i'm thinkin of powderpaws (and kit) again ....... ........
if i were mean i'd say that every time powderpaws wishes her clan to survive and grow and flourish her despair grows because each time she wishes them well she feels it will come at the cost of her leaving forever she is insignificant and a burden to them
each transformation "i wish!" ..... (i fear)
each grief seed taken "i wish." ...... (.... i fear)
attack "i wish" attack "i fear"
each de-transformation "i hope it's (her wish) enough" (uneasy)