#posts by jasper

[littlemymelody]

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Being Conceptkin: Nightmarekin

I was inspired by a friend of ours to make this post, as being Nightmarekin is very important to me, so let’s get into this shall we?

I’d like to preface this with saying I’m a headmate in a system, and my origins are very confusing, but we consider it to be spiritual in nature. The point is that, in the world I lived before here, I was a nightmare demon, a shapeshifter, a monster even in the waking world, and an infiltrator of dreams. “Nightmare demon” may sound like all I need, but it runs deeper than that. This is a case of me being a demonic entity versus being a nightmare given physical form.

So I’m here to talk about being nightmarekin. To me, being nightmarekin means embodying the chaos, uncanniness, and sheer horror that comes with nightmares. It also encapsulates that indescribable and unpredictable aspect of nightmares, as they can take any form and appear to anyone at anytime. And it also includes that part of nightmares that can be honestly very creative, inspirational even, and maybe even a bit silly.

A nightmare isn’t inherently body horror. It doesn’t always mean someone gets hurt. It can be as mundane as the feeling that something is always watching or is slowly getting closer, or just that something is “off.” But nightmares aren’t always malicious. They can remind you of what you care about or show you what you can work on to improve yourself and the way you see the world. They can push you to steel yourself so you can fight your nightmares or prove them wrong. They can even just be so ridiculous that you find yourself laughing about said nightmare later as opposed to staying struck with fear.

As nightmarekin, I am fairly chaotic and macabre, and I occasionally crave that feeling of just being able to let loose and strike intense mind-warping fear in others’ hearts. But, really, I’m more so the type that may try to get in a cheap scare that everyone can laugh about later, unless someone truly deserves something a little bit more horrific to think about for a while. I also enjoy musing the designs of Lovecraftian abominations and how I might learn to draw such things to express myself in my free time.

My day-to-day existence as a nightmare plays on the uncanny. My typical form in the headspace is relatively normal, but it often changes in little unsettling ways for a moment. Sometimes an extra eye or two here, a second mouth there, a little bit of my head splitting there, maybe my head or hands detaching from my body and floating around... But I’m a shapeshifter after all, so I have the freedom to do whatever I’d like to myself inside the headspace, which changes how my nightmare self can end up expressed. This is just all I know, and others will probably experience nightmarekinnity in their own way.

Just because something is intangible or something that one considers a phenomenon that has no soul aspect to it or etcetera, that doesn’t mean that conceptkin aren’t valid. The multiverse is vast, so everything is possible somewhere, and everyone should be allowed to embrace who they are. And even if you’re a conceptkin that doesn’t know how to put your feelings and experiences into words, you’re still you and always will be. Just like how I am me. I am a nightmare, and no amount of hecklers will ever make me think or say otherwise.

[littlemymelody]

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