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[marietheran]

girl help my scrupulosity is back

[profoundlyclassysoul]

Sorry to ask, but can you help me?

So I have been in and out of the hospital since about March 15th and was just released and diagnosed officially on April 23rd. Then I turned 25 on the 26th.

I have been Diagnosed with MS (multiple sclerosis) which is kind of scary but I'll make it, the only thing is I haven't been able to work because of the appointments and well the fact that I'm blind in one eye and have no depth perception. As a server that makes it hard for me to serve tables and make money. If anyone can help with anything so I can try to afford the new medicine I need as well as rent and hospital bills I would really really appreciate it. I know everyone has their own life and needs, just I didnt know where else to go. I promise I'm not trying to get rich, just survive. Also if anyone deals with or knows a lot about MS please message me I'm a little scared.

Paypal: paypal.me/JadedJem

Venmo: JadesAJem

[growing2glowing]

My car was stolen last night! The lord is testing meeee😫 I'll be okay tho. I have insurance that should cover my loan and I'm healthy enough to take a bike to work if needed. Jesus gives me the wisdom to know what I can control. We shall persist✊️

The gym is further than my work, but I asked my sister to include me when she goes. And since I'm working on staying calm and optimistic.. at least I have a reason for a "personal business" day off work. My bosses also highly respect me and my work ethic so they're chill and even offering support and rides if needed.

I don't need to panic. Life is chaotic, but god is one my side.

[tiny-increments]

I think I’m at the point in my personal Daredevil fandom that I need to watch the mid-2000s movies and figure out how the hell I can even begin to reconcile 1) my despise of Ben Affleck with my love of Matt Murdock and 2) my love of both Elektra and Jennifer Garner when my Venn diagram of them is miles apart.

[theholydivines]

Aphrodite, help me manifest them confessing first 💗🙏🏼

[ibringyouthegoodnews]

Pt 3

I skipped out on a lot of details in my last posts, however I feel like I'm at a good point where I can start to focus on the light and the good that God is doing through this bad situation. Once I realized that this was actually an answer to quite a few prayers that I've been praying about for the last year or so I became very thankful that I have finally reached this point, and how much it rekindled the love in my heart for god. Which for a few months became a bit dull on my side. I wasn't praying nearly as much as I should have been, I wasn't reading outside of church and Bible study, I wasn't doing the things that really maintain and grow my relationship with our heavenly father. My spiritual health was not where it should have been and it was really taking a toll on the rest of my life. It wasn't just affecting my mental and even physical health to a degree, but it was also affecting my personal relationships with the people I love the most.

Through that time I still loved god very much and once I realized that it was because I wasn't taking care of my spiritual health and that's why my mental health took a terrible toll on me, and I went through some serious spiritual warfare during this time. I had to sink really low to be reminded how much I need god and the only way to get better mentally was through him. So after having some really bad anxiety attacks and just total break downs I was just done. I was so tired of this happening, so tired of being miserable, and stuck in my own head, I just started praying to God begging him to help me, talking to him about all my anxieties, fears, and how awful I felt. Telling him how sick I am of being depressed and anxious and that through him I just want to get better. I was Asking him for comfort and thanking him for always listening to me and always being there for me.

Of course I didn't expect god to cure me instantaneously right then and there and that I would have to be patient and just keep praying about it.

God worked the answer to my prayer into the events that happened last week. I needed all that to happen so my sister and I could realize that our mental health problems stem a lot from growing up in a mentally abusive home caused by alcoholism and that going to counseling for that and learning more about it will be really good for us. We also learned how to cope better with my mom, because alcoholics tend to be manipulative and they lie a lot, which knowing that I know not to feed into it and it saves me a lot of heart ache. It also brought me a lot closer to my one older sister and to my boyfriend, who has been so loving and supportive through all of this, and God has really blessed me with such amazing support. Along with bringing us together it's really been pushing us (in a good way) to take the next step in our relationship. We have been talking about marriage and getting engaged for a year and it's only been because of my mom not giving her blessing that we aren't engaged right now. My boyfriend has had the ring since like November and was going to propose in December but ended up not doing it because he wanted to respect my parents. However now we know that my mom saying no is only because that's her being controlling and selfish and not actually wanting what's best for me, which makes her blessing a bit irrelevant. So as of right now we are looking at apartments and trying to work out financially whether we should elope, or plan a very small wedding, which is not ideal but we all came to the conclusion that it's better for me not to live with my parents for very much longer. But I am very excited to finally be moving on and taking complete ownership of my own life. So, definitely praying that it won't be a complete war zone when my parents find out that I'm moving.

On another note, after the events that took place last week the messages being taught at church and in my Bible study for the last couple of months all really started to come together. It's like god had been preparing me for this particular storm, really speaking to my heart and giving me so much wisdom and I am so thankful. I remember one cermon specifically that talked about how we all have mountains that we need to be moved and at the time I was repressing all the hurt and was in a bit of denial, so I couldn't think of what my mountain is and it became so crystal clear on Monday I had a nice long prayer and meditation session and god spoke to me. I finally knew that starting my own life, getting help, and letting go of everything that has been holding me back was my mountain. Moving out of this house and totally trusting in God to provide for me, and that I just had to be a little bit more patient and keep praying.

Romans 5:3-5

Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.

[ibringyouthegoodnews]

Hello everyone! I hope you all had a wonderful good Friday and Resurrection day! This last week and fading into this week has been filled with heart break, a roller coaster of emotions, realizations, but also growth. I just want to reach out to my fellow brothers and sisters for prayers and maybe putting this all out there will help another person remain hopeful. Pt. 1

So last Wednesday we caught my mother drinking again, she had once again finally gotten sloppy enough during her binge that we could prove that she was drinking again. My father wanted a divorce (which is a problem because he has a brain injury and she is his care taker) and it took about two days for that aspect of it to calm down, which is about how long it usually takes (the divorce part has happened like 3 or 4 times). The day after I found out she was drinking I was talking to her and trying to just talk about god with her and how she needs to go back to AA groups and how she needs other support groups through the church, and she opened up to me about how hard it is because of my olded sisters death(she passed away in a car accident when I was in second grade)and how hard it is because her husband has a brain injury, and I was comforting her and it went really well she even agreed to go to church with me on Easter and I drove her to her first Aa meeting because she told me she felt anxious about it.

That day my Aunt was contacting my sister's and I making sure we're okay and how everything is going, which I appreciated but was also frustrated and confused because I did not understand why all of a sudden she was concerned and reaching out to us because this has been going on non stop since I was about 9 or 10 (Im now almost 20 years old. She was talking to me about how it's great that I have my boyfriend to support me through this because he's a Christian and it's good that I've opened up about it even though my other older sister( lets refer to her as nc) tried to make me promise not to tell anyone. And my aunt told me to look into aca groups (adult children of alcohol parents) and I did I looked it up online and one of the first things that pops up is the laundry list (if you don't Know what that is google it) and at first I did not like it, and was in denial. I decided that I didn't want to attend one of those groups Because I decided that my mental health problems were not because my mother was an alcoholic but because I just had anxiety and Struggle with depression and maybe it stemmed from my dad having a brain injury and my older sister dieing in a car accident all before I was even in third grade.

On Saturday I learned that I thought this way because I was in denial and I was lied to and manipulated my whole life. I do suffer from the things on those lists. My older sister (who is also a Christian and is the one who lead me to coming to church (let's refer to her as gcs)) informed me that we all have behaviors on the laundry list and she gave me examples. The biggest one was Nc, who would try to protect my mother. Before my dad's Brain injury her and my older sister who is no longer with us (lets call her js) would cover for my mom while she drank till she passed out and kept it a secret from my dad.