slow and predatory.
Her eyes were fire.
“You really thought I’d never wake up, didn’t you?” Her voice was eerily calm now, like the quiet before the earth split. “You fed me lies. You made me hate them. So tell me what was your role there? What you really did.”
Peter pressed himself back into his seat, arms slightly raised like she was holding him at gunpoint. “Okay– wait, just– please–”
“You let them turn me into a weapon.” Her voice dropped. “You watched it happen. And then you smiled at me like you were saving me. You let them brand me a monster, and you tucked me in like you cared.”
“I didn’t have a choice!” he blurted out, sweat beading at his brow. “The government told me you were dangerous, they said they were traitors, that they were using you, and I– I just– I made it easier!”
“Easier?” she snarled, her power rippling from her like a furnace ready to erupt. “You drugged me. You lied to me. You made me burn everything down. That wasn’t easier– that was convenient.”
She leaned forward, close enough to watch the panic bloom in his face. “You’re not a protector, Peter. You’re a coward. A rat.”
He whimpered now. Trembling. “Okay– okay– I’ll tell you everything. Everything. Just don’t hurt me. Please.”
She watched him crumble in front of her.
The man who whispered mantras like lullabies, who promised her strength, loyalty, purpose– a liar. The fear in his eyes wasn’t fear for her.
It was fear of her.
“Start talking,” she said coldly. “And choose your words wisely. Because if you lie to me again– I will bury you where no one will find what’s left.”
The flames behind her eyes had only just begun to rise.
He gulped then averted his eyes from her. Then burried his head in his arms. And from within came a whisper that rattled her to her core and destroyed everything in her.
“I lied about everything,” he whispered. “You never set The Fire. They did. To save you from us.”
Then
“You weren’t a monster,” he whispered. “But I needed you to believe you were.”
A/n) wheww long break I took there but thanks for the well wishes, my exams went great!! Thankyou for waiting so long and so patiently for the next part right after I left you all on the nastiest cliffhanger ever. But the cliffhanger on this chapter is no better, I must say hahaha.
Thankyou everyone for all the support on this series as we have one last chapter remaining. You all really make writing so very fun (even though I got the ickiest writers block on these last few ones). I would really appreciate your precious feedback and I just hope you enjoy it!💗💗