#poly is hard

[cuntcakesx3]

There’s no worse feeling than feeling like you don’t belong with people you love.

[ticytacs]

What a shitty end to the night.

[mayhawk561]

The scent of sex

Laying here in bed all I smell is the scent of sex.

I washed the sheets in their detergent so we would smell them when they left. They are part of the heaven we are creating in this life that is sometimes hell.

As we age it is becoming more Heaven. The more we share the better life gets. The more we give the more we get.

But all I smell is sex and I remember the last ten days. Ten days filled with love and our growing family. Kites and games, birthdays and kids, stories and movies all with love.

Then there was the loving and the sex. Ten days of sex. Who would have thought that at 56 I'm having more sex than I would have ever dreamed of as a young man. My life is what every adolescent dreams of.

No wonder all I smell is sex. Ropes and nightshirts, massage oil and blow jobs, fmf and fmfm, poly is hard and marvelous. A question of balance.

And now I'm left with the scent of sex and this hunger in my loins. A hunger for the next time we are all together and what new heaven we will create when we are all together again.

The scent of sex full of memories and promises.

[souris-est-la]

I want to be an inconvenience.

I don’t want to slot neatly into your life, between your spouse and your other lovers. I want to occasionally be a priority. I want you to turn the world upside down for me. Not all the time. Just enough to let it be known I occupy some importance in your head.

I want you to play hooky or stay up late or go out of your way for my smile. For me. I want you to keep a list in your head of things that are only mine.

I’m never going to be first or even second, but for the brief time I get you… make me feel like I am.

[lovesingplaylaugh]

Gratitude Journal Entry: I just met up with my old neighbour T (we used to be pretty good friends), while out shopping at one of my favourite clothing stores, and she is in the midst of separating from her husband. I ended up having about an hour long conversation about my ex-husband and I and all the changes we've been through in our relationship, while discussing her situation and frustrations. Just describing all the changes I've gone through in the last few years, I felt overwhelmed with joy and greatfulness. Deciding to embrace a polyamorus life has been one of the hardest and yet rewarding emotional hurdles I've ever attempted to clear. I've lost a lot, but also gained a lot and I'm so happy that I allowed myself to grow in this direction.

[pansexuanarchy]

I have an intimate relationship with a friend and we've kept the relationship open but like I kinda have feelings for our other friend and I wanna talk about a poly relationship but Im sooo nervous 😫 like they're both really great and we're all close friends already so idk how they'd feel about me suggesting it. I've had things with both of them in the past, but at totally separate times. Im so conflicted how do I go about bringing this up without making everybody super uncomfortable??? Why am I afraid that my feelings are gonna create awkward situations????? Why can't I just love everybody at the same time???????