NOTE : just mentions of lesson 16 while they(belphie and mc watch stars)
THIS is just belphie angs, not really romantic but can see as. Just belphie angst
Ngl getting k*lied by belphie isn't really traumatizing like he went through more traumatizing stuff (from a belphie lover/ apologizer)
THE STARS were beautiful, twinkling in the sky. The twin stars shine brightly as he watches the stars, he can hear the person next to him breathing.
Their breathing is oddly comforting, their chest slowly moves up and down. He can see their smile. He can't speak he has feelings that he can't explain but it feels weird.
They smile and start asking questions about the stars he answers them, they hum at his answers. This is his favorite place to stay away from his brothers, aside from the
Attic...
The attic wasn't comforting that much, due to what happened.
Every time he looks at them, his throat tightens, and he can’t shallow. His throat is dry, it hurts to shallow he doesn't belong to be here. He belongs to be lock away again forever until he dies or manages to kil-
"Hey belphie you didn't answer my question." Their voice snaps him out of his thoughts his bad thoughts.
He doesn't remember the question so he asks them "what did you say? Again?" They chuckle and repeat the question.
He hums and answers his answer seems to please them, the attic for him wasn't a good one, being lock away from his own brother...
His twin brother believing that he was in the human world, it was his fault for everything. How selfish of him, Lilith would not be proud of him.
Her love for humans, it was his fault maybe if he told lucifer maybe kucifer could have saved her and them falling down into this nightmare hellish place.
He ruined all of his brothers relationships making them hate each other, his brothers had hard times getting along.
He wondered if he died, if Lilith survived would it be different? Or will he still haunt her down and kill her making his family go through traumatic stuff? Killing another family member.
Do they care about him? Is beel the only one who cares for him? Is Satan only using him to get revenge on lucifer? His he being too hars on lucifer?
Lucifer... he was so different as a angel he wasn't so stress. But it's cause of that stupid demon "lord" he's just a prince... why does lucifer spent all his time serving and doing his work for him?
Sometimes he wishes that everything will be back to normal... no deaths, no family issues, no killing you....
He's sorry but he knows the trauma he did for you, choking you.... killing a human, he hated humans he blamed them for Lilith death but he realized it wasn't the humans fault for her death.
It was his "father's" fault, he send all his brothers down here.... they aren't really brothers, diavolo said that they are brothers but they aren't really...
He wonders if beel feels the same? If beel died how different would it be?
They were all cursed with sins.... what would Lilith sin be if she survived? What if every one of his brothers died during the war?
He remembers his first day at devildom before getting lock away, Satan was mad remembering when they would lock him up.
He should stop thinking about bad memories and focus on good ones, he can redo himself from the murder and threats he made. He just hopes that everything will be okay.
His brothers will be okay..... and mc will be okay...
