Overwhelmed/Ungrateful?
Okay so yeah I’m not like most people. I am an introvert but am quite good at being social. I don’t enjoy going to parties or hanging out with a lot of people. When I get invited though I have an overwhelming feeling of obligation. This has cause several problems. The number 1 being, I stretch myself so thin that at times it may seem like I might disappear within myself. Don’t get me wrong I love my friends and I do quite enjoy helping out but isn’t there a line? Everyone has their own line in which they have to say “No. Enough is enough.” At this point in my life I feel like that line has been crossed ‘to infinity and beyond’; yet time and again I have not said no. The result being my energy, happiness, and general well being has taken a toll. I know, I know you are probably thinking ‘Just say no.’ There in lies the problem. It is extremely difficult for me to skirt around things where assistance is needed thus in which creates another problem. That problem being the well known fact that when assistance is needed I am always relied upon due to my constant inability to say “no” which to me can comes across (in my mind) as selfishness/ungratefulness if I were to say “no”. I am the llama on the slippery ship trudging across the open sea. One giant wave will wash me overboard, spiraling down until I have reached the bottom of the ocean floor. “What is a llama doing on a ship in the first place?---They needed a first mate”
