things that add up to "im a literal switched by faeries-style changeling:"
+ my g. great gramma said when i was born, that she remarked that she didnt know if she could ever love me because i looked too much like my father (oof damn), and I ended up quickly changing to look like my mom and ??? something else. She is still the most active ancestor in my daily life.
+ physically disabled in myriad ways bc my body is just not human and not meant to function here or is inherently frail or something. sometimes faeries would give their frail babies to humans to raise?
+ Madness and odd behaviors and inclinations that arent easily boxed into clinical labels even despite the autism n shit being stereotypical of changeling identified folks.
+ a long history into childhood of liking the name Puck/relating to Puck, and eventually going on to relate to various fae called pookas, down to shapeshifting to and having hearttypes/theriotypes of forms like fox, crow, wolf, dog, goat, cat, rabbit, human, and more that are related to pookas.
+ have a "true form" that has looked eerily the same as at least 2-3 other self described pookas in the kin community that i had no influence on or from. Very Large, almond shaped eyes like alien eyes, a long, lion-like tail, an oddly lanky + bony body with a big tummy, a long mane, a featureless semi-animal face, and features that shapeshift over time.
+ look physically like a Fair person, get commented on as fairy-looking all the time, have small pointed ears, eyes that have ... characteristics both ethnic and Fair, we will say, and other physical characteristics of Fair Folk
+ everyone that joins our system doesnt just gain a connection to humanity (each in their own specific way, for me its prehistoric pre-humans) but their own connection to animality and shapeshifting and other traits that are distinctly not human, no matter what species or fictotypes they came in as. I suspect this is bc its just hardwired in.
probably lots of other very personal things ill keep to myself for now. Wondering if anyone else relates to this, in the sense of being a biological changeling and/or having this specific sort of "true form" Pooka presentation?
(not a pshifter, rad/queers dont interact)
