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Remind me never to vent on a social media site without making sure my future MIL is not able to view it...

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So... It's been a rough couple of months. I tried to stay off of Tumblr at work, then ended up losing that job anyway a few months back. To be fair, that job sucked pretty badly and I have what I hope isa a much better job lined up soon ish.

I've kept meaning to come back to Tumbler, especially after I lost my job, but the anxiety just kept building so... here I am, many months later.

I missed you guys. Feel free to message if you want to know more or if you just want to chat! I may make a more detailed post about it later, but for now, I'll keep from clogging your dashes.

<3, Pon

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I'm back! Really wasn't doing so well so I sort of withdrew into myself, meaning I ended up avoiding Tumblr and other social media. I won't go into it too much so I don't eat up your dash, but I suffer from clinical depression. I've been dragging my feet to get a new therapist ever since I moved like an hour away from my old one but I think it's time.

In better news, I'm doing better enough to stop avoiding both real life responsibilities and avoiding here, so yay?

I'll get back to everyone who has tagged me/sent in asks (might be slow since I've been gone so long. Sorry. :( )

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I survived work this week. I'm trying to work harder because I know more is going to he expected of me starting next week. Makes getting to Friday a lot tougher though. x_x

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Okay, I finally got some downtime at work, so I’m going to do the 11 Questions that I got from a couple of people... last week I think? Thanks for waiting, guys!

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20 Questions

I got tagged by @dogfromfallout, @angelic-guardienne, and possibly someone else? I’m not doing this in a timely manner so I’m sorry if you tagged me and I forgot. ;_;

So you answer 20 questions then tag 20 people you want to get to know better.

1) Name: Catrina (I haven’t said my real name in a long time on this blog. It feels kinda weird... Like I’m breaking some sort of forbidden rule. XD)

2) Nicknames: Cat, Katze, Catrinya, Pon (if we are counting blog nicknames)

3) Height: 5’ 7"

4) Orientation: Demisexual Panromantic

5) Nationality: United Statesian (I feel weird saying American since technically all of North and South America are Americans)

6) Favorite Fruit: peaches

7) Favorite Season: Fall

8) Favorite Flower: Orchids

9) Favorite Scent: Vanilla and wood burning fire

10) Favorite Color: Silver and purple. Not together necessarily.

11) Favorite Animal: PUPPIES (nb: all dogs are puppies)

12) Coffee, Tea, or Hot Chocolate: Yes. They are all good in different situations. If you are asking which I need to exist, however, it’s coffee.

13) Average Hours of Sleep: Ummm not enough on weeknights and too much on weekends? (between 5 - 6.5 on weekdays and like 10+ on weekends. I need 7 to function as a normal human being, so I don’t really do that on weekdays)

14) Dog or Cat Person: PUPPIES. Also I am allergic to cats and SUPER dermally allergic to them. One time I got cat dander on my face and my face swelled up so much I almost couldn’t open my eyes.

15) Favorite Fictional Character: Ignis Stupeo Sciencia ;3;

16) Number of Blankets you Sleep With: 1. Used to be 1 sheet and a comforter, but when I moved in with my s/o and started sleeping in the bed with him, I got used to his “only comforter” sleeping habit. He’s a space heater anyway.

17) Dream Trip: Japan. Kyoto in specific but if I am making a trip out there, I’d definitely want to go to Tokyo, too.

18) Blog Created: My first post was June 15th, 2011, so probably that day? I can’t remember if I made my first post the same day I made my blog or not. I just remember that I was specifically waiting until after I had gotten home from the Spring semester of college in 2011 to make a Tumblr.

19) Number of Followers: A surprisingly large number considering I am a trash blog!  642

20) Random Fact: uhhh I consider myself an extremely boring person so this sort of question is hard for me. I really like etymology and comparative folk lore and would try to get a job in it if paying jobs existed for that. It’s why I got a degree in Classics, although I found that the field ended up being too narrow for what I am interested in. (Does that count as a random fact? idk)

I have no idea whose been tagged, so tagging a bunch of people and sorry if you have already been tagged. Also please feel free to ignore being tagged if you don’t want to do this 

@jastiss, @vatsunara, @insomniacapples, @louisvuittontrashbags, @hypaalicious, @achroniclerofsilence, @atarostarling, @alicemoonwonderland, @heathengoddess, @foxgloveinspace, @expectogladiolus, @amicitonia, @pish-posh-mish-mosh, @redmasquerade13, @random-fandom-stalker,  @ruruchaan, @captain-cat-chan, @madamerioulette, @chocoboypromptoargentum, and @crowryn-arts (gaaah why won’t it let me tag you?)

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(I see I got tagged in a bunch of stuff. Love you guys! I'm pretty sure I'm fighting off the flu, though, so I'm going to go pass out. I'll reply/respond to stuff I didn't do today after sleep)

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jfc why does motivation hit at the worst time? I've got literally NO time to myself this weekend and I want to write.

I do have more freetime on weekdays now though... /side eyes self

Writer people, how do you shove the tiny, but way too big anxiety voice down hard enough to write in your free time when your motivation flees you? ;_;

/tries to shove my now very angry muse back into it's very dusty box