#positive personal stuff

[synonym-pastry]

What people think i might do at late hours of the evening: cry, sleep, have intrusive thoughts What I'm actually doing: procrastinating on art and chair-dancing to the undertale OST like the white boy i am

[olliedollie1204]

i honestly love shopping with my mom so much. like today we went christmas shopping at no less than 8 stores for different people’s gifts.

toys r us- something called a “zoomer zuppie” toy for a cousin

bath and body works- sweet pea perfume for a cousin

books-a-million- a funny proverbs calendar for my sister

best buy- a phone case for a cousin, and family guy season 13 on dvd for an aunt (also my mom got a new phone case but anyways)

earthbound trading co.- a hook rack thing for my dad’s cousin, and a cool leather bag for an aunt

f.y.e- not one but TWO dvds for my secret santa

target- this thing called a “floating soccer ball” (it looks pretty cool) for my brother

autozone- a little dancing hula girl for a cousin

honestly like it was so much fun and i got a soda and some chicken fries (which i’m now obsessed with) idk it was just a really fun day

[olliedollie1204]

had a real good day. helped out at a cool charity my cousin’s helped organize that let’s people ‘shop’ for gifts for underprivileged kids. visited my gramma first the first time since her shoulder surgery. i told her about getting into footloose, and she was proud. she said she had to call everyone back and tell them that i got  got to ride in a quiet car at night with my parents for like an hour. tried chicken fries for the first time, a solid 8/10. watched the wizard of oz twice, and read the entirety of it’s trivia page on imdb. plus my sister’s been gone all day so i can lie on her bed muahaha 

[olliedollie1204]

good things that have happened in the past month or so

my birthday!

i turned 15

i got really nice gifts

the ‘welcome to night vale’ novel

and ‘blurryface’

also new earbuds, which is good cuz i lost my old ones

and lots of money, which is always convenient 

also my parents say i can start drivers ed (although i think i’m gonna wait until march so that it doesn’t interfere with my footloose rehearsal)

and on that note

footloose!

i got cast in my school’s musical!!

i mean it’s just ensemble but i’m super excited

it’s a lot of work and a big time commitment but it’s fun

everyone there is so funny

and i love the choral rehearsals most of all

it’s like chorus class except we actually get work done

i’m really excited for this, it’s the first musical my school’s done in like 20 years

school stuff!

school’s been really fun and interesting lately

i’m finding a groove

a lot of people don’t like routines or feeling like they’re in a rut, but i disagree

also my teacher’s all seem to like me

drama is getting easier (i’m not an absolute anxious mess everytime i think about going in)

world history is getting easier (less work, and i know how to handle it now)

health is so freaking easy

chorus is easy and fun but we never get work done cuz they talk too much

english is the best

also i’m getting better at talking to people

so yeah that’s it

[thealmightylegolas]

Last night I hung out with a whole bunch of people that I really liked and everything went swimmingly which was awesome (including nur who I adore but its like a secret except not really because ive already told her and ????), and I got pancakes from my lovely Kitty and walked around Beverly with Jimmy eating pancakes like retahds and then we wandered back to Kats house and it was just a good night.

And then I had lots of awesome, positive filled dreams, which means that things are hopefully going to start looking up for me again. Which is double awesome because I'm tired of being tired and stressed. Its not fun for everyone and it makes me self conscious that im being a bitch but at the same time I'm really tired and I dont give a flying fuck so. 

I got to sleep in today completely uninterrupted which doesn't usually happen but it felt so nice. And then when I woke up I got to work on my painting that I'm excited about and rock out to classic 80's rock -n- roll which was great. And then !Friends! came over and we went to the grocery store where I got a bunch of stuff at really good prices (Seriously, Celeste tea was 2/$5, and then i got a GIANT bag of tilapia fillets for $9, and greek yogurt was 10 for $10) and on top of that my card saves me even more money so I was really happy. 

and then MORE FRIENDS came to hang out and we all ate dinner together and had a good time and there wasnt any stress from school or people so it was just pleasant. And also I got the first parking spot in front of my college which means that NO ONE CAN PARK IN FRONT OF ME and thats just awesome. And then we all went for a walk and hung out and talked about silly girly things and it was just nice because we went to lynch park and no one was there and it was really quiet with just the ocean and peepers and us talking.

And finally we went to city side and I got pumpkin pancakes and home fries which is my favorite and my little Joyce gave me her apple juice which made me feel extra special. And while I was there I got to hang out with some people that I want to hang out with and I want to be friends with them and invite them to hang out and stuff so I'm going to try to do that.

and then we went home, but then, wild Kayla! appeared and even though she was really tired from the corn maze shes working I was happy to see her and talk to her about things and we made tea together and watched silly robot videos that Jimmy sent me.

AND ALSO OTHER STUFF like, I got to talk to my momma today and drive my car and MY UNCLE ADOPTED A NEW BABY KITTEN AND HES A BOY AND ALL BLACK AND WE NAMED HIM BOWDEN WHICH IS SUPER CUTE AND LOVERLY but Kaiden is jealous over him. But he'll get over it. AND IM EXCITED BECAUSE I JUST GET TO GO HOME THIS WEEKEND AND SEE MY FAMILY AND SLEEP COMFORTABLY AND DO HARDLY ANYTHING (EXCEPT MAYBE HOMEWORK) AND EAT REAL FOOD AND AHHHHH.

AND ALSO Supernatural is coming back, and I already know that Tuesday is going to be an awesome day and im super excited for it!!! 

AND: I've been going to the gym for the past couple of weeks with my favorite Rachel Greco (as if theres any others?) and idk if Im technically loosing weight but it makes me feel really great and its boosting my confidence. Its also getting me out of the house and i get to spend time with rachel one on one. The sauna is amazing. Sometimes Kayla joins us which I also like -- its like, private girl time at the gym I guess? Idk, but I enjoy it.

And to conclude: Little Rachel (Who I adore) told me today, "Dude, I love you and Kayla. You guys are so awesome!" and it made me feel great because I want to like her and i want her to like me so YAY LIKENESS. 

AND AT LAST I GAINED A FEW MORE FOLLOWERS SO YAY THANK YOU BECAUSE I LOVE GETTING FOLLOWERS 

Im probably going to tag all my friends in this because AHHH YOU GUYS ARE GREAT