#post despair

[queensilber]

The Empty is at rest

Jack saving Cas from the Empty and putting it back at rest at last.

Made the in Class AGES ago and never thought of posting it, but now i though „why not?“ so here you go!

Tell me what you think?👀

[terus-time-killer]

Do you sleep well, buddy? You have eye-bags:(

Teruteru: oh, you have NO clue! if only I had a kind, and incredibly attractive person to see my tormented mind. at night I go to sleep just fine but in the morning I’m just so tired. like working the lunch rush with no AC in Summer! an then I have ta clean up tha mess ah made. S’a wonder Hajime ain’t tired uh me yet

[morallygreyintrovert]

Post Despair, I can imagine Dean saying goodbye to Sam like Steve Rodger’s did after endgame because he wanted to go live in the past because it is the only place where Cas is still alive.

Ouch, I hurt my own feelings.

[anotherfanfictionreclist]

Destiel Post Despair/Finale Fix It

Being Led Home - By someonetoanyone 

The table has gone quiet, and Dean’s already got a bad habit of forgetting that anyone else in the world exists when he’s got Cas’ focus like this. To him, the whole universe narrows down to the two of them, sat across from each other at the kitchen table, Oxford to boot, eye-to-eye. “You’re gonna stay. Sam’s movin’ out, onto bigger and better things, yadda yadda, half-retired family man sorta shit, and you’re gonna stay here with me.” ___ Cas comes back. Rating: Explicit Words: 14,186 Chapters: 1/1

on the sixth day - By fleeceframe

“Right,” Dean says. He nods to himself and tries to believe that Cas means it when he says he’s going to stay. “Right, and Jack, he brought you back?” Cas smiles softly. “Yes, it took him time to figure out how to use his powers in a way that he could reach me, but he succeeded. We had our own reunion and discussion before he brought me here.” He looks back at Dean. “You have, apparently, been quite the talk of Heaven.” Dean frowns and finally pulls away. He would be worried, maybe is a little bit, because when do they ever really catch a fucking break, but Cas is looking at him with something so fragile in his eyes. Something light and hopeful and sad all at the same time. “What’d I do now?” Cas looks at him like his heart is breaking. “You prayed my name to every angel in Heaven for six days straight.” or the one where dean grieves in his own way until jack swings a little power to give dean another shot at that love confession Rating: General Words: 5,208 Chapters: 1/1 

living dying words - By fleeceframe

“So- so you’d basically be using some sort of sigil to mask our human souls from the Empty?” Sam’s voice interrupts Dean’s desperate train of thought and startles him back to the present. “Yes.” Jack is nodding, smiling, all gap-toothed and kindergarten positivity. “And the only parts of us the Empty would see are whatever dead leaves the angels and demons left in our gutters?” Dean raises his eyebrows. “Exactly.” He lets out a low whistle. There’s a living warmth finally coming back into his complexion. Not done yet, Winchester, still one more rescue mission. “It’s gotta be me. I’m going.” Rating: Explicit Words: 26,604 Chapters: 1/1

Best To See These True Colours (Than To Follow One Of Your False Virtues) - By ImYourHoneyBee 

Two months after Team Free Will beats Chuck, Jack brings Cas back and Dean wants so badly to respond to Cas's confession in the dungeon, but to do that he needs to shed a lifetime of trauma, self hatred, and internalized homophobia. After moving in to a farmhouse with Cas, Dean secretly starts going to therapy every Thursday afternoon. He also starts working on getting the tattoos he always wanted in an effort to reclaim a body that he's only ever seen as a tool. or Cas stole Dean's favorite Zeppelin shirt, Dean steals it back, Cas steals it again. A shirt-theft war like nothing you've ever seen ensues. The entire family takes sides. Is it foreplay? Yes. Is it good clean family fun? Sometimes. Are Jack's god powers used unwisely in the name of the Zepp shirt battle? Yeah, probably. Is Dean messier than a sloppy joe? Nooooo, not at all. This fic starts out like it's going to be Serious Business (and parts of it are), but it's mostly ridiculous fluff and Dean finally allowing himself to be soft. Rating: Explicit Words: 34,512 Chapters: 9/9

Nothing Equals the Splendor - By RurouniHime

Maybe it’s the cynic in him. The hunter, always under the surface of any quietude he ever found. Or maybe it’s just that he has always had trouble with blind faith. But after a while (a blink? A decade? A century?), Dean raises his eyebrows, looks around, and says— “Uh. No.” It’s so close. Just so slightly imperfect. And maybe, he analyzes, maybe that’s the final knell of this bell called contentment. Dean’s experience with happiness has always been that last rise in the road, right before it turns. Right before fate comes barreling around the corner head on. He turns in his spot on the bridge, and suddenly Sam is like a cellophane film through which he can see the light streaming, and the taste of cheap beer on his tongue is much, much older a memory than it should be. “Oh, you’re good,” he says, and means it. Rating: Explicit Words: 7,865 Chapters: 1/1

Trained to Make Your Mark - By RurouniHime 

“I just think we should start making some kind of, I don’t know, backup plan because the way things are going—” “Sam.” “Once wasn’t a big deal, this place has held up against a lot, but it’s been two days now—” “Sam.” “—and if there’s much more of this, the walls might literally come down around us, without a grenade launcher.” “Alright.” Dean might actually laugh, uncontrollably. This is the fifth time—fifth! He’s still counting on his fingers! Like a giddy kid!—the fifth time he’s had sex with Cas and this, this… this-ness, the shaking brick and sizzling iron, the shattering windows and the protesting alarms, it was supposed to stop after the first, but it hasn’t even slowed down Rating: Mature Words: 6,748 Chapters: 1/1

hold onto your voice, hold onto your breath - By unicornpoe

You won’t be able to stop me, Dean thinks into the silence. Just take me, please, take me instead— EYE FOR AN EYE, says the Empty. Dean is on his knees in his bedroom, elbows on his mattress like he thought he might pray. The voice fills Dean’s mind as slowly as cold oil, and drips down the back of his neck. TOOTH FOR A TOOTH. * Dean makes a deal. Rating: Teen Words: 7,285 Chapters: 1/1

and you can use my skin - By unicornpoe

Castiel slips from his chair to kneel at Dean’s feet. He takes Dean’s hands in his, and there on the floor holding something with devotion, he understands Communion. He understands Eucharist. He understands believing in someone so deeply that to shelter a piece of them within yourself is an act of untempered faith, love and prayer and deep-wide trust. * Cas comes back. Dean can’t stop touching him. Rating: Teen Words: 5,365 Chapters: 1/1

sunflower - By unicornpoe

Castiel comes home on a Sunday. Rating: Teen Words: 4,687 Chapters: 1/1 

psalm 40:2 - By unicornpoe

“How the fuck do you know my name?” Dean hisses. The man doesn’t look scared. He is watching Dean like there is nothing else worth watching, lips a little parted, eyes a little soft. And blue. Real blue, like the ocean on a postcard. The ice spreading down Dean’s spine makes him shiver. “I suppose you could say I’m your guardian angel,” the man murmurs. His breath fogs pale between them. All of him is unnaturally warm, like Dean’s touching somebody with the sun sewn up beneath their skin. “I have known you, Dean Winchester, for a very long time.” * Dean meets an angel who says he's from the future. It all gets a lot more complicated from there. Rating: Explicit Words: 44,872 Chapters: 7/7

dumbassery, denial, doing (the three d's to the destination) - By sobsicles

Freedom is just one adjustment after the next. ~~~ Cas hums again. "I think you already have. It's been months since everything settled. All that's left to do is...get used to it, and perhaps—" His voice stalls out, uncharacteristically, and his gaze roams Dean's face with intensity. When he speaks next, his tone is a little raw. "Perhaps what one does with peace is...whatever they want." "What if I don't even know what that is?" Dean grumbles, arching an eyebrow in challenge. "'Cause I know damn well you don't just mean good food and a good bed and time in Baby, not simple wants like that. You mean—ya know, the big things, the wants we didn't get to have before." "Yes," Cas agrees. "If you're not sure, figure it out." "Easier said than done." Rating: Explicit Words: 108,427 Chapters: 4/4

what's missing is found (our souls can exhale now) - By sobsicles

It's not the first time Claire has ever gone missing. It is, however, the first time Kaia panics about it. Dean's dragged into the mess, but he soon finds that it's the best thing that could have happened to him. ~~~ "But have you ever just met someone and maybe it wasn't from the first moment, maybe it was after all these other moments that meant more than you ever expected them to, and it seems like your soul just—just—" Kaia makes a helpless gesture with her hands, pushing out, and she breathes out loudly. "Like it can finally exhale. And that person isn't guaranteed to make you happy, but they're—they're important. You just know it, you can't even escape it, you can't let them go. Ever met someone like that, Dean?"  "I—" Dean halts, his mouth hanging open. He's looking at Kaia, who's looking at him, and his heart is fluttering in his throat like a caged bird aching to soar again. His mind threatens to spiral out of control, but he focuses, swallowing hard. "Yeah. Um. I—yeah, I have."  Rating: Mature Words: 27,403 Chapters: 1/1 

Aching in the Absence of You - By sobsicles

Brittle and battle-worn, Cas looks at him over coffee one morning and says, "I need to go," and Dean instantly knows that he's not coming back.  He's not really sure how he knows it, but he does. It settles into the pit of his stomach, curling hot and tight like something he instinctively wants to tear out with his bare hands. He takes a breath, and it gets stuck in his throat, hitching there. It hurts, hurts, hurts when he finally exhales.  "Yeah," Dean says, "of course you do," and he nods jerkily as he looks down at his phone. He doesn't say goodbye. He doesn't look up from the screen when Cas gets up and leaves the room. He doesn't finish his coffee, or move for a long time.  By nightfall, Cas is gone. Rating: Explicit Words: 95,090 Chapters: 10/10

what they deserve (it's better this way) - By sobsicles

Dean and Castiel have some unfinished business. Heaven is as good enough of a place to settle it as any. Rating: Mature Words: 5,684 Chapters: 1/1

oh sooner or later it all comes down to faith - By sobsicles

Getting used to Heaven is something of a marvel. It ain't perfect, and Dean thinks he'd hate it if it was, which is probably why it isn't. ~~~ "You don't understand," Dean whispers, exhaling shakily. "I know you don't, because even I don't. The instant you were gone, I wanted you back. Cas, I wanted you back. I wanted—I wanted—" Cas stares at him, searching his face. After a moment, his own face falls slack, eyes widening just so. "Oh," he breathes out. Dean wants to be furious that Cas has figured it out before he has—whatever it is—but he's not even that surprised. Cas knows him too well, always has, even more than Dean knows himself. He's been kicking Dean in the goddamn teeth with how deeply he understands him, even about the things Dean doesn't, ever since they first met. You don't think you deserve to be saved, that's what Cas had said. All bundled up in impossibilities and power, this being that looked at Dean Winchester and knew every single inch of him, as if he had a right to each part. "What?" Dean grits out. "I love you, too." Rating: Explicit Words: 62,240 Chapters: 3/3

break the skin (to break the barriers) - By sobsicles

The first time she meets him, he's nothing more than an almost-missed appointment.  ~~~ Dean is silent for a long, tense moment, then he gruffly says, "It's not for banishing the angels. It's to summon them. So, it doesn't—it's not to get rid of 'em, but to draw 'em in."  Mitzi can't help but glance up at him at that. His voice is so heavy with so much unexplained pain, and she doesn't understand why, or what angels have to do with it. She knows religion can impact people. She's very aware that it can get complicated, and that it can be a huge source of pain for someone, but Dean sounds grievously wronged, somehow, as if it's a truly personal thing.  She pushes through, focusing back on her job, clearing her throat before murmuring, "Well, I guess we all want angels to visit us sometimes."  "Just the one," Dean mumbles.  "Your guardian angel?" Mitzi asks.  Dean breathes out, "Something like that. As close to one as an angel will ever get." Rating: Mature Words: 29,620 Chapters: 1/1 

according to all known laws of life - By sobsicles

Cas comes back. It's not exactly the reunion that Dean is expecting. ~~~ Dean stares at him, flummoxed. Cas quite literally poured his heart out to Dean, gave a truly sappy and distressingly romantic speech and everything, then proceeded to give his life so that Dean could live his. And he wants to act like he doesn't want to see Dean, be around him, touch him? Actually, Dean's ninety-nine percent sure that Cas probably wants to fuck him, and while he has no clue how he feels about that, he's pretty goddamn sure that means Cas doesn't get to act like this and make it authentic. It feels strangely real, though, as if Cas wants nothing more than to get as far away from him as possible. This is a blatant contradiction. Even someone as weird as Cas doesn't want to get away from the person they have the desire to fuck five ways to Sunday, that they're in love with. That's not how these things work, so Dean isn't buying it. Rating: Explicit Words: 29,727 Chapters: 1/1

and he's back (with a mind of his own) - By sobsicles

The walls bleed black again, and Castiel is deposited back into the room he was snatched from in a far more undignified manner than he left it.  ~~~ His face is hot when he pulls the beer away from his mouth, a rising sense of panic fluttering in his chest. He has thought these things, known them, of course, but it feels so different now because Dean will know. He is going to look at Castiel and know exactly how he feels, what he thinks. That is...distressing.  Perhaps Dean will avoid it. He is very good at doing those things. When faced with something he simply doesn't want to acknowledge, that's his first method of handling the situation, and Castiel is sure that it will go this way again. He is banking on it, in fact.   It will be fine. He has Jack. Sam will be here, a welcome presence and a perfect buffer. It's all going to be fine. Rating: Explicit Words: 38,219 Chapters: 1/1

things happen (they do, they do, and they do) - By sobsicles

So, the first thing that happens is Castiel comes back. ~~~ "Right," Dean says eventually, gruffly. He looks down at his shoes. "I'm not gonna tell you how to live your life, man. It's—you know, yours. Do your thing, love who you love, whatever. I can't really stop you from loving me, if that's what you've decided to do, but I don't—I can't—" "I know," Castiel murmurs, still just smiling a little, not looking heartbroken at all. "Don't worry about it, Dean, that's all I ask." "So we're—" Dean risks a glance up, swallowing thickly. "We're good?" Castiel hums. "We're good." Rating: Explicit Words: 27,918 Chapters: 1/1

let's take a drive - By sobsicles

Dean takes a really, really long drive to kick fear in the ass. It might just be the best thing he ever decides to do. ~~~ The seat squeaks, and Dean follows the sound, his gaze trailing down. There—where Jack sat moments ago—is a much tinier version of him. He looks mostly the same, just...smaller and more dimply and cuter, if that's possible. His clothes have shrunk to fit him, so he's casually sitting in a t-shirt, jeans, and scuffed tennis shoes. He swings his feet from side-to-side over the edge of Baby's seat the same way Sam used to in the back, and he stares up at Dean with clear eyes.  "Oh," Dean blurts out, eyes bulging, "Cas is going to fucking kill me."  Rating: Explicit Words: 121,930 Chapters: 12/12

I CARRY YOUR HEART (I CARRY IT IN MY HEART) - By unicornpoe

“Take me,” Dean says. He doesn’t have to think about it. “Take me as your vessel, Cas.” * or: Cas is cursed into an endless sleep. Dean offers himself up as his vessel while they try to break it. Rating: Explicit Words: 26,505 Chapters: 1/1

you're fooling yourself - By cowboydeanwinchester

Dean Winchester and Castiel retire from hunting to raise baby Jack. Dean struggles to allow himself the things he truly wants. Jack is two, Castiel and Dean are idiots, and Sam's gotta solve everyone's problems. Part 1 of it's brighter now (babyjackverse) Rated: Teen And Up Words: 13,051 Chapters: 1/1

daylight - By cowboydeanwinchester

Turns out, having sex in the kitchen in the middle of the night with your guy best friend (who you're raising a toddler with) doesn't immediately cure 42 years of repression. Dean navigates the beginning of his relationship with Cas and raise a toddler, all while preparing to have his family over for Thanksgiving. And it's fine. Completely fine. Sequel to You're Fooling Yourself. Part 2 of it's brighter now (babyjackverse) Rated: Teen And Up Words: 8,713 Chapters: 1/2

dean's coworkers vs the heteronormative agenda - By cowboydeanwinchester 

Dean started working at a local auto repair shop in Lebanon, Kansas about a year ago. His coworkers don't know much about him. Except that he has a wife. Or maybe he doesn't. But he has a kid. Who is either a toddler or a high schooler. Who is either named Jack or Sammy. He also might have a best friend named Cas, but that also might be his wife. Truth is nobody knows what to make of Dean. -- In universe, where nobody dies and Cas and Dean get domestic and Dean doesn't realize the mental hoola-hoops he's causing his coworkers to work through. Rated: Teen And Up Words: 4,106 Chapters: 1/1 

[artychaild]

They are celebrating his birthday <3

[danganronpastories]

Day 1: Rescue

(First day of comfortember let’s gooo!!) “I’m worried about you, and I’m scared......that one day I won’t be there to help you. I just want you to be more careful” Gundham wept, standing in front of Kazuichi, tears streaming down his face. Kazuichi tensed and started to walk closer to the man. But let’s go back to why this incident occurred ------------- It had been a nice day for Kazuichi and Gundham. They had decided to go out clothes shopping, it mostly consisted of Gundham being a fashion king and picking out the greatest outfits and him stopping Kazuichi from picking something completely embarrassing or unfashionable. The incident happened on the walk home.  Kazuichi was crossing the street, rushing ahead of Gundham who was carrying most of the bags. Suddenly a red car came down the street, Kazuichi had just stood there, his primal instincts to dodge didn’t kick in and he just stared. In the next second though he was on the ground and the car had missed him. Then in a split second he was dragged to the the sidewalk where they both sat on the ground. “Kazuichi are you ok?” Gundham whisper yelled, breathing heavy. Kazuichi shook, “Y-yeah, did you save me?” Kazuichi asked, getting up with Gundhams help. Gundham nodded, grabbing his hand tight. Kazuichi looked at Gundham, only to realize small tears were starting to prick Gundham eyes. “W-We’re going home, I need to talk to you” Gundham muttered out, his voice starting to get more shaky. The moment the door was shut behind them, Gundham dropped the bags and turned to his pink haired boyfriend. Kazuichi couldn’t not notice the way Gundhams shaking had increased since the walk home. “What were you thinking!? When you see a car coming at you you run Kaz!” Gundham yelled, wiping his eyes, his voice cracking. “Gundham-” Kazuichi muttered, his heart feeling like it was cracking. “Baby- I- I need you to be more careful, I keep saving you from life threatening situations Kazzy. I’m worried, please just be more careful” Gundham quieted down tapering off as the tears kept streaming. Kazuichi looked down, Gundham was right..... Gundham had been saving him from situations, he knew he needed to be more careful, take care of himself. Then Gundham said the line and now they were at where they are now --------- Kazuichi hugs Gundham and the boy collapses in his arms, burying his face in the crook of Kazuichis neck. Kazuichi kisses him on the cheek. “It’s ok Gunny, I promise I’ll be more careful, we’re ok.” Kazuichi whispers to his boyfriend. “Hey babe?” Kazuichi says, Gundham pulls away to look at Kaz. “Yeah?” Gundham whispers, eyes red and somewhat puffy. “I’ll make us some smoothies, I’ll light some candles and we can watch some Youtube videos on my phone” Kazuichi explains, moving a white strand of Gundhams hair behind Gundhams ear. Gundham smiles, a loving sight that sends Kazuichis beating heart aflutter. Kazuichi kisses Gundhams cheek and pats his back, “To the couch with you, my overlord of ice” Kazuichi instructs his beloved, letting go of his hand. Gundham nods, kissing Kazuichis cheek delicately like a snowflake. Kazuichi walks to the clean counter and takes out a blender. “Hmm” Kazuichi hums to himself as he ruffles through their fruit and veggie filled fridge. He settles on some apples and bananas for Gundham, and some raspberries, blackberries, and grapes for himself. He also grabs some almond milk to give the smoothies some volume. He sings a little song to himself while he makes the smoothies. Kazuichi takes the drinks to the couch where Gundham is lounging, eyes closed. Kazuichi smiles, sitting down and poking the mans cheek gently. “eyes open sleepyhead, I got your smoothie” Kazuichi whispers lovingly to his adorable boyfriend. Gundhams eyes fluttered open and he laughs genuinely, it always makes Kazuichi smile when Gundham laughs like that. Kazuichi turns on Youtube, resting his head on Gundhams shoulder. “Are you alright my love?” Gundham asks, stroking Kazuichis bubblegum pink hair. “Yes i’m alright.....Thank you for saving me” Kazuichi answers, melting into the touch. “There is no need to thank me my dear, it is my duty. But please promise me you’ll be more careful dove” Gundham requests, pulling Kazuichi closer. “I promise, I love you” Kazuichi says, “I love you too Kazuichi” Gundham says back, kissing him on the forehead.

[terus-time-killer]

So does that mean Teruteru woke up as a despair? He looks good!

Hajime: he did. Everyone who didn’t make it to the simulation woke up as if it never happened. It probably just felt like a long nap to them. Some of them are still despairs. If you ask him, he’ll probably pretend not to know what your talking about.

[terus-time-killer]

What’s Teruteru’s thoughts on everyone from his class since the neo world program?

Teruteru: I haven't had a chance to see them recently, so I don't have much of an answer. And I can't really remember the neo whatchamacallit. Teruteru: all I can remember is back when we were in school and-.. ah, well-

Teruteru: ahh-Owari and I usually got along pretty well. mostly thanks to her good appetite. Same with mioda and Mitarai(imposter). The three of them used to race during breakfast. “see who could eat the most before first period” I think was the goal. Not that I really cared who won. I was just happy to see my classmates enjoying my food. Teruteru: And sometimes… Teruteru: sometimes I miss cooking for them. But, I ah, I doubt any of them would eat what I have to offer now.

Hajime: none of class 77 have memories of the neo world program. When they emerged, everyone but the survivors had fully reverted to despairs. Getting them to cooperate are has been..difficult