#post ldr

[stars-and-magnolias]

Started school 2 weeks ago and it has been quite overwhelming. Mostly because it’s in Danish and even though I speak it pretty much fluently, my insecurities do get to me. Am I good enough? Am I smart enough? Will I ever get into vet school? These are the questions that run through my head all day. It’s exhausting, mainly because I know I got this.

Last week we had to write an analysis on a piece of Danish literature and it wasn’t easy. I struggled quite a bit with it, but I decided to just go for it and see what happens. I got the feedback on that piece back and heard that I wrote one of the best pieces in class. Made some mistakes, but nothing major. If I work on those mistakes I could get a perfect grade. Amazing right? Yes, but for some reason my brain keeps telling me that I won’t ever be able to improve and get better. Ridiculous!

I know it’s only been two weeks and I should just get used to it because it’s just so new. But it’s frustrating that I can’t seem to get rid of that anxiety. I guess we’ll see how the rest goes. In the end, getting into vet school is the only thing that matters, so I’m just going to fight for it.

[stars-and-magnolias]

What my wednesdays look like.. On wednesdays my boyfriend and I tend to go to our local cafe to eat cake and drink coffee. We sit down and talk about how our days have been, what’s on our mind and our plans for the rest of the week. It’s a nice way to relax a bit and spend some quality time out of our home. Ever since we started doing it, I began looking forward to Wednesdays

[voidedout]

Pinch me

Its really amazing to find someone that you click with. Its hard when that person lives so far away. What’s even more amazing is when you beat all the odds that are against you. Distance, people, finances, you name it. We beat it. We beat it all. I married my LDR, my love, my everything, my best friend.

[insiderysk]

alexis and i occasionally have these moments where we fall in love with each other all over again or sometimes fall even more in love (which doesn’t even seem possible) and it just happened. I’m so happy and we danced and kissed and hugged and cried together. i don’t know what starts it or whatever but i just felt so at home. so comfortable, even more comfortable than with my own family. Being long distance then suddenly living with each other every single day has been so amazing and challenging at the same time. I feel like we’ve gotten even closer and i’m so happy to call you my boyfriend and best friend. and I really hope that one day, others can feel this way too. with their significant other.  <3 

[voidedout]

So I'm away from home this week. It's already been a long week and it's only the first day. For the first time since December, when Will and I moved in together, we will be away from each other for a long period of time. Yes, by all means I know it's only a week. It's just the distance is back. I know the distance and the time apart from each other has been far greater, but it's back. I went from being on my own all the time to having him by my side everyday. The nights are going to be long. Cold bed with out him. Holding a pillow instead of cuddling on him like always. I know it's just a week but to me it's different.

[voidedout]

Hiking for the day. Two trails one day. Making our state parks challenge. Park #2 Pine Mountain State Park Pineville, Kentucky